Dianne

Makes sense to me Edy! When I decided I was done. It was because it not fun anymore. I was not gaining anything from it. The feeling of it killing me both physically and mentally was/is real for me....I get it....at least you came here and said it out loud....that a positive step!

Still here. Working on day 6 now. Man.... I never ever want to repeat this last week in life. I will never want to go through this again. Right now it is that thought which keeping me going. So it has to stick. I think I only have one quit within me. I this whole feeling of now or never. I have post-it notes around my bedroom and the house, snippets of words, phrases from here that speak to me. In some ways I felt more positive getting through day 3 than 4 and 5....4 and 5 sort of bah humbug like the intense fight over? What left a daily grind of getting by and through....like I in it for the long haul.....odd feeling... not sure how to word it. I staying away from the back patio which is where I always smoked. I miss it, not going to lie, the smoke, the break out back. Had to laugh at myself as I was like wow I never get fresh air now....had to stop and think on those words and thoughts.....yeah right Dianne lol.... getting more fresh air now then I did in the last 40 years. In other randomness....cleaned out my purse, discovered I had 3 lighters in there (prepared and then some) The practical side of me was like could come in handy for a emergency. The realistic side of me was like....Dianne...you do not live in north country...you do not hike....you do not camp....then the question....do non-smokers carry lighters around in their purse? Is a honest question lol I had to ask a few...their answers so far have been no.....so I threw them in my dresser drawer....because I a non-smoker now....amazing the little things and thoughts you can get stuck on

Day 3...using lines on myself all 2 hours of the morning I have been awake......isn't it nice I can have my coffee with out a cigarette ...isn't it nice I can wake and not go outside for a cigarette....isn't it nice I do not need a cigarette after breakfast.....isn't it nice I can brush my teeth and not go out and have a cigarette right after brushing them.....I think it going to be a isn't it nice day and a stay close to here day

Hi Kdad I only on day 3 so no great advice. You came back to post you struggling and I can think of no better place to hang out as you struggle then here. I a new found respect for any who have quit. A deep respect for the journey and choice. Keep trying and do it!

Not sure if this makes any one feel better or safer. But I and about 10 family members now have had both doses of the Pfizer vaccine. A sore arm the only complaint.

Sounds funny to write it and say it. In all these years of smoking...sure I knew I was a smoker but the thought of addict. I never thought of that or chose not to. Being here one big day now.... I realize or acknowledge I am indeed a addict.....dangggggg

Good luck jillar!

I am holding onto to that (tightly I add) that others have done it and stayed the course. Thank you Boo

Day 2, There great ideas in this thread and encouragement. I do not feel I can apply some of them right now....because of the bronchitis.... exercise is limited (for the moment) getting lots of sleep is out too because I am coming off the steroids and they seem not to like me and the anxiety attacks (add in the GERD)....it so rough right now.... I feel like I asking for pity ( I guess I am) I only on day 2 so for others who trying to quit cold turkey who want their health back and fighting off multiple other things on the way....I drinking lots of water and sugar free Gatorade...I pacing pacing pacing till I just stand in the kitchen and stare blankly at the universe.... then I come here and read or blankly stare at the screen....then... repeat it all again ...and each time I want that cigarette I remind myself how bad I want to breath and be healthy again and thank Jesus for keeping me safe from cigarettes' today (I must of said that 50 times yesterday) I hanging in and on that the best I can say.

Thank you every one for your words, ideas and encouragement! I find myself staying here just reading, rereading and hoping I can fall asleep. And just make it to tomorrow. Again thank you!

Hi my name is Dianne. I have been smoke free 1 day now. I am 56 and have smoked for 40 years. Have been sick with a upper respiratory infection which turned to bronchitis. Just came off the medicines (except for the inhaler) they gave me for that. Now I am convinced I also have GERD which making my breathing hard too (bought some Prilosec today in hope of help with that) I do not have health insurance or a doctor. I also am convinced I having anxiety attacks. I day smoke free and I feel like I falling apart in multiple ways. Trying to hang in. Came across this place in my searches of how to hang in...not doing so good but am glad I found a place to read other peoples experiences.