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@Brioski Frustration. 14 and 19 year old daughters. That sums it up lol. For me smoking was always so medicating for anger. Or maybe for everything. Like any addict. It's been 6 hours, sigh.

When I relapsed last year i never went back to never smoking while driving. That was THE WORST association for me to give up. It has to be easier now right?! The mental torture of walking away from the garage door (i only smoke outside near garage). I know. It sounds dramatic but it's so hard to verbalize what that moment feels like as it passes. Though you all know that feeling, just need to vent! Ty!

Thank you everyone. I have been watching Joel's videos for 2 hours. I am feeling like I NEED to quit more than I WANT to quit, and everytime I have this thought I start crying. I don't want to do nicotine replacement or Chantix. I may sound stubborn, but If I can go 8 or 9 hours then I dont want to add nicotine.

I thinks it's boredom-I will work on this. Maybe take on knitting!! Thank you for reaching out. How long has it been now for you? What helped?

Caved!!! Couple a day since Thursday. Ugh. I wish I could be that couple of day person forever.

@Sandi149 I hear you! I could eat all day! We have to stay distracted and agree one minute at a time.

@overcome Thank you! I'm going to read tonight. I'm also looking forward to waking up in the morning without anxiety attacks. What an awful feeling. This is a great group.

@Sandi149 I was just bouncing around the forum and saw what may have been your first post? Congratulations on giving up those last couple of cigs a day!! Amazing work! If you can go 10 days you got this! I think for me I need to focus on keeping myself busy. And not eat every 5 min!

I'm sure I will be posting often! Thanks everyone for all the support!

@DenaliBlues I did jumping jacks last night so I can relate! @Sandi149 I will try that!

@Sandi149 I guess we just can't look back. I feel like looking back makes me feel so guilty and then I want to smoke the guilt away! Sometimes it feels like such a natural wave rolls over me "time for cigarette. I need it now" and then it passes. So weird.

Hmm..I never thought of an inhaler, thanks! First quit I had pneumonia three weeks. Was like bedridden! Hoping not this time

Thank you for the warm welcome@jillar! Will definitely look around. The breathing is scaring me the most now.

Hi everyone! I am new to the forum today. I am 4 days free after a 14 month relapse following a 2 year+ quit. I started smoking more than 30 years ago. I had been feeling tired, needing to take deep breaths at times, finding it difficult to get through a typical workout. Monday I decided that's it. I need to be done with this. I had more than 2 years of blissful freedom and I caved. A family issue presented itself, I was so stressed. I felt like such a failure, such an addict buying that pack. I've been really tearful and angry and bored and tired. Like I don't want to do anything. It feels like I'm giving up my best friend. Does anyone else feel that way? The grief is so real. The first time I quit Allen Carr's book really helped me. I'm going to read it again. Have any of you read his book? What do you think of it?