Hi @Breath-of-Power I totally get where you are coming from. My 98 year old mother lives downstairs from me and has been a lifelong smoker and I am with her a lot her a lot. It was difficult in the beginning of my quit to see her smoking in her space. She was even willing to not smoke when I was around, but I told her that she should still smoke because it's her space, and in reality there are going to be people who smoke , but I can't make them quit because this is my journey, not theirs. I actually think that this has made me stronger because I see it and smell it all day long, although I'm so used to the smell that I don't really smell it anymore, but other people who go into her house smell it a lot. Anyway, this quit belongs to YOU, not your brother or anyone else, just YOU! Is it difficult, absolutely, it will be very difficult, but it will get easier and easier as the time goes on. The withdrawal symptoms will go from being constant every second to where you don't even think about smoking at all or at least not very often, unless you come on here which makes me think of it...LOL!! The frequency of the urges will also get less and less. The longer you stay quit, the easier it will become thankfully! This is the 2nd time I quit....the first time I found it easier because I used Chantix and it makes you forget to smoke. I quit for 6 years but went back because my husband was having a heart procedure and I was very nervous and afraid. Of course, the smoking didn't make me any less nervous or afraid. The 2nd time which was May of last year I started with the weaning method working my way down from 3/4-1 pack a day to none. That was the worst idea, because I was in constant withdrawal all day long. In addition to having the physical cravings, I was always in a bad mood and on edge, it was just terrible. About the time that I was down to 2 cigs a day is when I joined Quit Train. I found them after I saw a few other online support groups but they didn't look as active or as good. Quit Train is the right fit for me! After I posted my story, everyone said you cannot wean yourself because it will put you in perpetual withdrawal, and ohh were they right. So after about 2 weeks of being on here every day, I decided that I'm done, I'm giving them up, I'm not gonna smoke anymore! Well, here I am, a year and a half later. This is definitely my last time because who the H3ll wants to go through withdrawal a third time! , NOT ME!! But, do I still get an urge? Uhmm yes, but not the same thing like I got in the beginning. I'm not climbing the walls anymore, it's more like a passing thought that passes quickly and then it's gone when I am in or WITH certain triggers. I imagine that in a few more years I won't even get that, I hope. My advice to you @Breath-of-Power, is make your decision for you, and ONLY you, and then just go with the flow. Just don't smoke, that's how all the cravings will end. Just keep doing it every day, day in and day out and you will get to where I am and where all the others on here are. JUST DO IT!! We are all here for you to help you succeed!
Best of luck to you and we hope to see you soon!
P.S. Sorry it's so long!