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more smoking dreams last night and I've been battling a pretty bad depression. I'll assume this is just another stage to the quit. or maybe it's me reacting to something unrelated. for now I'll just keep plugging along and hope for better days.

I had a smoking dream last night. It was very lucid. In my dream I finished the cigarette and thought to myself it was only one or was it one pack? I was ok with one but the idea of a pack put me in a panic. I don't remember the context of why I was smoking in my dream. Hopefully that's the last one I have.

that's pretty badass!!! how do i get that image in my signature or whatever you call it?

Awesome quit @Kris

I cast my vote for Draggin' Slayers but I'm cool with whatever.

The Smokeless League Smokeless in Seattle Smoke Fiction I seem to be stuck on a movie theme for some reason Puffless Guardians of Quitopia The Quitopians Ash Beaters Smack dat Ash Draggin' Slayers Anyway, that's all I got. I'm not hung on any of them but thought I would contribute as best as my small mind can manage.

i'm seeing a lot of new folks coming and going lately. seems like most don't stick around very long. i hope it's because after a few months the smoking demon has left them and they have become true nonsmokers. if you are a non smoker why would you need to hang out on a quit smoking forum, right? anyhow, I just wanted to take the time to sincerely thank all the long time quitters that maintain a consistent presence on this board to assist all us trying to beat this addiction. Im sure your efforts do not go unnoticed by the Creator. Unless of course you happen to be an atheist, but I still notice and appreciate you

Congrats Judi. It seems like just yesterday you were 2 months quit.

Nicely done DenaliBlues.

f Good job katgirl

Sorry about the relapse but good on you for getting back to quitting. As Curly Howard once said...

Nice quit Steve. Congrats

don't give in. you quit for a reason. smoking will not make you feel any differently. it may seem better for a bit while you get your fix but after that you'll just feel worse. and it's not stupid. you feel how you feel.

...still here

Fantastic quit @Sunnysidesuch a great start.

It's been a minute since I've journaled my progress. Quitting smoking is still intact. Everything else that went to shit stayed that way until today. Turns out tomorrow is actually 20 days away as I managed to make it through 1 day without giving into the sugar monster. There was a hell of a price to pay for that long of a stint eating like shit. In 20 days I regained 11 lbs., the bloating came back with an unbridled vengeance and joint pain in my left shoulder is unceasing. Funny how you can find something that works really well for you and then abandon it for a momentary pleasure that ultimately leaves you feeling sick, unfulfilled and in pain. That is what addictions do to us. A friend of mine suggested I go to the doctor and see if they have a pill I could take to resolve the bloating and the joint pain. I can't bring myself to do that when I know a single lifestyle change will resolve both issues plus a lot of others without having to go through the carousel of drugs to find the magic 1 or 20. I've seen to many people go down that route and I'm just not ready for it yet. Tomorrow will be day 2 of being back on the diet with the exception of allowing myself decaf coffee for a while. If history repeats I just need to stay true to it for 2 or 3 weeks and then I'll be able to do some light exercise again which will make things easier. What's that saying you guys use here, if you give in you'll be right back where you were which was desperately wishing you were where you are...or something like that? I'm sure I mangled that but I truly understand the meaning of it now. Fortunately I learned the lesson with food instead of smokes. As far as the tragedies mentioned in my previous post, my dad passed away on the 5th. Rest in peace, Pops. You earned it.

thanks everybody. the support is much appreciated

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you can do this Marie. It won't be easy but it will only be as hard as you make it. I struggled with a lot of issues but when it comes right down to it, it's just mind over matter...if you don't mind it don't matter.

Congratulations @Kris10 months is a great quit. You are doing fantastic.

@Marie71Don't worry to much about if it did or didn't work for someone else. The question to ask is is it helping you? If it is then stick with it and I'm all for you using it to get you over the hump. If it isn't helping you then you probably don't need it. Only you can make that determination and everyone here will try support you by whatever means we have. good luck and stay quit.

congrats @Dianei hear the lido deck is nice this time of year. 1 year is a great accomplishment. mad respect

You can't hide money, I'll tell you what!!

Happy Easter @Sal. Congrats on your 100+ day quit. Sorry to hear Mrs. Sal relapsed but you have my respect for staying strong. Passing the 100 day mark does give one a great sense of accomplishment.

good call @HappyPassengeri wish I would have quit and stayed quit at 23. my dumbass waited untiI was 56 to quit. My mantra was and is that 5 years from now I will be so glad I quit. When you get to be my age you'll be able to look back and say you quit that dumbshit 30 years ago. LOL