Hello fellow addicts and those already free,
I smoked from from ages 16 to 29. I was a pack a day smoker. I quit for 10 years, until about two and a half years ago when my marriage fell apart. I started smoking again and got heavily back into it. It wasn't long until I switched to vaping. The discreetness with vaping appealed to me greatly over cigarettes and my addiction was stronger than ever through the accessibility vaping offers.
I hate that I'm a nicotine addict. I know this drug comes with a slew of cons and not one pro. I started smoking again to help me cope with the stress of a failed marriage and broken home, but of course, the reality is, nicotine doesn't help you solve any problems, in fact it just adds it's own to your existing ones.
I fully realize the foolishness of smoking and beat myself up for it daily. Alone the lethargy that comes with it is causes me shame. I've quit several times, twice for months on end, but can't seem to keep myself free of it. I allow myself to be triggered by unpleasant experiences. When things aren't going well between my girlfriend and I, for example, I relapse.
Well, I'm here now to say, I'm ready to leave this destructive, expensive, unpleasant addiction behind and free myself from the self-inflicted nicotine prison once and for all.
My will is strong, and now I have the support of this community for encouragement and aid.
Thanks for reading my story and for any kind words you have to offer.
And with that I draw my last breaths of nicotine.
