I'm not trying to sound harsh, but the fact that you had cigarettes handy is evidence that you are not ready to quit... If you keep anything related to smoking around and in reach, you are setting yourself up for failure... The time it takes to actually drive somewhere to buy a pack is enough time for the craving to pass and talk yourself out of getting them.
The " panic disorder" you describe sounds exactly like withdrawals from nicotine... You have to push through it. It's rough! There is only 1 way to quit smoking....... and that is to ....quit smoking!!..
I slept as often as I could because that was the only time I wasn't feeling the pains of withdrawal.... When awake, I stayed busy...even if it was something I wouldn't normally do...anything to keep my mind and hands busy... I would walk around the block ( I live in the country and a walk around e block is 4miles) I would walk as fast as I could and when I got home I felt like crap and had no desire to smoke....until the next craving...time is the only thing that helps ease the pain o
I know you are really trying, but you have to "stand your ground" ...you can't give in...it IS an addiction...no less than other drug addictions, and in many ways it's worse! Nicotine is legal, and (used to be) socially acceptable...and affordable, so besides the chemical dependency , there is the mental part that tells you it's perfectly ok (and legal) to do it, and you can get anyone who smokes to give you one...try that with a gram of coke!..