Evelyn

I've been horsebackriding in my teens. I can sta on it if it jumps up and down :P so don't worry :D

To all members... I guess you're all tired of me. You probably sigh, oh, her again. I don't care. I had a heck of a year and am standing firm and WILL friggin celebrate every first weeks and months. I am succesful, proud at who I am now, a non smoker and idk if you care but I do

Read it :)

If you think I'm a 'quiter' well gues what I'm a fighter and I can no I DO this right now!

I know you people doubt I mean it this time, I am solid.

It really, is!!!

Oh, don't worry I rely on myself, I AM doing this. I am worth THIS I am Alive.

I am so friggin proud of myself. Fought some battles, mindset right, stabalised and damn proud of it

NOT ONE PUFF EVER. blegh

Had to struggle and lay an egg, I am back baby, for always. Whohohohho

Neither for me NOPE

Did you know why I know you are friends...? You're honest I appreciate it. That is what I need, exactly

I know. It has to be me. I must do this. I am not asking you to quit for me... But to believe me when I say I commit. I DO commit. Period.

Watched Tabacco wars part 1

Thank you, both. Saz I bought a life of tree pendant, stating my new vision. I am responsible... I am adult. I make my own choices.

Thank you Sunny, means a lot. It's lies in my head. Addiction lies!!!

NOPE

Smoked my last, tickers on

I want to quit. I've lost conficence in myself. Many of you see me as an expert. I'm now in a new situation. i might need to SOS, which seems weird. I'm scared you all laugh at me for this topic. Really I deal with shit. Please, I know YOU all believe in me, I need to start believing in myself again. I'm actually crying now. I'm terrified. Let me SOS, or if possible meet me in chat. I'm gonna need the support more then the first time in 2014, I was naive Last year so much crap came on my path I've lost conficence. I'm scared to fail, or to have succes. Lies in my head like 'oh you can quit anytime' 'just one' 'oh the vaper is ok' IT IS NOT OKAY. Please support me

I can't do this shit, not right now. I'm quit but use a vaper. Judge all you want I can't do it

I wanna watch the video's of the tabac industries lies again; the 3 ones anyone have a link?

I'm giving myself one chance with alcohol. If I get drunk and get sick I go to the AA. I am allowed to drink one wine, for example with new years eve. BUT I am not alcohol. Not yet and I will not turn into that. I am not my parents. I am not a failure. I did so well in the 16 month quit. I do this right here, right now.

I'm sorry I understand you feel disappointed

It's true sunny I screwed up so many things lately I've lost confidence in myself. I need to start to trusting in my core... My heart. I will choose to do that from of today

I also am changed from meds which gimme NOW a better headstart I just know I need to kick the booze