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Thank you, friends. Your words mean a lot to me . @DenaliBlues I’m so sorry to hear about your mom. You are incredibly strong and resilient for keeping your quit, my jaw literally dropped when I read that. And I’m sorry really for everybody’s losses and/or hardships, big or small it’s so hard. I have questions too but I have da fog so bad right now I can’t even think lol. Having my coffee and watching the news. I also (try not to use too often but) have a “BAC”…like Jillar’s JAC . It’s a couple straws w a piece of cotton ball in it. Helped yest in the car. oh I remember some… -I get cravings and sometimes/lotta times cry, but it’s over in a min or two. Already seem to be getting less. I’m scared it’s a fallacy and it’s gonna get way worse in 2-3 weeks, few months, etc. I figure it’s different for everybody but did anyone brace themselves like nervous it’s gonna get worse? -I never really knew this but recently have learned ppl could still get horrible lung/smoking related diseases after they quit, even years after. This makes me very anxious. Even Jillar you mentioned this, which I’m so sorry abt. -I read a lot about the science of this addiction, etc. and one thing I read abt was dopamine…that “ahhh” feeling is what made me cave last time and I fear I’ll never experience that “ahh” feeling again. Will I? Do you? What’s up w that, just the stupid nicotine cycle messing w the dopamine thingies in our brain? I’m sure I’ll have more q’s but it’s time for a cold slice of pizza for breakfast lol.

Literally this!! One of the best tools I’ve found for me is an analog, not digital, clock! Bought a nice one from home goods and I love watching the hours like yeaa one more down lol. Ohhh boy Im losing my mind huh.

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Thank you @jillar You are an incredibly kind and insightful person

@jillar, that was some good insight gf, thank u

I agree, Molly, I’m extremely proud of us, and I’d love to walk this road w u, gf! Along with our other friends too (hi!) lol. It’s definitely weird how little synchronizations line up in strangers’ lives. Here for u!!

Hi Molly, I’m Bria, and your post stood out to me. I am a brand new “stopper” (lol), and you’re 2 weeks more than me, that’s something to be incredibly proud of. I totally get the sadness, and especially the grief…I lost my dad in dec 2021, had two miscarriages last year, my dog passed in august, and now stopping smoking. It’s definitely different the second year, and so on…the planet seems to move on but for me/us, it’s like the same year all the stuff happened still. Plus all the schtuff that comes w stopping, I’ve read it gets better, I can’t wait until I and you too friend get there. anyway the fog is real gf so forgive my weird rambling. Time for a gummy snack or something lol. take care

Hello train members, I was here just about a year ago, after a hospital stay that gave me a five day head start, stayed free for about 18 (?) days and relapsed. I felt so embarrassed and like a loser, I never logged back in to quit train. Smoked all the way until Monday night at 8:45pm. Woke up in the middle of the night feeling like I was being choked, went to er, and they kept me for just shy of two days for observation. I have panic disorder/anxiety, but I also have asthma. Whilst smoking, how dumb dumb is that. It’s time to stop. What am I doing to myself. I’m on day 3 right now. I’ve just been reading here (officially logged in today though) and also reading on another platform that rhymes with schmeddit (hope that’s ok to say lol) to pass the time. Also eating and watching tv, went to some dr appts, and a friends’ moms funeral. I don’t know how I feel. I don’t want to be woe is me. But it’s a little woe/woah. I’m not sure what to do. I know what not to do. Sorry if this is wrong to say but I loveee smoking, I just hate being a smoker. It’s done for me right now. And I feel like I also can’t say “nope” yet, bc it’s literally hour by hour, day by day. I saw, I think it was denali, that said not one puff right now or today or something and I related to that. thanks guys

Go, Mac!! A formidable accomplishment for sure. I aspire to be where you are one day! btw, mac is part of my last name and a nickname for me and my late amazing uncle (who also passed away from lung cancer/smoking ). But still a neat connection. anyway, bravo!

Hey guys, I don’t really feel like this is an sos, just a vent, a frustration, a day. It’s been a day. Works stressful, busy, etc., whose isn’t. I feel like I’m ok and I don’t “want” to smoke but I so so do “want” to smoke. It feels like the stress and worries were less bc I had a cig to fall back on. It’s something to do to help not think about things, and now it’s something to worry abt not doing, if that makes sense. I know this is bs, but junkie is trying to romance it too, it’ll relax u, something to do in the morning, after work, when get home, etc. where’s the will to keep going, keep trying and worrying about not doing. Sometimes I read people r cool with it within 2weeks (not me lol bc 2 weeks is today), some are 3 months, some are 6 months, some a year! What’s the dealio?

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Go, sunnyside!!! I’m proud of u, even though I don’t “know” u! Way to go, hope to be u in a few months!

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