Evelyn

... If you're looking for Evelyn, it's me Rawr :acute: new time, new quit, new name :P

Hope your ok prayers xxx

So raise you hand if you like my tattoo???

Well, my dark ages... were ages, years :( sadly enough. I'll post it Can I post my pm to you too Saz? It says a lot ;)

NOPE, all you want. It starts with commitment hun. Willing to suffer, to hurt, to cry, to laugh, to enjoy life, everything to stay quit. I'll NOPE. But it means nothing without my commitment. I was committed the last 7 days, didn't NOPE. BUT STILL quit. ;) NOPE are just letters to me now, it's about whats behind it, what counts, what keeps me quit

I got adjusted on meds.. I was reflecting and realised; I've been in hell all my life and now I'm out, and can FEEL and KNOW what happyness can be like, and what it can be to be touched, moved... I love life. For all quitters on the train. Being a mess, being in hell- a mental hell, CAN get better. depression CAN go away. Find a good psydoc, work your ass off (I do) and you can and will get better, your hell starts falling apart. That man, I used to know as a father is ash, he no longer has power. I took back control. I am Stronger! I am survivor and yes I do have Dissociative Identity Disorder, so technically I'm a we :P but Ev is good too ;) but never quit life, never give up hope, be a fighter, be the seemingly hopeless struggler... you'll come out winning. And I'm truly saying, néver give up. I told ya peeps I would be back ;) But HOW, now thát is a huge difference ^_^ If you never experienced happyness, being moved/touched by something, love... WOW, I now can feel those things. And I'm happy!!! Are there no tears, of course, life's a rollercoaster :aggressive: you gotta kick some ass here and there for example smokes hey I'm winning this, no chance of loosing it again and to you all, :heart: For your patience, friendship, silent prayers, hope of me returning. Oh the tattoo, I did as closure in first initiativ for the last year but now--for the last years

Oops, double :P

NOPE

NOPE

Thanks friends

I'm now quit 6 days I use NRT gum. Don't lecture me for that just be glad I am back. I'm cutting back already have support from my house doctor and I'm finally stabilized I coughed so much... It opened my eyes when a nerve got stuck in my back with pain and numbness and tingling in my leg as, a result no hernia. Couldn't use painkillers while smoking it turned the tables. I'm back. For good. Don't preach about CT this is my quit and I'm determined I see smokes as poison and nrt as a medical short withraw period. This is sticky

NOPE

NOPE. I know the drill

NOPE. I'm in danger of health issues. Tomorrow is my official quitdate I have to do this myself

NOPE. I'm in danger of health issues. Tomorrow is my official quitdate I have to do this myself

NOPE No matter what No excuses

Thanks guys

Oh Doorbel, missed you. Missed you all. Oh, now don't get all smushy

NOPE. Just as simple as that. Barney is right. Bakon is right. I struggle. But I've found out I do not enjoy smoking. I can write a whole story. You'll be pissed at me, probably. No excuses. Not anymore. I do not want to be an addict. I want to be smokefree. For good. It terrifies me, I'm crying. Still going to do this. I can cry, shout, write, be terrified, pray... just NOPE. No matter what and no excuses.

NOPE, just for today

We're leaving period.

I pledge NTAP (NOPE)

Never Take Another Puff

We voted and smoked the last. Quitdate 5 August 19:50

I'm working on it Saz