Evelyn

Natalie????!!!!????

No "just one before midnight, I'll quit tomorrow"!!! NOPE NOPE NOPE! JUST for this 12 hours and then I'll come online and say PROUDLY I did stick with NOPE and TODAY in 2015 I NOPE again!

I lived in Saudi-Arabia as a child and all the Dutch moms made sure they were able to bake "oileboils" as the English and Americans in the compound said. These oileboils even have a top 100 or something over here, they can taste delicious or you feel like trowing up and that's why they test them in some sort of topblabla. I just had 2 for dinner. They came from the bakery, not too fat with raisins! So between the festivities with champagne and fireworks, pick an oileboil (oliebol)

Thanks, congratulations and a very happy new years eve! In the beginning I was a little scared of you, due your name DD but names don't say everything: YOU ROCK!

already got some junkie creepin up on me, so NOPE

Sorry not a make-up girl, finally tHIS far that I start wearing fancy clothes!

We had some snow on the border of North and South Netherlands, the REAL snow fell South, we only got some snow that melted emediatly

Spelling correct! LOL Inside I can smell the firework damps

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No and not lets mention the illegal ones. Same explosion as a granat

Here!

I just gave the pigs some spinash

I pray the lumb is in an early stage and treatable.

Does every citiszen can light off firework like over here in the Netherlands or is there one big show!?

ow and my neighbor gave me another cold!

My neighbor has 3!!!! cats and one lovely bird, I was there this morning and she didn't feel comfortable leaving the bird (on a glass closet) behind with 3 crazy going cats from the fireworks... so I said; 'drop her at my place'. When I talk to her she talks back, she's lovely and not frightened at all. I won't be around at midnight since I'm at friends for a prayersnight (1 hour-the rest is fun) But I don't expect my guinea pigs to harm little Isa bird. By the way, the pigs are hidden in their fort in the cage, shaken with every blast of firework that goes off!

Going to a prayernight from the baptist church; it's organized by a couple and if you want you can celebrate New years eve there too. Not many will show up probably but I got the mail and figured, after reading the document 'why not?' The couple is a very loving friendly couple which I often drive with to church, I don't have a car and they don't mind picking me up. Tonith they pick me up too, there will be a huge amount of fireworks set off and I'm a chicken and don't dare to walk even 2 streets in dark after 6 PM; the time it's allowed to set fireworks!

Welcome and good job on the quit!!! Your 2015 will kick off the best!

1 Year smokefree, Amazing!!!!! HUGE

NOPE and I leave my fags in 2014

Thanks, I've learned that nothing is impossible if you trust the Lord.

I had a WAY better 2014 then 2013 was and like us Dutch millpeeps do, we light fireworks and I believe me quiting without ANY other nicotine made me face my fear. I'm not very well with fears but I practically put 2 sugars in every senseo cup of tea and lived on high glucose levels the first 3 days and I did something I never pulled off before: I just quit. Stick with NOPE and had some conversations in my head especially the first 2 days but I broke the endless cycle of patches, smoking, patch on, off and smoking. FOR BLOODY ten years I did this. And I broke the cycles! To me this is HUGE! Because I had either a patch on, or puffing away. Earlier this year I tried it with support of my Nortrilen (anti-depressivant) but I wasn't ready yet and fell. I grew mentally since my Nortrilen is stabalised on 5 pills a day. I I learned how to cope with emotions, was no longer depressed and yes the occasionally flashback here and there came by but from all of this I learned. My therapist said some direct, bloody painful things to me and THAT turned the tables. I saw the world as one big danger; he said the biggest threat to you, are you. Emotions won't kill you, but attempting to make emotions go away CAN kill you. The first thing he said we overdosed on Nortrilen trying to escape a flashback. The second he is drilling me with. I have a choice, live in fear for the shadows from the past or choose to look into the future where I am FREE and Jesus has conquered and by that I am a winner too. I can choose to relapse, drown in self pity or sadness but your past will never improve by keep looking back; and do I have a plate of memories to process and recover from YES but I refuse to choose the easy way. I am a survivor from severe trauma and I write this because I know many struggle in the dark. But I REFUSE to listen to the lies of the past, and choose to THRIVE! I AM A NON-SMOKER, I KICK-ASS if needed, and I CHOOSE positivity over self destruction. And that's what I stand for.