Shymaid

Nope!

Thank you, @Mac#23! The monster is definitely still there! Every day it starts whispering "You are doing great! So you can have one, just one. You really want one. Just one won't hurt. Just pick up again from that, as you are doing so good. So good you can handle just one. Do you really want to live a cigarette-free life? They are really good, you know. You KNOW!" etc etc. Hardest to resist at night, though I'm getting the hang of it!

Oh, I know it's just the beginning of the journey! Thanks for the warning, though, with the breathing. I'm just glad my body has been able to tell me it's much happier without it before anything like that might kick in - and that I'm able to hear it as I'm not hysterical Like some breathing pain I didn't really notice (or steadfastly ignored...) until I took that one cigarette on Sunday, then I remembered I've had that for a time. Also I feel cleaner inside in general, which is a great relief! I've had a need to "get clean" inside for quite a while now, so it's gratifying to finally start moving toward that! Yeah, I found that out the hard way Hadn't seen it mentioned anywhere in what I'd read, but found out on Sunday. It's really a good thing, as I drink way too much coffee anyway and have been wanting to cut down or go off completely. Easier when your body doesn't tolerate it anymore!

The day is over for my part, almost time for bed, but NOPE!

Much easier today than when I first started! Several things has changed for it to be that way, and I've learned a lot in how to deal with the cravings. - Apparently anger will drain the body of nicotine, so that explains the VERY strong urges I had Saturday when I was fuming. Also as I've dealt with that by taking a cigarette before, so I have to find better ways to deal with that emotion. The anger today gave me much less cravings, showing how the body has rid itself of the vast majority of the nicotine. - I've only had 4 cups of coffee today (the measurement cups, not actual mugs I drink from! They are way larger!) and I used a smaller cup to see if that helped by tricking me to think I'd had more than I had. That didn't work, the coffee was gone in no time. But I switched to tea instead for the rest of the day, and had 3 cups of that. It really improved the cravings, or rather what I'd thought was cravings. It really was the buzz from the caffeine I'm no longer used to feeling, and so mistook that for nicotine cravings. - It helps doing stuff I don't normally do, but I don't think that's a long term answer. I have to go back to my normal life sooner or later, so I have to learn to deal with it in my normal situation. But perhaps it will help during these first few days at least. Also I'm looking forward to wash down everything to get rid of the staining! All in all I think the first three days will be much easier now than my original three first days. Most of the filth is out of my system by now, so the hardest detox part is probably over. Mucous is starting to come out as well, less fun, hehe! But not too bad. A bit more cough and a bit more stuffy in my sinuses. Blood sugar has started to normalize; the first days I got a wolf hunger about every second hour - which I am NOT used to! But that has mostly gone now and been replaced by a more normal sense of hunger. I knew the cigarettes affected my hunger, but didn't realize how much! Also my head is a bit more in place now, though sometimes I zone out a bit still. It's fairly exciting to find out how my body will work without regular administrations of poison! Upward and onward!

Yes, confidence is definitely a part of it for me! The cravings has always seemed so scary to me, and the fear of failure. I'm glad you've found a resource that works for you! Sometimes you just have to find the message conveyed the right way for you! I'll keep the book in mind if I find I need more to keep me going, so thank you for the recommendation! Well, the burger was well done! But I think I've done well as well, haha!

I suppose a little celebration is in order: today was my 150th day of yoga in a row! Ups and downs, but I kept showing up for myself on the mat and I love it! Getting stronger and more flexible, and even managed to mostly fix my bad back and pelvis after over 10 years of problems! Why didn't I hear of Yin Yoga before?!? It will only go up from here as I also leave the cigarettes behind me!

Thank you, @Doreensfree!

If this attempts fail, I might try that. I don't want to mix and match too many methods, and right now it's going well. Second half of the day has been fairly good (might be because I've been shopping, though ), and the pangs hasn't been too bad. Including after eating a huge burger! A slight after-meal-pang, but it wasn't hard at all to sit through.

Thank you, @Doreensfree & @Mac#23! After a bit of a bumpy ride first half of the day, the second have has been a lot smoother. I hope to be over the worst, at least when it comes to detoxifying as I've only had one since early Thursday evening. Feels like I'm getting control over the withdrawal pangs now. So far it's the most promising quit I've had, which I'm really happy about!

Oh, yes! Internet addiction is not only real, but very prevalent! I think many don't realize because it's not a physical drug; or they know/suspect but don't take it seriously because it's not something physical. In many ways similar to nicotine addiction, which is taken less serious than other drugs. I'm very aware of it in myself, though, and try to take periods off the computer and immerse myself in analogue life. Today it was mostly as some of the resources I use to keep my mind off nicotine and strengthen my resolve, is on the internet. This place, Allen Carr's book, videos etc. So I became a bit panicky about that. Not to mention my yoga is online, and as this is my 150th day I most certainly do NOT want to miss it just because some BLOODY FOOLS can't do their job properly!!! We changed service provider today, and they mixed something up in the transfer. I had resigned to the fact that it might not be back until tonight, when I suddenly saw it was fixed!

Thank you, @feeling_patchy! Was a rough start to the day; one of those where everything seems to go wrong and everything is done just to make you angry Including the internet being down for some hours. But I've managed so far at least

Congratulations!!! I'm so happy for you, well done! I know we've only talked for a couple of days, but thank you so much for your support so far! You're doing a great job helping others find their way through that damned smoke in and around their heads. Seems like May 29 is a lucky day

I do like watching my ticker as well, and get a bit annoyed when it doesn't move when/how I think it should The tickers of all you pros on here is very inspirational as well, as I can see it's possible and doable! You can do it! Soon you will be completely nicotine free!

Oh, there's that as well! Confused it with the ticker, lol