Evelyn

Thanks friends for the support :)and compliments i start blushing

LOL you are really the village idiot, but glad the misses is feeling good!! I already shared my news

Yeah yeah, oh is that the reason I can't leave a big messege at the toilet :P

Still going strong ???

Job accepted and embrassed :)

Cutie :) more more pictures

Babs that was my flipflop point 12th night, my lungswere burning and I was already addictied and I ásked myself do i want this FOR REAL? NO, then the cut the crap response came up

Went pretty good, some thoughts about thinking, old triggers, new fears nothing i couldn't handle things are different this time then in december. I know nicomonster is Always lurking ALWAYS there to jump on your shoulder. Reflecting your smoking thoughts - is no treat just know the path is there to relapse so don't walk it. I quit on the 13, in a house full of smokers right after a crisis and I'm kicking some ass and I'm proud of myself for just 'cutting the crap' and not my arm (okay cynical) it healed well btw don't worry but my mood has stabalised since my new meds and even though I'm also kicking of a high dose meds (replaced with other one) I can say I AM strong. I AM a survivor. I am no victim, not of my past not of my addiction. CUT THE CRAP (sends triggers from past and junkiethinking outta Ypenburg) I WANT to be free and I needed to know I can be FREE if I WANT to. Bakon porky you saw it in me, way before i saw it myself, you kicked my ass but many here watch me grow and do i fall I dust off and get up. Life has knocked me down way too many times and I admit good medication does support me but my spirit was never broken I only saw the damaged cracks in the mirror and curled up as bowl. Afraid of crowds - cycling to a center, Scared to visit someone i never met - i just DO it I am no ragdoll, not any more. This post is everyone who believed in me, Bakon, Doreen, Runfree -- so many but also for BABS who listene the 12th without judging and I AM SO HAPPY That I am alive, That I have a crowd of friends here And that you guys didn't gave up on me. THANK YOU

BECAZ i don't want to be dependand on some substance that kills my lungs and me. I may need meds but I have a choice over addiction to become free and i will not turn into an alcoholic or stay an shimney. And my favorite one cut the crap and stick with NOPE as it's the only way to stay free, life will throw hairballs at each of us but it's up to us to CHOOSE not to puff the single one, there's not one puff; i tried and i fooled myself i got hooked right away. NOT ONE PUFF EVER and what ecxuse junkie thinking throws at ya 'cut the crap' and cry shout scream but do not light that one will only make you feel horribly guilty and addictive My 5 cent

Because Santa's on the beach the rest of the year WHY am i gassing my housemates?

NOPE. NO MATTER WHAT! JUST FOR TODAY

Cycled to market and conquered fear of crowds

Quit on the 13th - with my superstitious fears? Trigger undone :D Going to celebrate Halloween too, I'm gonna shock people. Am I high??? NOPE not from smoke or pot just very happy and relaxed I've come outta that circle of darkness and 'I let it go' If you think I'm going cucku- I can't remember feeling so relieved, happy and that's kinda a miracle. Survived par day and now?? Happy, smokeFREE and my humor comes swirling up so if you start confusing me with Bakon, with signlanguage and all don't worry maybe I've finally found my inner strenght

Uh, well, today i had barely cravings. thoughts yes being reminded by my smoking housemates but the burn of my lungs last nite was so vivid I'm convinced that junkie-thinking will try but that I wanna protect and guard this quit. Some nerviousness but I rather think that's of quitting one med, being replaced with another. I AM HAPPY. Haven't known this feeling a long time. This sounding scary :) Today my neighbor was outta fags, he's a sad person to watch but watching addiction + messed up mind: AND my friend who nearly has any money and is outta fags often. I AM SO GLAD I CHOOSE TO BE FREE And I AM!!! Right now! Not tomorrow, but when I choose to break the addiction..this time it's EASY PEASY

Greece

Michelle, NOTHING will take away your insecurity, NOTHING. No drink, no smoke fix. In 2014 begin of the year i thought i had bowelcancer i didnt but i filled in all the gaps, I'm a good gapsfiller.. it can't be worse then what you imagine now hun. I'm here for you,if you wanna pm i'll be around. Praying for you, if you want

You're a kitkat now :D Yeah they need you ALL day until they get old start drulling and peeying everywhere accept the litterbox... i had a kitkat too. Loved it BIG time my Bagheera. You're gonna learn to appreciate the attitude of a kitkat. For real. :D KITKAT :P

You are bakon you saw my ass in the bucket last nite ;) :D :D :D

NOPE is cool. I wasn't cool, sat with my ass in a bucket of ice; now I'm cool again. (NOPE)

I'm a nutcake too, dunno how to post a YouTube video either. :P

Thanks piggie!!!

Back, and no it's not okay.

Morning. And still. NOPE. just for these 24 hours.