Evelyn

I'm even angry at my pain and sadness!!! WTF do I have to do through it to heal... I tried to forget, 20 years... it almost destructed me. My arms full of scars... I know it will get better, just not within minutes, hours. Almost go to bed at 6 PM

Some know, some don't: stuff's been comin up. I feel loneli in my pain and hurt. Situations where I used to smoke. Don't tell me to get over 'the past', it just doesn't work that way. I won't smoke caz I came here. I just needd to say it here. NOPE. Just sobing. Dunno where to turn to. If I ignore it it will explode in my face, so I'm facing it but it bl**dy hurts. I need friends. So I turn to here.

Hows today going :) ?

donuts always the donuts, wh not cheesecake :P

The translation mixes things up

Enjoy your sunday NOPE just for today No matter what

Go troll outside my topic

i only have hese chords; EADGBE Een Aap Die Geen Banaan Eet translation an monkey who doesn't eat a banana

Sorry Indi your so depressed you know classic (older) meds often work better... They usually prescribe modern antidepressants etc. While old ones work better just CAN gave more side effects. Keep you in my prayers hun

Morning, have a bright day, enjoy whenever you can and don't puff: NOT ONE PUFF EVER NOPE Just for today No matter what

I say QuitTrain people, my friends know Bakon :P especially my best friend Coby I can tell something in color. Hmmm why is Bakon coming up so often? :P But only true friends know this, like Coby know you guys are suppose to reply like; 'who's Coby'? My best friend, support, kinda-mom, shpping buddyand we might no loner live in the same town we call daily ;)

Oh and no friggin mouse, have my laptop but no mouse yo know that thing in your hand to click with ;)

Wel when I type on this forum with my forum my smarthphone spits out really really weird lines so I ROFL from another topic :P like I'm drunk or high whahaha

Sorry my smarthpone mixes up words ROFL whahahaha yeah, curves are ok, better then skinny though.

Oh I love you friends :D thanks (for not lughing at me :P )

... Want chocolat too. No good. What is that with us women... I cut back sugar I CRAVE snacks whole I should be eating gluten free porky how did you loose... Your pork?

Also after the kick under your button a hug. I know you think they save you... Fags only distract. Cancersticks they are. Come get a hug and now get your big girl pants on... No more smoking ok!!!

I relapsed. I quit. I suffer from mental health sh%t BUT I did visit my smoking neighbor for the last week. Sometimes she lights one. I don't care. My sugar in tea etc the first days helped me There's no excuse EVER to light one. Stop hyperfocussing on cigs you romantacise them Girl When I was depressed no screaming fag could interest me... It's an excuses hun. PLEASE stop torturing yourself

Did this vid yesterday after (practicly) my first lesson... today was better :P

Not yet, guitar music is different then reading music with piano...

Oh and no poking or singing, laughing yes ROFL too... but it'safter my practicly first lesson eh!!!! I have fun with it :D Who's into guitar we should start a guitar topic

Seriously??? DD you got him on a horse, something living??? Or are you making this up while writing sorry ROFL. GLAD you're okay, I've fell of a ozen of times. That's why I no longer ride, you probably had gyms on, porky boy always use proper riding boots ;) Now you're brave enough to get back on again?

No laugh al you will, at least I try :P

Hmm, some cravings... can be mixed with sugar--wanting to snack. Feels good. Hammie likes my smell she licked me yesterday :D Did huge groceries to make some changes, more eko, more invironment saving cleaning products plus I avoid gluten. LOVE to play on the guitar... practising. I'll post a vid from yesterday, today was already better. Talked to my ex-socio... support / mental support thingy person :P instead of feeling a gruch I smiled, told her about my great life and send her pics of my tattoo's and last hair color. I'll try to post my vid from practising guitar

Thanks