Kris

I am so excited for you, sounds like your having a little vacation with your kids and grandkids. I want to do that to now that this virus thing is getting under control. Don't focus on anything but no smokes, lots of kisses and lots of fun! K

yep jillar, I'm a virtual human garbage disposal right now. I will have to get back on track later, right now I am just concentrating on the one thing I have to do. Wish you could come by and review my fridge and pantry, you would be on the ground in laughter. It is like being pregnant at 62! Doreen, I am being careful, I do not cut them in half anymore. I put one in my mouth and set a timer for 2 minutes. I remove said lozenge and place it on a saucer until I need another fix. Sometimes 2, 4 or 6 hours depending how well I am distracting myself. The instructions say I can use 9 a day, I am only using 3 or 4 a day with my new method. I want to get nicotine out of my life in everyway. K

i hope I can say this one day but I want to have a big party with food and dancing! Call all your friends and family, plan the party! You have gone a decade and bet they don't remember you even smoked. They do not realize the great gift you have given them, you are still here! K

I do use Jillar air smokes, have a huge pack!! I know that I have to get off these lozenges asap, I am experiencing the same things you describe. I don't know why this is but I picture you in Chicago not Burbank. Weird!

thank you again Linda. One morning I know I am going to wake up and see the thought for the day which says "Kris talks to much but at least she does not smoke anymore." K

Katgirl and Gary, What nice replies! Kat girl also suffered from this as a child. I remember it most vividly. I knew something was wrong when I became a teenager. I had such fear of going places wondering if I would ever get back home. With meeting new people and they would find out my secret. I never discussed this with my Mom. I think it all started when my Dad died when I was very young. I was blessed with a boy/man that did not care, he would do anything to help me grow and deal with the issue. Gary, I think you are right about meeting people that suffer as you do and give you support to keep going. I have said in multiple post I don't like technology but you are right in the fact that this has expanded my world. Trust me when I was working I was on the computer all day doing quotes on custom print jobs, promotional products, government contracts on some of these things. I even taught my self how to do artwork in Illustrator. I am lucky I can still type. I wish I could still work, it is good to keep active and busy. I started to have severe migraines after my husband passed and eventually had to quit. I have almost a daily migraine and was surprised not to have a headache at all that first week of the quit. We are all reaping the benefits of giving up the habit, better health, new friends and I think new interests. I am thinking of taking dance lessons know that I can breathe. (see, yes I do talk to much) but I have thought about smoking! K

Dear Abby, I am new but am doing it. I cried when the doctor called and said I had the beginning signs of emphysema. What's worse I cried when I told my son. I cried when to doctor called because I had to face the fact that no one but me caused this happen. I cried when I told my son about it, not that I was afraid on what I brought on myself but that I would have to say goodbye to a friend of 40 years. I cried because I did not know how I was going to able to quit. He just hugged me and said it's okay Mom, you just will have to do it a day at a time. I am dealing with the guilt and the shame of the decision I made to smoke all this time. So I think we all have to deal with that in one way or another. Then we have to make the decision that we can do it, we will quit and away we go. I don't like living alone at all but right now I am glad because I can cry when I want and I can't be cranky and fussy with any one over the fact that I, I alone am responsible for getting this done. I will do it, day 11, have not caved. I just think of my son saying I could do it. K

Thanks everyone, I am careful to follow the directions and have been actually using less of the lozenges than they recommend. I know there is such a thing as a nicotine OD, also just want to make it as easy as possible to stop using them when I am stronger in the journey. K

Glad to hear the update. I have been thinking of you. Starting a new job is so stressful. All the new things to learn, meeting new people etc. I am glad you are taking some gum today. The only thing I can suggest try to just go crazy keeping busy. Offer to do any thing that will help with that. Move around the room if you can,, stay engaged with the children, check and help them with their work if you can. If the teacher does not need you for the slow times maybe she can check with the office to see if you can help in other rooms. The added bonus of all this is that they will see that you are a hard worker and a team player. You will get that salary to start increasing fast. Hope today is easier!! K

Abby , using nicotine lozenges, I am going to do some research. I hope that is what is causing it. I will have incentive to get the nicotine out of my system. Too scared to go without it yet. K

Thanks for your support. just hate that feeling, makes it difficult to concentrate. I see your in Phoenix, the mornings there are so beautiful. My husband and I spent a lot of time there doing clinical trials when he was sick. Have to say we had a good time sight seeing and enjoying some good food. I know one thing, I can get thru the rough parts of the quit. I could not do what you have to do to take a walk, you are TOUGH. K

woke up with a sick stomach again today. Anyone else using oral NRT that feels sick at there stomach? K

I have an arsenal but still struggling. Can't do anything real physical due to recent hip replacement. I can't get up or down very easy so only so much house cleaning I can do. I am currently smoking a plastic straw, seems to help some. When I am done with my straw it will bake to the kitchen to bake. keeps me busy...but we quit smoking for better health and I can't stop eating. I have to get control or I will have a whole other problem. I am no good with technology. I love the board, first time I have ever done this. Find myself getting frustrated when I can't get things work right and just that makes me want to smoke. K

Welcome Steven, You and I are about on the same timeline. I also have noticed that I feel able to breathe easier. My dogs have informed me they want a new sofa with the savings. They as so bossy, they mess the sofa up and then just want another like money grows on fire hydrants. K

Just got up, let me check em. Still going down, they really are starting to resemble my feet. I still can't figure out what happened. I really do think the acupuncture may have done it. K

Dear Katgirl, I did not catch before how short a time you had been working on your quit. Your post to me were so helpful, I assumed you had quite a long time ago. I feel bad that I did not see this sooner. I to am very anxious by nature. I am only at 11 days and am really struggling. My doctor had discussed this with me long ago saying smoking made my blood pressure go up and made me more anxious...I did not believe it but it makes sense. I am awake early today after waking from a nightmare only to have a panic attack. K

Okay guys, you have me totally confused now. I know what you mean, kinda. I now know what the phrase watching the tail means, I thought if might be something weird and I was not about to ask. I was concerned about putting things in the wrong place but did not realize that someone had to go fix it I also know what one of the funny guys meant by "I don't need no stinking badges" Yes, I know that there is some kind of quote thing.....one I still have learn. I won't start a new thread but I did go for a walk to deliver the bread I made today. Wait for it....the neighbors were not home so I have 2 loafs of fresh, tasty English Muffin Bread, just what I need hanging around. K

Linda, First time looking at your thread. You could have a second career as a motivational speaker (typist) So glad to have positive input while I fight. K was trying to respond to your last post but I think I somehow sent this again. I am not ever going to be a tech person K

love your location, never learned to bowl, but loved the atmosphere they provide. Thanks for your reply. I really feel goofy that I count the minutes until I can sleep. Seems like the only place I can get a break from the emotions I'm dealing with right now. K

Hi Robbie, I am new also. I am at ten days and I am proud of myself. I think I am a lot like you with the depression, anxiety, the anger the tears, the insomnia and for me some down right terror.. I think we are just overwhelmed right now with these things because we are doing this. I had to quit because of health issues that have come up that I caused. I knew all this time I was hurting myself by smoking. I just lied and lied to myself that if would not happen to me. Guess what, if happened to me. I am determined now. I can do this. I also have no support, but we have found these wonderful people and can count on them to help us. I have found myself on a rollercoaster ride these last 10 days. It is kind that have the upside down loops and make you sick at your stomach. These people are riding it with me, comfort me when I struggle and cheer me on when I have felt better to keep me going forward. Just get everything out of the house that has to do with smoking. Check your car, clean the ashtray, fill it with hard candy. I have not gone in to a store that has cigarettes to avoid temptation. I order my groceries online and just pick them up. I am lucky that I am retired so I don't that extra stress. If I don't sleep well I can take a nap. I try to avoid that because I don't sleep well at night if I nap. I have found it is helping to have a schedule, time to get up and time for bed. Right now I am driven to want to eat so I have even set a time for meals. YOU CAN DO THIS, SO CAN I, WE JUST HAVE TO RIDE THE RIDE UNTIL ITS DONE! K

I am not sure where this post should go on the board. It is early evening here. I am relieved at this point in the day. I know it will be getting dark soon. It sounds weird but just having night fall relaxes me. I know I am almost thru another day, I made it again thank God! I can go to bed soon. I was like this even before I started this whole process. I love winter because of dark and the cold. To me it's the best, you can snuggle up, good book and cup of hot tea. Making big pots of homemade soups. Yes indeed, wish I had started in the winter time. I think it would have been easier for me. At least I know I will have a great fall and winter. Now that I am older I just can't handle the summer heat. Thanks for listening K

Well you did ask for it. LOL K

If you have quite a handle there. Can I call you D2? No I am not opposed to violence, I in fact attacked a stick of butter earlier this week. Just squeezed and squeezed until if has all over my hand and the counter. I have also tangled with yard tools and appliances. I get very unhappy if things don't work like they should of just stop working. I think the worst was the old vacuums that you had to change belts or when I new bag would not go in right. I will assume you have removed your trigger from your life, so you won two battles, the smoking and the trigger. K

Just hate it when you go the fridge and find out your cucumber is really a zucchini in disguise. My poor salad will have to do without. My steak is at least who he says he is. I think these two things will distract me for awhile. Since I will not be smoking anymore, I need to know what you have for dinner so I can expand my horizons. Hard to cook for just one. K

New questions. I have been notified that I am now an enthusiast (I think I just talk too much) I an not enthusiastic about this at all but I am very proud that I am doing it. I also see that I have won the day (again, I talk too much). Never put a drink and a cigarette in my hand or you will live to regret it. I have not had this much interaction with anyone in years and it has renewed my faith, K