So, I’m pretty sure I have mentioned that I suffer from an anxiety disorder, which is pretty chronic, at least, lately. Well, today, it was almost out of control. I felt so bad, that I took an extra half dose of my anti-anxiety medication. Right now, I am almost back to feeling reasonably normal. For those of you who also experience bouts of anxiety, you know what I mean. Can I just say how much it pisses me off to suffer from a mental disorder?! It seems unfair. I always try to live the right way, I am in a great relationship. My kids and dozen grandkids are all fine and happy. It makes no sense for me to feel anxious. On paper, my life is great. I just returned from a 6 week cross country vacation, where I got to see wonderful places, spent quality time with all 3 of my sons, and 5 of my grandkids. I also got to see several very close long term friends, on the east coast. I stayed in luxury hotels, visited my coveted Jersey shore for 4 days, toured our nation’s capital, etc. I did all of that, with very little anxiety. So, why now? I even made sure to restart my exercise routine, because I know it helps with the anxiety. It is really scary to experience such severe so anxiety, that I feel like I’m losing control…. Keep me in your thoughts, please.
KAT