Kris

GREAT JOB, WOULD PUT SOME NEAT THING FOR YOU BUT I AM TECH CHALLENGED. I AM HAPPY FOR YOU AND HOPE TO FOLLOW IN YOUR FOOTSTEPS!

Still on the train, last one I took was way back in 1963 when my Dad died in the Air Force, taking his body home for burial. I was only 3, feel like he is riding with me to keep me strong. K

@Steven Drojensky Congratulations, hope to be joining your success soon, right behind you time wise. If I remember right we would go out for deep dish pizza and beer. You are in Chicago right? K

Dear Jillar, I agree with everything you have said. I no longer feel bad or less than because I was an addict. I am doing everything I can to get better. I do not have friends or family that understand my struggle or how hard it is. Here, I have people who know what the heartache and mental battle we face everyday. I quit because of medical reasons, which were bound to come sooner or later. We just keep telling ourselves we are okay when it is far from the truth. I hope long after this young people will come here and see that someday this will happen, stop now, live a long healthy and happy life for you, your children and friends. K

@Freedom53 I can relate so much however I am not as strong or brave, I have been using NRT to get thru this nightmare, hoping I will make it past the worse part. I feel like I am doing well considering other things I deal with. We just have to take it 1 minute, 1 hour, 1 day at a time. We can do it with focus and the help from other people here. Right now my brain is curled up in the fetal position for reasons not related to smoking but it does make that crave worse. I have learned that I will always feel that pull, I have to find other ways to handle it. You are not alone! K

hair is grey

please love all changes equally smoke (NOT}

The pups and I will have Coors light on ice, what appetizers would you like?

go home to both neighbors steak

You may have beer, what brand, but you have to pet the pups.

Time usually reveals damaged souls loves

Loader is broken

More than enough room for you, the pets and a glass of wine and appetizers.

Where ever rabbits tried going dnhpf

I would love for you to come over, sit on my sofa and meet my pets

@Katgirl You are so kind! When my husband was sick (for 5 years) I always said there would not be anyone else that could hold my heart. I watched a neighbor who also lost her husband to cancer before me. She married a man that turned right away, wanted access to all her accounts etc...She knew that did not make sense as he had portrayed himself to be well off. He became combative over the fact she would not allow him this information. She realized she made a mistake and asked him to leave. Last I knew they are still legally married. She is afraid is she files for divorce he could try to take half of everything she has. I am also just tired, I don't have the energy to try and have a relationship with anyone. I have spent so much time being a caregiver. After my husband passed, my Mom became ill to the point I brought her to live with me. I was back caregiving again. Doctors, cooking, bathing, dressing and everything she needed. I finally had to place her in care because I could not keep here safe at home. She got dementia and could not remember where she was and I was there. Getting up and falling, breaking bones and having brain bleeds. As soon as I got here placed, dearest family friend to my husband and me had to have a below the knee amputation due to diabetes. He had 2 brothers that he had no relationship with him for 35 years. I brought him home with me to recover. Again back in caregiver mode. He did well here lost weight, got diabetes in control, had the lowest A1C since he developed diabetes. He was well enough to go home. I should have kept him here, when he got home he did not do well and lost him April 2020 from heart attack. Again, I am just tired, I do not have anything left to give anyone anything. I just want peace and quiet. If I want I can just have bowl of cereal for dinner. If I want to cook it can be my choice. If I feel bad I can take a nap. I am in control for once without thinking I have to do this and this to take care of others. I have only me and the dogs, not gonna lie, I prefer it this way. I am happy for you, you have found a real gem in a world full of rocks. I just don't have the energy to pan for gold. K

Lady pissed of since sixties crazy

@jillar I guess we are waiting on a word. Mind you I am no good at games but I would like to adopt the kid you are showing us. So let's go with Adopt

@BeautifulAspie1970 First of all I am so sorry for your loss. I know how that feels as I have lost loved ones as well. I am happy that you have made the decision to quit, as I have also done this recently. I know it will be hard but you can do it. I tried to ignore the fact that it was a threat to my health. The day came when the results of a catscan came in showing the signs of emphysema. I cried a lot and smoked a lot that weekend but made the decision I would quit when there were no more cigarettes in the house. I did just that and with the help of the people on this board I have been able to do it. I have not heard about the nicotine mist but I do have nicotine lozenges that I use sometimes. I have been slowly weaning myself from those. We don't to replace one bad habit with another. K

@Katgirl It will be 11 years this December, we met at 15, engaged at 18 and married at 20. He is the only boy/man I have ever known. Others came around after he passed but I knew what they were after, a widow with money and a woman who always took care of her husband. I know it sounds crazy but we did not work this hard for anyone but each other and our son. I have other ladies that I know that have been taken advantage of during their grief. I was and am not going to let that happen. Everything we did will be passed to our son. Some people would say it is crazy to be alone but I just will not be able to trust in anyone, At this point I am good, don't mind having friends to do dinner etc. but nothing more. K

I am so sorry to hear about your friends decline. Although I did not know it at the time my husbands passing I can look back and see the signs I did not know then that he would be gone soon. it can be a blessing to know it is coming so you can say everything you need and let them know how special they are to you. You will stay in my thoughts. K

@Katgirl I did not mean to offend with my post. I also like what I like, when I was younger loved shoes, shoes shoes. Now that I am older my feet do not like the shoes so much and I have moved onto excellent mattresses, really nice sheets and bedding and throws. I spend a lot of time in bed with the migraines. I also like a really nice comfortable leather sofa. I spend a lot of time there and the dogs can be up with me because their nails don't scratch or put holes in it like with a fabric sofa. I am home all the time and like to feel comfortable. You should be happy and proud that you have a wonderful man in your life. Someone to travel with, go out to dinner and movies, even just snuggle up and watch TV. Would I like that, yes, but I can't have it. Even though my husband has passed I still love him and can't imagine a world with anyone else. K

@jillar we must have been posting at the same time, I don't have to keep with Jones because I don't know any Jones. I know a lot of people who think are they are the Jones and they are not happy, relaxed or grateful for what they have. I feel bad for them to work so hard for "stuff" instead of enjoying the fruits of their labor. I guess when my husband got sick there was only one thing I wanted and needed and there was no way I would have it. I just let everything go stuff wise. K

@Katgirl Yes we are all different and make choices that fit our life. I feel blessed that I have options. I did not come from a wealthy family but I never felt deprived. I guess for me the simple life keeps me from having to worry about anything. I don't need the new car because I really don't go anywhere. If the need arises I just rent a car. The house is paid off, I can go do or buy anything I want, I just find I don't need much to be comfortable. Most of my expenses this last year were medical and vet bills for the dogs. I hope when I leave this world I will have enough to get my grandchildren through college (I only have one right now) plus funds so my son and his wife might be able to retire early. K

Being a Texan I have had the joy of getting to float the Guadalupe. Mind you I was in my twenties so I can't speak if I could do it now. It is a wonderful time, full of nature and beauty you will never forget. If you get close also visit Canyon Lake, emerald green waters and depending on where you stay, deer will come up to visit. K