susie

Thank you everyone for the support. I won't give up trying!

Unfortunately I messed up this morning I'm so angry with myself because I know it would have started to get better eventually. But I'm exhausted. I'm also embarrassed and I didn't want to write this message at all. But I need to thank everyone for helping me. You're all so amazing. I'm sorry I couldn't do it even after all your help. I'm not going to stop trying. But I also need a break from thinking about it. The last few days have been so intense. The last few weeks have been intense too. I've read and learnt so much on here about quitting but I don't think my little brain could keep up with it all lol. Maybe I just did everything too fast. I only started thinking about quitting after Christmas. And I didn't know anything then. I understand a lot more about the addiction and myself now and I know I can do it! I will use all of the information everyone has written here next time. Thank you everyone!

Thank you everyone. I'm awake again in the middle of the night. I don't feel like writing too much but I'm reading everything many times. I'm so happy about all the support.

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Lunar

Alyssa

Thank you both for the messages and support. It really helps. So did beating the sticks lol I know using NRT is not the best idea. I just don't know if I can do it. I have read quite a few messages about how people deal with the first few days. My mind knows what's right but my body says nope. I hate having to cover up the smell all the time too! I will have a look at a ticker and the nope thread. It's kinda cool knowing I haven't smoked about 20 cigarettes already. I'm nearly 2 days now. I'm counting the minutes lol

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