Evelyn

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Welcome Gem!

I'm with you!!!!

Welcome Ron!

Funny, do I recognise you LOL

I don't have a memory of my mother dying. it was so horrofying I blocked it, she died of lung cancer

Thanks man :) means a lot to me

Welcome here ;)

I've seen some previews and it seems an amazing piece of work

Nice to see you here :)

Smoked 10???? today. But I feel a lot more understanding on this board then on the other. It just hurted as hell and I tripped fell HARD and now I am doing this. I know many hare hardliners and I agree but on the other board I was often tipped over the edge... by their agressive style. I hurt, I grief and yes junkie thinking too but that doesn't mean beat the hell outta me. I prayed out loud (I am a Christian) and felt such reassurence that I should do it without patches and sprrays and stuff. So here I am, and would I just love a hug instead a kick under my butt. Because I am doin this alone. Not many friends, no parents... family abroad. And I ******* hate it I cry over everything because I miss my mom so much. Smoking is an escape I realise that - breaking the chain of DEATH NOW!

Big hugs for all of you supporting me

NOT ONE PUFF FOR TODAY ANYMORE

I realised whenever I use the patches I relapse. Time to trust the Lord in this that he setting me free. A step of faith. Tried it myself now I knock on Heavens door ;) I smoked my last one half hour ago, showered and intend to keep my quit

I am here :) ready to smoke my last ones

I relapsed today and going to smoke my last today. There's a bunch a trouble why I relapsed, mourning my mom one of them - hiding in smoking - so if I could make special topic in the protected forum for this that would be amazing. I am 31. Lost both my parents of lung cancer. Yes I know 'and you still smoke?' Because fear got me trapped. I am completely honest about this. I am disabled and follow therapy every week for my DID/MPD (yup as crazy as a nutshell :P ) And I realize I really want to quit smoking for good.