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Hey guys, good morning I woke up today wanting a cig, more than the other days, although I really haven’t had *bad cravings*, seems like more triggers are coming out. I guess the longer I go not smoking, the more my mind’s trying to mess w me like “ok, ha did good kid, now let’s celebrate w a smoke” lol wackadoo. I know this isn’t an sos but I think I “romance” the cig….and after I read that great post yest on romancing the cig . I also have been putting off some types of housework bc of fear of what’ll I do in between. I can do dishes, laundry no problem but the toilets, mopping….those are “bigger” jobs in my head. Idk. Anyone else get bigger pangs after the first week?

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This is a fantastic post, great read. Thank you

Sometimes, well every time, you get to bedtime it’s such a sense of pride to say you beat today, kicked ass in not smoking, just today. I’m told it doesn’t always have to be that way but for us newbs it’s quite the win. Hugs Molls!! You did great today!!

True! it was during a business networking event and landed in my drink and had to play it off smooth but def realized it was a fly and not ice TNP has ridden a four wheeler

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Woohooooo go, Molly!! I have to give you mad props for getting back to quit so quickly, you are a rockstar!! So freaking proud of u!!

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Molly don’t feel bad or sorry!! I’m sorry you feel bad . And I’m sorry u smoked. I know that feeling from last year…and I feel bad for writing abt that I relapsed last year on my third week….sorry if that was weird to write. anyway, I’d love if we can still do our journey together….I’m on this damn site almost all the time bc my quits so young so I’ll be here! Hugs moll

Wow so interesting! Yes it does seem like that…destroyers the peace/peaceful times. I smiled reading about your reading….hopefully I’ll get to experience that one day…fleeting thoughts…. I went to visit my friend w my pup and wanted a cig in the midst of us hanging out but not in the car or anything, so weird. Some light anxiety but nothing like yest. I also resigned from teaching last June so I think part of it is doing something, something to keep me busy and not just being at home all the time. I have some ideas for a business so it’s just a matter of organizing and getting my life back together. im so so proud of your 2 year quit coming up Gus!!! Wow, all of you guys’ accomplishments are something to be valued and admired. I mean it. Fantastic.

Thank you, @Gus your sharing some of your story was so kind and I appreciate it I actually haven’t had caffeine for I think like 5 or 6 years due to high blood pressure, although I drink decaf and I know there’s trace amts in that but oh well. I do love a good diet and caffeine free coke myself but lately it’s been cranberry juice and water or ginger ale or hint water. Thank you again You all are so helpful I appreciate every one of you On a separate/same note, I’m surprised about the times when I’m craving (I guess not craving bc it comes and goes rather quickly so triggers? maybe idk the times when I’d like a cig lol) because it’s not when I thought they’d be…ie I thought first thing in the morning, after I eat, driving, but those aren’t too bad…it’s after a shower, during a nice afternoon/evening cooking dinner, and after completing a house chore. Hmph, interesting.

Wow, @DenaliBlues that is such great advice, too! I definitely am comforted (not glad per say but you guys get it) that you guys can relate to this uneven breathing….yesterday was def panic attacks but I slept great (like 8pm to 7am lol woah), nose breathing, and I feel ok right now. The aromatherapy suggestion is great, I will def look into that too. Thank you friends. You’re comments, advice, and comforting words mean more than you know. A beautiful blanket of snow has fallen, biggest one of the season really. So I’ll try and take in the beauty today.

Thank you They did, but also taking a drive/getting out of the house and the rescue anxiety med helped too. I get inside my own head too that I have all these different health ailments when I prob see my dr more than the average person and have a great, 30 yr relationship w him, for which I feel very lucky. Anyway, thank you for your help jillar I hope I’m not the craziest person on this site

@jillar wow that actually makes me feel way better. I saw/read for a few ppl breathing got worse before it got better so maybe that’s what’s happening too. And just now I start to feel it come on again. Using your pursed lip technique and telling myself it’ll be ok and I’m ok. I hate this.

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Thank you @jillar I have an anti anxiety med for as needed/rescue and I’ve also just been put on a daily anxiety med like 2 weeks ago so hopefully those help. I’m also ashamed to say I have an inhaler and nebulizer for breathing stuff, which I was sometimes using and then shortly after go smoke *cringe*. I never told anyone that. Man, do I feel like shit knowing what I was/am doing to myself. Hopefully I’m on the track to freedom. I am committed, but saying that “ever” is just daunting and grim to think about forever. Idk. I sound like a basket case, huh.

Hey @WeegieWoman and all Yes, today/tonight is day 7, feeling ok. Just had a bout of anxiety/panic attack about 2 hrs ago. Couldn’t breathe, oxygen went lower than normal (I have that finger oximeter thingy) and w my recent hospital trips I got nervous and made it worse I think. I even looked up and said “why?! I’ve been stopped smoking for 7 days! Why?!” I’m good now, went for a drive and ended up at my fiancés business (luckily no one else is here since I’m in pjs and mascara running down my face lol). I have no idea why it came on today. I have had crying episodes some these past few days bc of not being able to smoke but it passes relatively quickly and I do deep breathing which really helps….it was not like the attack today. also all the reading I’m doing is so helping with helping me understand and know that healing is on its way. Ugh sorry for the run on post. I think I’m doing pretty good w the ‘I’m not smoking today’, feeling good when I get into bed at the end of the day, etc. my next steps are starting to relearn to do things without the cig ie cleaning, organizing closets etc. oh and my convenience store amount of candy I have in my stash lol is helping, too. anyway, hi friends, hope everyone’s having a marvelous, not manic, Monday