Evelyn

Everybody thanks. This feels like home. I am a non smoker. I do not need fans... Nicotine or camping... Hell no! I am free when I believe I am free

Even with the withdraw, I'm so happy (I can type normally :P ) and I don't have to chase fags, I choose NOT to. I AM free already. Why didn't I came back earlier... It IS black n white, you either smoke or not. My choice is not. NOPE I'm relieved I'm back

... My smartphone didn't pick up English making weird Dutch words... No I'm not drunk... My phone was.

Sorry my phone is messing with English "

IIk saw you in my topic. You guard them liken a NOPE TIGER. Never think you are over 't. Nicotine Luikinga look at me.

Oh andere have some voor feeling front thema rosequartz thanks

Thuis Is my sticky quitte. Period

Happy birthday :)

Funny, how Rosequartz has been on my mind lately.. for already 2 months...

I will purchase it today :)

NOT ONE PUFF EVER. NOPE, just for today

Im sorry. i apologise for ranting at you 2

Jeesg canon hardlopen type frame shaking

For the rest of thee evening: NOPW. Just for now

Thank you, for believing in me :)

I would appreciate that very much Tracey, and Marti too if she wants too :D

Very true, I forgot the NOPE pledge, the addiction sucks in into your mind... if you ignore, like me instead of saying NOPE whatever it takes... then you end up relapsing even after 16 months...

Here

I need you friends, I quit a few minutes ago. I'm going cold turkey. Throw away all the vaping and actually I am terrifid. Please, gimme this chance... I need it I have to. I'm so scared. No asthma attacks for me. Marti is there a gemstone you can recommend for quiting... maybe it helps me... pray, if you want, send me good vibes. No f&cking nicotine, no smoking or vaping..

Bye

I posted it in my topic in off the record... I'm dealing with too many things and to detailed... I'm not smoking today, but I do vape. It is what it is, fairytales suck and unicorns farts smell awesome. I've not ever had one week or longer where I was happy, without mental health struggle. Serious stuff. It's no f#cking excuse but I choose the less destructive over destructing myself. I've had enough. I've battled too long, too much, too many times. I need a break. I know when I'm realistic, I canoot do it right now. I'm just too broken. I'll try not to light one, and vape instead. But no promisses. Guess I left my superwoman suit in the phonebox and the Doctor too off, and now my suit is gone...

Well don't shout too loud girl, I messed up. Trying not be angry with myself... guess superwoman can go flat out too.

Very nice complement Windows Pork, are you on repeat? Like a perrot? Be nice, eh?

Yeeh, party tomorrow we celebrate 'Kingsdag' tomorrow.. it bloody snows it the east of the Netherlands WTF? Going to pin some money, no more then 20 ;) and see if there's something fun to do :D Moving back the 12th, getting new furniture :D :D :D Uhm, still not smoking (not that anybody would have expected that LOL) and I think 16 months... and I really don't wanna build a freaking snowman tomorrow I want spring, you know?

Was it Cristobal?