Evelyn

Whahaha mine are in a shelter / pension for the time being I expect them to arrive in my new home on 1 February

*yup* I really have to share some hilarious video's or pics... you all welcome to join.

Guess what Jackie, I had all the window licking excuses too, especially since November but even though I had the eay fall of feeling sorry I CHOOSE my own destiny, left the homegroup, put my feet between the door so they had to find me another place and hell ya it worked out. The homegroup I was offered to stay between going over to my new home was like an adult living in a creche crossed with a North Korean camp to let people jump when they said jump etc, well last Thursday I left that hell when 2 days prior and weeks prior my therapist kept saying you gotta get outta there asap. So NOW I'n on vacation. In the same town, doesn't matter I am SOOOO happy to make my own choices again. ​I had to turn off the emotion button and lie to myself for a month but I couldn't hang in there. My inner flame was dying. NO I did not smoke, NO I did not self harm (for a long period) and this my sweetie means even though I was in an unbearable situation I played a long as possible but NEVER threw in the towel. ​I considered once lighting one, dismissed in an istant, same with a sticky, or a bottle of alcohol. NO this is my life and and no matter how many people decide to make it hard (back then) it's MY own responsibility how to deal with shit. So you might wanna throw outta window what bakon says but he's right!!! ​The choice is yours: life will throw dirty hairballs to you but do wanna stand on your own feet and responsibility or will 2016 be another window linking year??? ​Trust me you can keep up with this cycle... LONG. I did it 10 years. So when will you stop the cycle of quiting, struggling... feeling sorry, lighting a cig... so on? It's something that can become a pattern on it's own: when you struggle, you smoke, then another struggle and you quit, it is a diversion of your problem... the quit smoking - relapse cyclus CAN be a diversion... when will it be a CHOICE for NOW and EVERY TODAY to pledge NOPE so you don't look for a diversion whenever there's a tree on the road... ​Just trying to make you aware. And YOU my sweetie can be a quiter when you CHOOSE to be a non smoker instead of someone TRYING to quit and repeat the endless diversion cyclus.. ​CHOOSE to stand on your own two feet, independend and no one can make you hesitate. Just when are you gonna believe in YOU my sweetie

Spot on.

Whoooohoooo! !+

Lol you guys have no idea where I am well the ones I've got on Facebook do: I ran as a refugee and left the cross sra over home where they drove me nuts. My T told me for 3 weeks straight.... that is not a good place... last week he asked what about taking vacation so I friggin did and am now in the Ibis city centre if de Hague. 1 februari I move in. And I'm in love (spoilers sweetie) like River Song would say, dyed my hair, bought a black jacket and some tops. And I intend to take care of a skinny piggie in a shelter. She fits fine in my gang. Wanna know what a skinny pig is NO bakon not a piggie in jeans... its a hairless piggie

drives aroud the corner... without glasses... THANKS!!! cannot type propery but relly my clothes smell badddd. stinky smoke room is next to livingroom on emercy stay. but i cooked 4 days. and 1 february i move on MY OWN

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DD you rock you've got 2 years under your belt your a huge example

Do you have time to watch one or two vids from Joel. .. they dismantle the myths you keep believing in in only you can crumble those myths. Knowledge is power so refresh your mind... zip juice instead of alcohol and do enjoy your smokefree new years Eve

Thanks friends

NOPE I'm no window licker

Thanks friends

Ok. I play for the winning team

I am the 80s oh something about teams are there teams?

Thanks everybody

Thanks. I have crap Christmas BUT I will celebrate the lido deck

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