Even though at the time we think we enjoyed smoking, it was the addiction taking over. I also would "reward" myself after doing things. After I would come home from food shopping, I would have to have that cig, after coming home from anything that I did out of the house I would have that cig. After eating and countless other things, so you are definitely not alone. We all did it. Try and do something else after you finish your chores so you don't think of smoking. Trust me all these symptoms WILL come to an end. I was a basket case in the beginning. You can ask anyone here how I was those first couple of months. I was climbing the walls, I was crying to everyone, it was a horror show, but eventually the withdrawal both physically and mentally became less and less. I will not lie and say I don't get them anymore, because even after a year smoke free I do get them every once in a while, but they don't last more than a minute or so and then I just shove them out of my head and I'm fine, and you will be too!! Try the cinnamon sticks as I suggested in my other post. They really did help me and I used them for about a month or so. I know you can do this because you are here and you want to do it! We were all in the same boat as you are, every single one of us, so we know exactly what you are going through!! Hang in there Kenzie!!! Take a deep breath and just move forward, do everything, except smoke!!