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Ol' yoda is back to give y'all another bedtime story tonight. I've been trying to keep my mind clear of smoking thoughts which has been going ok but this whole weight gain thing is getting out of control. I've monitored my intake for the last week and it really isn't that much different from when I smoked, however, if I even think about eating anything I love like potatoes pasta bread or sweets I put 5 pounds on. I had gotten my weight down a little bit but this past week I put 12 pounds back on for a total of 35 pounds gained in the last 100 days. So to anybody that says you won't gain but a few pounds quitting smoking I say **** You in the most sincere meaning of the phrase. Did I get a benefit from smoking? Yes, yes I did. It kept me from being a ******* fat slobby bastard. Unfortunately, it's not worth emphysema so I've got find a work around and fast or I'm gonna have to ditch all my pants and wrap a shower curtain around my ass. Anyhow, tomorrow morning at around 8 30 will mark the end of my 100th day without smoking. It's been an up and down fight with symptoms of quitting going from bad to tolerable to bad to worse. The cravings aren't so bad now I don't think but the weight gain, constant bloating and constipation and only getting about 2 decent nights of sleep a week is getting old quick and there don't seem to be any relief in sight. I do want to thank all of you who have offered solutions to the issues i've bitched about in the past and honestly, for beating the cravings you guys absolutely rock...but these digestive issues are proving to be quite the challenge. So what to do. Here is the plan for now. Not smoking at any and all costs is bringing diminishing returns as far as health goes so that is going to have to share the podium with getting my gut health back up to par. Now I know what you guys are thinking, Ol' yoda is setting up a great excuse to hop off the train. Quite the contrary...Ol' yoda is working out a way to stay on the train and get back to a comfortable weight so I can continue to work toward optimum health...or is that optimal health...I don't know...maybe somebody can give help me with that, but whatever, I didn't go through the hell of quitting smoking just so I can turn into a ball of sweaty rotting lard that can't enjoy life cause I'm to goddamned fat to get off the couch. But the devil is in the details and so far I've not provided any so here goes. You guys have NOPE...I'm gonna have to add NOTE and NOSE. Not One Taste Ever and Not One Sip Ever. But wait, you can't stop eating and drinking ya daft twat. And that is true but I can stop eating and drinking the things that cause me problems. The deeper I go into this the more I believe that I'm addicted to certain foods, especially sugar. So if that is an addiction that can cause health problems on the same level as smoking then why wouldn't I quit that as well. I would and should so sugar is off the table...along with bread, pasta, potatoes, chips any kind of snack food and especially sodas. If you are one of those people that don't need to take such drastic measures then I am happy for you. I, on the other hand am not one of those people. I can gain 3 pounds just seeing a bottle of Mtn Dew so imagine how ****** I am when actually drink it. So the challenge gets bigger. 2 addictions at the same time. It took 100 days to put on 35 pounds how long will it take to get rid of it? time will tell. You guys and gals have a great night and wonderful weekend. I wish all of you the very best life has to offer because you all deserve it. Peace

Congrats @KEL

@KEL i love those times when my mind is free. the only problem is that I never realize it until it's over. i still have to think about not thinking about the thing i don't want to think about which is really just me thinking about it. but i'm learning to love the process.

reading the self responses on the SOS board is great idea. I need to do that myself. Every time I think I'm getting a grip on this addiction I get bitch slapped by it...and with the pimp hand. glad you were able to get through it

@JustinHoot99yo dude!!! you still on this train or what? we miss you over here.

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For all my Texas friends

awesome quit @JustSomeGuy keep that train rolling

Happy Thanksgiving everyone. I hope your day was full of family, friends, love and joy and devoid of any thought of thing we are all here to rid ourselves of.

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@KrisSorry for being so late on this but good vibes have and are being sent...

understand now gilligan?

@jillarthere in lies the problem I face. If I focus solely on quitting the cigs and indulging in everything else then the problems of bloating and weight gain get so severe I can't move. I'm beginning to believe that smoking masked a lot of food addictions/reactions and I may have backed myself into a corner where I have to fight all of it at the same time. I'll give the little peppermint puffs a try and see how I react to them. I'm definitely drinking enough water but fruit juice is something I haven't been able to tolerate in years. It will be interesting to see how things progress. In the meantime, know that I appreciate you and Kris and Linda and Gus chiming in and supporting me through a rough patch. I love you all for that and can't thank you guys enough. May you all be richly blessed.

@Opah I would agree and say no as well (even tho i don't live in CA). That opens the door to total control and impinges on individual rights. If there was a way to guarantee that it would end there then maybe, but it would spread out to banning everything that some bureaucracy decided was a vice until you had a bunch of billionaires trying to dictate to everyone else where to live and what to eat

Ol' yoda got a little story to tell. Yep, I'm back to being Andy DuFresne crawling through shit today to get to freedom. I had been doing pretty good then one little moment of weakness and a half a bag of Cheetos later put me right back in the bad place. Bloated up like bull frog, cravings almost as bad as they've ever been and almost 4 lbs of something reattached itself to my ass. The focus and clarity I was starting to get is gone and the energy I was beginning to feel has also left. So what's the moral to the story. The cleaner I eat the easier the quit. It's easier to stay healthy than to get healthy. Hopefully I don't suffer for weeks for this but if that's the punishment then I'll just have to take it on the chin and keep going. I know come Thanksgiving I'll most likely ruin myself again but these are the choices we make. The silver lining is I haven't smoked. Even though I thought about it I never really viewed it as an option. Maybe getting over the addiction to sugar and carbs is replacing the cravings for nicotine. I don't know. Maybe it's like what women used to say about relationships...the best way to get over and old lover is to get under a new one. Not sure how that relates to a man and his addictions but whatever. I hope everyone else is having an awesome weekend. I do get strength and conviction from seeing all you good people succeed. Let's me know I can do it too and for that I thank and love you all. Peace

Great job Kris. Keep it going. The best is yet to come!!