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It literally sucks so much, mlmr!! That cursing section on QT was calming to me, to read, to post lol. You can totally do this and I forgot who first told me but the cravings go away if you smoke and they also go away if you don’t smoke, that always helped me put things into perspective. You got this

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6. Removes ink from a screen printed shirt (it’s what we use for mistakes at the print shop lol)

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LOL I’m so sorry guys to scare you!! Lol it was totally not a scary/critical moment where I was questioning my quit in real time, I wasn’t and I knew I wasn’t gonna light up, but I totally agree w you guys that I still romance the smoke/cig. For sure. But even w that, I knew I wasn’t gonna light up bc I think abt how I feel overall, less problems breathing, potential sickness down the line, etc. And O, hubs totally took them away and destroyed them immediately he regretted telling me he found them in the first place. It is ok, all is ok lol. Sorry again for the scare! Lol. I’m gonna re-read stuff today abt romancing the cig. It’s hard, but I know I can work my best at it. edit: you know what, re-reading all this you guys are kinda right, it being a close call/critical moment. I didn’t realize the gravity of it but that was a big crisis averted

Sending you well wishes Stew, hope you’re on the mend soon!! Feel free to call on us for help if u want to vent or pass the time etc. feel better!!

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Yest was interesting….we were swimming all day, all weekend, pool beer pong (I haven’t really drank since Feb, used to be a heavy drinker) and I told hubs I was really wanting cigs (to top off the nice relaxing day, after drinking, etc). He said “you know you have like half a carton of soft packs in the spare bedroom bottom dresser drawer right” and I was like WHAT!? He didn’t want to tell me but he did so he/we could destroy them. I didn’t know how to feel, I didn’t want them but I so did. Still. (Which bummed me out, why did I actually get excited)….he took them out and I opened a pack and smelled it, took one out and took a drag, unlit, and it felt both indifferent and good. Ugh did I just set myself back or what. I was fine rest of the day. Wtf is wrong w me lol. Btw they are destroyed in the garbage. oh and then my brother in law (who has a lot of problems) stopped by and he smokes, puffing away, it made me so angry lol. have a nice Labor Day all

That’s a great routine and advice mlmr!! I may follow this too

You’re being very strong, Stew!! That’s a big stressful situation and you’re handling it very well!

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