Evelyn

I do and I almost trapped myself but recognized the junkie-thinking trap.

Since today my antibiotic (from which I was foggy and confused) has left my system and maybe it's that or it's the fact I feel a whole more emotions and my senses are on high alert but I feel bitchy and can't find distraction in TV and facebook is near dead. I'm so pissed off and upset, crying....I just pray tomorrow will be better... You're right MQ when I posted the SOS I already decided I did choose not to smoke but I appreciate the support. I'm 3 weeks quit and today I noticed if I use NRT gum longer then 10 minutes I get a headache (was in the store no place to dump my gum) and I'm on 1o minutes and trying to get to 5 minutes but today I'm SOOOOO agitated, I feel like a freaking tornado!

Okay I'm craving badly, there's many excuses in my head saying why I should light that cigarette but I don't want to, but it's pulling. Like I said many excuses and junkie-thinking, want to take responsibility but f*ck how I feel and so I'm posting an SOS... rather do it then getting too much into my excuses and role over as a f*cking puppy for a fag. I'm pretty pissed and really sad but DO NOT want to end up smoking, like Bakon said keep going. Just need to get it off my chest and receive some support instead of walking downstairs and knock on my drunken neighbors door and beg for a fag. Sorry if I seem angry and upset, I am but there's no good reason I just woke up with a bad hang-over this morning and I can't shake it off. Trying to kick myself under my ass without saying I'm not allowed to feel bad, just don't need to fix that with cigarettes. I'll be waiting for replies

Still quit

NOPE indeed

The Sarge, don't wanna be bitchy but the picture doesn't load :P

And my guinea pigs didn't have to smoke passively because I didn't smoke... those little guys are getting used to be handled and stroked.

I kick some major cigarette ass! LOL Seriously what really helps is the fact my neigbor was pissed off and that she strted to drink again and that made me decide no longer to visit her :) But even in crisis on the mental health hosptital I didn't smoke, neither did I when my head was one big foggy blizzard and I was pretty confused - I posted 2 SOS's and I feel so happy to have come so far. Today my antibiotics that screwed up my head (and didn't work) are pretty much leaving my blood and body so I'm glad to say I've made it through... ALWAYS when antibiotics CAN have side-effects in a mental health way... I get those side-effects and one time I was ready to put on my shoes and go to the store but didn't.

3 weeks quit YEAHAA

Congratulations I'm a few hours behind you

NOPE

Welcome Roland

Big NOPE for me

NOPE

Big huge NOPE

New day new chances

I'm not looking for excuses since I do not choose to smoke and use it as an excuse... still have to deal with that shit

Since I can't watch telly without getting upset I fled to my bed. Really dissociated but making it

I know and I have to fight it... this confusion in my head screws me up (side-effect from the antibiotics) and makes me feel really depressed and confused 5 mintues ago I decided to put on my shoes and buy a pack but I came back from it. IT WILL NOT SOLVE ANYTHING. But coping with this chaos in my head I just curse that antibiotics and you know what the rash isn't cured either

Going to the doctor to tell about the side effects won't help, it will still be in my system for a week.

I feel awful, side effect from the antibiotics and I feel like 'screw it, I'm gonna smoke!' It still needs whole week to leave my body and not screw up my body and mind. (I HATE antibiotics) So I'm ringing the bell again. Sobbing.

Congratulations

Here and smokefree

Wow, you're going fast!!! Congratulations!

Well done, congratulations!