Papagoat

Hello , It’s been almost 7 months since I quit . At first I felt like a new man ! Now , 7 months latter , every day gets worse and worse . I smoked for over 30 years at least a pack a day sometimes 2 , as the years went by I started noticing the negative effects smoking was having on me , but after I quit my breathing is much worse, but more importantly is the emptiness I feel , it’s like I have a hole in my soul and nothing can fix it . Coffee and food help a tiny bit , but I really just want to go back to smoking , I felt so much better emotionally. Of course there are a lot of up sides , for one the money I’m saving is fantastic! No more cigarette smell , my teeth are whiter and my skin is looking better, but .... I’m not sure if it’s worth it . Have any of you experienced this ? is it the addiction never going to let go ? is this what “recovery “ feels like ? I’m looking forward to hearing from you . Thanks John