Molly2310

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Well, here I am, approaching the end of my first week. I have to say that in some respects it’s been easier than I imagined, and, in other respects every bit as problematic. I’ve had really strong urges over the last couple of days but I’ve been more determined than I ever have before. I’m so grateful for the support that I have from my remaining family and from here. I honestly don’t think I would be feeling this way if not for that so thank you all from the bottom of my heart. Onwards and upwards, one day at I time. Oh and I love the NOPE thread on here, although I have to admit that for me it’s more of a not one puff today. I know I’ll reach the “ever” sentiment one day though which I love. Thanks again guys and gals

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Good morning all, Just checking in - Day 6 is here and I'm doing so much better, today is a really good day I hope everyone is having a wonderful day.

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I commit to one year quit. I’ll admit that I’m going to struggle to do that for me. Committing for today is as far as I can go for me. I’ll commit to one year for my brother. That I can and am happy to do. Hopefully somewhere down this road I’ll be happy to do it for me too

Dear Molly, your Mum died suddenly on 10th February 2013, you were not smoking at the time, it was during your 9 month quit. You quit because your mum was a heavy smoker all of your life as well as an alcoholic. You were so worried about her, even though you were going down the same path. She was self destructive, so were you. You made a decision to stop smoking as the first step down a road of showing both of you that you could change. It wasn’t in time. You should have done it sooner, she might still be here if you had. You started smoking again, you fool. You looked after your Dad, remember? He had stopped in 1998 when he had his leg amputated because of smoking but you carried on. You watched him die from clogged up lungs despite having been quit for 20 years. He was in hospital in 2021. It took 7 days in hospital and 7 minutes in the end. You have scared your brother so much since then, he has lost his parents to smoking too. He didn’t say a word to you at the time but you saw the look in his eyes, you knew how scared he was of losing you too. You know how proud he is of you, how relieved he is that he doesn’t have to watch you kill yourself too. I know that you feel so alone sometimes, I know that on bad days you miss people so much that you feel like you don’t care if you die. I know that life feels empty a lot of the time but just think a minute, remember. You have had so many beautiful times lately, you have played with your nephews. You are loved, and you love. You will ALWAYS feel better in the morning, and you ALWAYS will. Remember that every day has the potential for something good: of a smile, of a laugh, of a special kind of happiness. Of a perfect beauty. Of nature, a song, a comedy show, a story, of a new friend, of so many things. There is so much to look forward to, even if you can’t always see it. There are days when you don’t even see the “good” until you go to bed and think, or when you wake up the next morning and recall. Promise yourself that you will always wait until tomorrow before you do anything silly and regretful yours Molly

Hiya, can I just say that I’m so very grateful to have found this place, thank you everyone for being so supportive. im nearing the end of day 4 and wanted to ask something. I’ve noticed that today the urges to smoke have been stronger. I thought about it in as analytical way as I could and came to the conclusion that they may feel like that for me because it was nigh on constant in the first few days but now I’m feeling “normal” for periods of time (admittedly not for long) so I’m noticing and feeling the urges more because they feel more noticeable. Does that make sense? Or am I just being overly optimistic? Again, thanks for being here

Hi everyone, any recommendations for a good epic fantasy book series to read? I love them and I can lose myself in them for hours at a time

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Hi WeegieWoman, Yes it's day 4 and so far it has been a little easier than yesterday which I'm grateful for. It's my second day at work so that is taking my mind off it a little. Everyone is being really understanding with me which is lovely of them. Only today and 3 more days and I'll have finished my first week

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Hi everyone, day 3 is almost done for me. It hasn’t been easy today, urges to smoke coming thick and fast. I’ll be relieved to go to sleep and wake up in day 4. One day at a time. That’s the way I’m going to look at it

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Banners and cards

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Well I made it to day 2 I read Allen Carr’s book and, to be honest, I am surprised not to be climbing the walls this morning. Yesterday certainly had it’s moments but I have a feeling that today might be more intense. I am spending the day with family, none of whom smoke, and will lurk around here and read in the quiet moments. I know this is a journey of many steps, going steeply uphill at first, then plateauing and finally coming down a lovely gentle slope into a sweet smelling meadow. Day 2 is just one of those steps. And I’m stronger now, because I’m on here I hope everyone has a lovely day

Bind a book

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