105 days...hard to believe I made this far when I look back. I try not to look back to much though cause it starts reminding me of what I once was. That's not who I am now nor do I want to be that again. I actually had what I would call a good day. Everything pretty much went wrong but it just dawned on me that I never once considered a cigarette as a means of escape. When it hit me I actually felt like a non smoker instead of an abstaining smoker. Not to say that it felt good, it just didn't feel at all. The changes to my diet feels like it might stick this time. I'm definitely feeling better although I still have a ways to go to reach my goals. Quick question though...does anybody ever get cravings but then you just can't decide if it's a craving for a cigarette or maybe something else? The last few days will get a craving feeling but I just can't resolve what the craving is for. I don't really want to smoke although I could, not gonna lie. Or is the craving for something sweet. Or for a coffee. It's hard to say, but giving up a bunch of vices all at the same time has pretty much confused the shit out of my mind to where I can't tell what my craving is for which oddly enough makes it easier to ignore. Anyhow, I definitely think the diet change is helping a lot. All but giving up coffee is another thing that probably has had a positive effect. I still will drink a coffee every few days cause I'm still a coffee addict but there is a very small amount that I can tolerate without it causing some adverse effects. The reality though is that i'm still crawling through that sewer pipe out of the addict prison but i can see the end of the tunnel now and even though I'm not smelling the fresh air of freedom I can feel it on my face.
Here's a joke for you guys...why do people put cream and sugar in their coffee....answer.....
'cause they don't like coffee. LOL Alright, it ain't that funny but it's kinda true if you think about. good night everyone