Kristin

I can't offer much advice Evelyn, but wanted to let you know that I am cheering for you!! You can do this!!

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SAD is more than winter blues, it really can't be corrected with positive thoughts. Focusing on positive things helps but it takes more than that to feel happy. I live in Oregon and the dreary long gray winter is awful! I take an SSRI, snuggle up inside with blankets, warm drinks and good books/movies. It took me a long time to find a way to get through the winter halfway sane.Vitamin D is something a lot of people here do, along with the simulated sunlight lamps. I also keep lots of regular lights on in the house, and just pay for the electricity.

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I got really bad pneumonia and refused to go to the hospital like my doctor wanted because I knew they wouldn't let me smoke. I came home and tried to smoke the rest of the night sick as hell and coughing up a lung with each inhale. I stood there in the parking lot (only place I was allowed to smoke at my apt) and it hit me. I like breathing, and I am too damn smart to be standing there hacking and desperately trying to take a drag,looking like a sick fool instead of in the hospital getting better. At the very least my kids deserve better than that in their mother. After that I just started one hour at a time. On day 6 I found you guys and now I am heading to a month with loads of education and support.

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Woohoooo!! 4 months is awesome!

This is Loki!! He is very happy to be a non-smoking dog.

The hubs and I are doing: Honey Ginger Carrots Garlic Mashed Potatoes Pumpkin Cheescake Apple Pie The rest of the family is bringing other dishes, and we will go over to my dad to help him with cooking the turkey. :) I am super excited!!

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Nope!

Much better today!

Awesome!

Yep, you guys are stuck with me at least that long. :)

Bakon.... you have two sticks? Lol. -11

One day at a time!

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I had a big socializing day yesterday, foot ball game at my dads followed by birthday party for my nephew. Walked into my dads house to the strong smell of cigars (he quit ciGS 5 years ago but picked up the cigars a couple years back and smokes them inside). The rest of the game went well snacks were yummy and my cousin was there who also recently quit. Over all this was a good social situation. Next was bday party, also lots of fun. Kids got to go crazy at the pizza place. Lots of conversation with friends and family, ect. Then I fiND myself alone at the table, a bit confused. That's when it hit me, I was alone because they were all out smoking. The pictures on Facebook don't have me in them because most of them were taken when they were outside. I guess I'm feeling sad and a bit left out. As a result my craves have been worse all day today. I also keep thinking the battle will never be over. How can I make it if people with 5, 6, 7 years relapse? Need help fixing this mental disaster I'm cooking up here.

Woot! Good job!

Nope!

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