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Oh dear God, I really shouldn't look at this site at work. LMAO and I work in a library for crying out loud. Okay, they tasted lousy, really, really lousy. I did NOT get that rush that I used to get when I had gone for a long time without a cigarette. Nothing enjoyable about it at all. I felt so badly for my poor lungs that were starting to feel so much better. However, and here is the kicker, I awoke the cravings. So now, my mind is craving something that my body doesn't want. Wonderful! The saddest part is that I was getting a glimpse of the promised land, cravings were weakening and coming much further apart. All the depression, sleeping problems and other issues had abated. I was getting there.... So, biggest lesson, we cannot have just one. It won't be what we want, but it will awaken the monster again.

How wonderful!!!

How lovely, you will really enjoy it, I am sure!

Have a lovely birthday!

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Wow, how wonderful!

(((((Laura)))))) Just climb back on board like me. I'll hold a hand out for you.

How did I miss this? Many congratulations!!

I missed it, too! So sorry to be late but so glad for you!!!

Ha, Bakon spent time at Fort Jackson, best boot camp ever.

Me, too. That nagging inside devil that says you can't do this. But we can, Evelyn!

How wonderful for you, RF!

Oh Evelyn, PLEASE stay noped! Starting over sucks, I promise you! I think part of the problem is the different way people quit. Some people just put their heads down and march forward and I think you find this more often in men. Others over think the whole thing, and I think this tends to be a female thing :rolleyes: For me, I was starting to actually have times, hours really, of not thinking of smoking. So when the thoughts of smoking did come back, it came back, not as the enemy, but as the long-time friend :angry: And so the romancing started. Of course, I am probably way over thinking this! I am not sure what to do about the romancing, other than read, read, read about the reality of smoking. Stay strong, dear Evelyn!

A very chilly nope, we don't often get down to 15 here.

Eight months is wonderful!

Oh, wonderful! I can smell spring in that picture.

Ouch, yes indeed! Thanks, Nancy (and I mean that).

Oooh, please don't put me in that basement. I'm here to stay, I promise!

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Yes, I'm here. Thank you all for the encouragement and saving a seat, rather than two by fours. As to why? A crisis arose and I used it as an excuse to smoke. Yes, I HAD been romancing smoking lately, and strangely enough, at the same time not thinking about smoking as much. But when I did think about it, the romance was definitely there. One good thing has come out of this. I truly realize that I cannot smoke just one cigarette. It tasted horrible, but the nicotine felt wonderful, real hello darkness my old friend. And I didn't send an SOS because, as Jackie (I think) said, I WANTED to smoke. I didn't want to be talked down. So, I think it is important not to let yourself get to that stage. How, I am not sure :( I do think that I need to read more and I will do that. Again, thank you all for slowing the train so that I could jump back on board :)

I threw myself off the train yesterday. Will step back on tomorrow.

Wonderful! Very happy for you!!!

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How wonderful!!! So excited for you!