I desperately need help. How do you even make it past a few hours once you decide to quit?
I started smoking age 12 in 1998. In 2011 I started vaping (I think they where new out at that time from Liberty Flights) I smoked and vaped for 2 years. 2014 I vaped only but I vape way more than I smoked. I have it under my pillow, at my desk in work, in the bathroom, in the car literally everywhere. My 3 year old son picked up my vape to have a go so now am desperate to stop. Its literally all I think about. For the past 4 months I have been wearing a patch but still vaping every hour (better thank every 5 minutes). I literally just keep looking at the clock to see how long I haven't vaped for. Am annoyed at myself everyday, Its making me miserable. I spoke to my doctor yester about starting Varenicline (Champix) but she refused to prescribe them as in winter I have Raynaud's she thinks I should try some therapy but I feel that might be a waste of time. I can but Varenicline online but not sure if its safe considering my doc wouldn't prescribe it. Am too scared to bin the vapes in case I have a panic attack!!! It doesn't help that I work in a office I can literally have it hanging out my mouth all day.
Any advice or help would be so much appreciated.