Evelyn

Here I am. Day 2 and I'm not gonna blow myself up. Just gonna write where I bump into, what triggers me, what helps.... etc. I've found a big trigger. Which was already mentioned... Coffee, in my case too much coffee - I get all sparkly and hyper and my cravings become more intense. So - luckily I use instant coffee - I'm gonna be careful how strong I'm gonna make my coffee. I'm gonna quit the friggin gum (not NRT gum I quit CT) because my stomach is killing me. Ugh. I felt like chewing a whole package a day - but my stomach isn't liking it... so into the trash. In a year I want to be able to read back and say 'yeah I pulled it off', not by bluffing just by sticking with NOPE. Evelyn

Congratulations! You kicked it off, one month!!! Awesome!

You did it!!! Congratulations!!!!

So here I am, committing to NOPE. Just for today. I need to NOPE everyday. So there it goes. NOPE.

Yup, I'll stick around :) Sarge you have every right to not believe me and I need to commit to NOPE.

Oh and Sarge it's not about you believing me. It's about me believing in myself and committing.

Babs I'm on the background Mister easy peasy. Luckily not everybody is the same. I will do this. I am. Easy peasy, out

I'm gonna make a hard decision. I have to want this - I NEED to DO this. NOT you. You know this is serious and that I mean in. I'm gonna 'let the' QT for now, I have an abonnement on Joel Spitzers video's. And I'd like to re-befriend some of you on facebook. Knowing I'm not alone. This is not about battling the dragon alone. But about facing myself and I'd love to be in touch, with many of you. But constantly thinking of not-smoking makes it a big pink elephant, lol. So I'm gonna continue my constructive ways and I WILL succeed in this sticky quit. I might pop in every once and a while. And I care a lot about you all. Be back later

I'm back for good, nice to meet you

I know ladies and I'm gonna join in full blast - my biggest nightmare is in the back of my head - she wanted to make x-rays and I'm thinking what if I have lungcancer like my parents - both is horrible COPD progressief in the years and I am JUST 34 years old. For now I'm gonna stick with what the test showed, further tests might confirm the COPD in the hospital or reveal an untreaded asthma... or my nigthmare. I'm here to go for the whole run. I can't explain the emotions that run through me. AND even NOW the addiction is strong 'oh but it might be a mistake - one won't hurt', seriuosly???? I'm blown of my feet by how complicated this addiction is and I appreciate your support. Do you know any Joel's video's related? Or ones I must see, again? :help: All help is welcome.

This was a topic from my ignorant period - I relapsed thinking one wouldn't hurt. :angry:

I've been to the lung-nurse and looks like I have COPD. I smoked to long, too much. I'm crying and my heart breaks. I've been so blind. So ignorant and 'it won't happen to me', well it did. I was diagnosed with asthma in 2006 and since then I've always shove away the guilt, shame and filled my mind with excuses. I did it, once in 2014 / 2015. I thought I could get away, be a smoker. Guess what no one 'can be a smoker - and get away with it', I did the test and it she was shocked that it 'looks like COPD', 'but you're just 34!' So we're gonna do it again and I know she'll have to send me to a lung specialist. After 10 puff of inhaler your test should improve... it didn't. This is me on my knees, not begging any od for mercy but ask forgiveness to you friends for all the guilt trips, shame, and excuses; I'm here to quit. I am back, to safe what's left of my lungs. I smoked my last, last evening. The quit train will be in my bookmarks and I'm gonna do what ever it takes to stick with NOPE. Standing on my own two feet taking responsibility, I should have taken a while ago. And if you read this and you're quit, or if you still smoke - you're one smoke away from your addiction - from your killer. It's not your friend, it never was. Evelyn

NOPE

Thanks. Today is a brand new day and I'm positive

I'm chewing a sandwich at midnight. Having an asthma attack. And I'm still good mooded. Tough yes but nothing I can't do. Been there done it.

Yes. I will and find distractions. Oh such an amazing thing happened. I was touched by God in a way I can't explain I'm not even afraid to quit. Bye smokes till never return

But here I am. Determined to never take another puff. No long story. Just here to kill off nicotine butt No patches or crap. Just nope

Here. Back. It's time to grow up.

Here I am. Back for good. NOPE

NOPE

Congratulations Reci your crushing it

My upto date pre-response to my own sos No there's not just one. It's not cozy to smoke, or tough... What smoking really is... Is nog Just one but the whole package, coughing and cursing as combined with asthma attacks. THAT is smoking. Not cool. It's way cooler to be a non smoker. It doesn't help to smoke when I feel like shut Caz when I also smoke I not only feel like shit but my mouth taste like shit too... Plus the guilt, self hatred and disappointment. All not cool. Be cool and don't smoke.

Thanks hun

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