Evelyn

Pleez 1 November hoping I can join as I'm coughing my lungs up and I wanna join. Those abs need work on ;)

thanks, Sunny and ross; the flat was friggin expensive and guess what they hardly use their penthouse :P maybe should use the Pavlov response more.... more treats upstairs ;)

lol no option for guus

NOPE

It's kinda sad last summer Boris the black'nred one got a blatter infection which he suffered from and after several vets visits that were stressfull, 2 cures of antibiotics and painkillers I came to the choice: anothertreatment that would (probably) enlarge his suffering with (in my eyes) little hope of curing. I suspected he was ill for a long time so I put him to sleep and it went so quietly I never knew when he went over. But then Guus was left alone and Guinea pigs are group animals. Now don't luagh but but both guys were castrates as they were dominant towards each other in thefirst week so I cried and asked online for one or two ladies to company him. Now I have a diva called Nala and a timid girl with rastahair Daizy and believe me Guus is one blond god in the flat. Nala has long hair, she kinda looks like a lion. And in your absence I bought a pigs flat; 2 stores furniture where they have enough room. Pics follow

Read your post, Bakon. True. I honestly struggle with my guilt. It is correct IF i count 10 months, it isn't undone. I think I need a lessonin self care and LEARNING I did from my bump in the road... And... and... and... no more and or buts. I believe you are right. If I celebrate 1 year in short 2 months I am allowed to do so, it's about the accomplishment, the lesson was tough and no matter what I DID it. The only conclusion I can definetly add is that that one really is a myth and NEVER worth lighting up for. D*amn how can a human being be so friggin complicated. It's nomore or less then what I wrote above and that's it. No more self punishisch and guilt. :D

Babs hun sit ups and leg raises I get but crunches and plank... uhuh what's that

Babs I just hug you

Yeah but can't lie or cheat.

Maybe I'm to hard of a bitch to myself. I did smoke. I feel cheating. I may no be new quiter but i do have to start from zero. So then don't congratulate me if I again have 3 weeks or 5 months. I'm not gonna lie to myself.

I am not 2 weeks quit. I HAVE this 10 months and I am celebrating. Screwed 3 days up? Then my lido denk arrival will be 25 December. If you're married, and you have a fight and leave eachother 3 days the marriage isn't over, right? My freedom life is NOT thrown away. I am still married. With my 3 Guinea pigs. Oh did I mention I LOVE you guys? And YOU Bakon, again let me look through some other glasses. Thank you, I might swear at you in the near future outta frustration but you seemingly are right. That's kinda creepy...

Thanks, for the support. The kicks the hugs. Am I realy worth saying 10 months and 5 days? Maybe I am... I don't FEEL being back to square 1. I ****** up big time 2 weeks ago, smokes and yes cuts. There's no snowflakes in that just feeling I should punish myself for my failure so maybe looking it the other way and say ók i ****** up but I did not throw away my 10 months is a conquer OVER that 3 screwed days. I wish I knew how to anticipate BEFORE. Oh I am so angry for &*^$ I can't undo it, I can only look forward and anticipate differently NEXT time. Honestly should I set my ticker to 10 months?

You have pm bakon

NOPE

I understand your logic porky. Just I fell and I can't prove more then what I'm doing now. Getting back on the train. I'm not gonna try explain how complicated my life is but I DID get up. And I made it 2 weeks. Bakon you've got this fantasy idea of me being this sup human well. I have posted a view struggles and they ARE real. You think it's crap. You find emotions psyche are shit. Well not to me. And shit on me, for some people the world is not the way you see it. I quit here and now but do not judge my life until you walked my shoes.

Thank you sunny

It was on the calendar Nancy

Taken back

Thanks friends

thanks jimmy

And I should be proud even if I THINK others don't notice. I notice and that matters. I worked for it and am proud and sorry and my apologizes for the drama. I KNOW you all appreciate my input and are proud. Just had to stop doubting myself and be proud at MYSELF

Thank you I'm just oversensitive maybe, means a lot :D

Nevermind just would have appreciated it

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