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I agree @darcy, you are worth it…I’ve heard around the three month mark really sucks and creeps up on you…maybe that’s part of it? Don’t get me wrong, I totally know and relate to what you’re feeling…the want, almost need, to get our keys and walk towards the door…but we don’t. Bc I think we’re being told to be patient it’ll get better, well lemme tell you, it effing better get better!!! Lol. Or I’ll be even more pissed. And they must know that darc and they’re still telling us that so it must get better. I’m proud of you girl, breathe in a deep breath and tell me it doesn’t feel good right? One of the things the therapist told me w quitting is what jillar said, it’s bc we smoked not bc we quit that we’re feeling this way. She also said smoking was how we coped w everything…happy, sad, excited, bored etc. and we have to just find other things. And girl it’s ok if it’s food rn. I’m trying to eat stupid healthy bc I just found out I’m on the cusp of prediabetes….greatttt lol. So I get it. It sucks. I’m here to listen. Also heard something the other day on youtube…there’s a big difference btwn our logical mind and emotional mind…logical would be how smoking harms us, its smelly, etc. and emotional would be how we perceive it as our friend, it calms us, etc. and we would always listen to our emotional not logical mind bc it’s a literal addiction. This person said to train our emotional mind by saying things out loud and we start to really believe it, it becomes engrained in our emotional mind. Idk it sounds like bs but I’m gonna try it. Lol. I guess saying things out loud like “this is the addiction talking….I’m so glad I’m free…” etc. Even if we don’t believe it at first. Idk. Lol. Hope you feel better girl

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Thank you, friends….sometimes just “talking” to you guys seriously helps @Christian99 I’m up north jersey in Sussex County….where we say it the correct way…taylor ham

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What a friggin trip this ex smoker thing is. I’m literally ready to throw a bowl out the window last week, and this week like semi okay, laughing and happy more (but in like that angry, I-don’t-want-to-laugh-because-I’m-angry way), finding more shit to do without smoking, and really enjoying taking deep deep breaths. But I still get the urge sometimes to smoke - total romancing - and I know it because then I talk to myself about how I couldn’t breath, the debilitating anxiety, etc and it goes away. And I never want ‘just one’ like people say. I want the whole damn pack, hell, a carton for the week. Yet here I am, stupid smoke free…..I know I know it’s stupid to say that lol, but just how I feel sometimes. I do think my dad in heaven is proud of me and I know my moms, hubs, and aunt are very proud too. I’m proud of me too. It just sucks right now! I went to my first ever therapy appt today, which was good, and I’m also going to a reflexology and reiki specialist next week (I know call me crazy). Just trying to do everything I can to help myself. Oh, I also hired a house cleaner (hey they’re not ok bad expense wise I thought it was worse) just to help me out for the next month. Anyway, how’s everybody? Is it warmer by you guys? Here in Jersey it’s up and down but I notice the flowers poking through.

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Hi Steven, I’m glad for you getting back your quit. I’m still a newbie gaining my strength in battling this addiction. I wish you the best and hope your first month will be better than mine lol, but from what I’ve heard it sucks all around. May I ask what were some triggers or reasons that caused you to relapse? May help some ppl on the train (like myself who’s getting the itch, sometimes badly) to not make the same choice.

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