Evelyn

You can do this girl!!! That demon you refer to is caled addiction ;) you can starve it which you are doing right now :) pray if it helps but YOU are responsible, always!

No it was a he after all and I get to choose another

NOPE

NOPE NOPE NOPE Mornin' all. enjoy and stay smokefree!!!

ROFL

Happy fruity birthday enjoy

NOT ONE PUFF EVER: no escuses, no reason justifies lighting one up. And I can honestly say I've been insituations people TOLD me I had the right to light one but I didn't

I found a sweater / T-shirt with NOPE on it. NOPE. No matter what. Thru up and down I'm NOPE Anyone wanna see a pic pf the sweater? Only show if people want to :P

Now in human laguage :P

Yes you can.

Thanks DD

Uhm. Back. With my sanity haha. Had a rough patch. Going up. Wakey Wakey time over here morning temper so don't get in my way well you can I advice porky to keep a safe distance lol

I never started coughing, until recently it the same asthma puff just another way of inhaling and altho I felt I felt full and stuck inside (in mu lungs after a cold) ok lost. I start coughing after I use this puff (for asthma ;) ) and some stuff comes up. Is it still normal, or ususal to start coughing after so long quit? Dunno??? Idea's?

It's early, don not refer something walking dead related ok :P

Oh, call me an offically fruitloop it's 15 months already WOW

I counted, sjeesh it really goes fast :wub: 14, love that number... just wanted to say 'hell yeah I got this far, and I'm very proud and glad with it!' :D

Jo, here, present, just waking up ;)

That's Beauty a gorgious, healthy bred Russian hamster, color camel and no Camel is NOPE an option as a name whahah. I was supposed to pick her up 1 a[pril, things worked out a little not the way I supposed they would, but this girl is payed and the whlle home / cake is already ready :D. Also not moving back to old town, going to a nicer, more quiet neighborhood :D yup happy again and when I'm able this little furry ball will be loved and cared for (hammie expert :P ) she going to have one wonderfull life and so will I!!!

Hehe, yes wanted to do something for ME!!! So I did. Call me crazy, a daredevil (oh no there's one already called DD) and but Porky's right after all the frtuitiness :P I 'put one finger in the air and say I don't care'. Does that mean I'm a frootloop too?

NOPE

Yeah all fruitcakes there porky and it's one f#cked up mix of craziness

Ok only one person knew I was away, struggling a major depression; part due last year's waisted energy and obstacles + bad choice of meds that kept me too low, coludn't let it out. I haven't been so deep, since 2013 new years eve. Had 2 admittions in a closed section. i really was a danger to myself, first time got released and knew I was dying inside. The volcano blast when boyfriend started threatening me, almost kicked my door in so I did another attempt. I was again locked up, DID see my pdoc and asked him to take away the particular med.. after rage I'm now relased and located on a safe spot temporarily, intend to move... back to my old town. Last time in the 'ward' wuith the med switch I started craving, cigs, food.. didn't do it all tho there were a few times I really was like *&%% I did once kick the doorside, with my gymshoe, left a print I was REALLY raged. I'm low on caffeine BIG time, no coffee her accept the poder to put water with... I'm calm, did my hair at the kinki hairdresser, and really RATHER be a bit dizzy then so furiously raged. I can hug me ;) again, say lts pick myself up and do fun stuff. I AM worth it. About the ex-bf not feeling heartbroken, just it's no option returning to that home. I'd feel unsafe 24 hours a day. He can blow me one last kiss (Pink) I was too afraid to tell how I was in mud, sucked in depression, so scared you peeps would say... dunno. I am back. bf out the window and what doesn't kill you makes you stronger right? Oh and did I say I didn't puff the previous week. I made it thru, which I REALLY didn't expected anymore. Now anyone thinking they have an excuse to light that fag, knock on my door? Karen? And I post this on purpose in the guest-open forum. People should know, depression all of sorta things aren't worth that puff. Not a break up, no violent (ex) bf Idk no break down, dead closeby... I am proud and I was so ashamed I got knocked down by a depression, like I deserved it and idk if I have to sing the bl**dy unconditionally (again) to myself everyday. I am NOW able to grab on life and strart rebuild. I am not ashamed, you don't need to reply. If you have mental health issues, and 'they keep you from quiting' or they are the excuse to start smoking; start with the basic problem... the mental health. And reach out, try to signal, to someone you trust... ANYONE. I am stronger. And so are you... the one who needs to read this.