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Looking back I think you're spot on @reciprocity I didn't really quit I just abstained. That is something I need to think about more and try and work out why I did that

Hi @Doreensfree I did get angry but that was the addict in me not wanting to hear the truth. Back to basics sounds like a good plan

I'm really saddened to read this @jillar I knew you had asthma but I never expected to hear that.

Thank you Thanks @Mona Yes I am looking for encouragement to quit and when I do I will want people to to tell me how great I'm doing and why I should be happy I've quit. I thought that was the whole purpose of the board ie to keep us all going. Just for the record I'm definately not depressed. I was looking for tips rather than a character assassination

Hi Everyone. I'm here today to ask for some help. I was a constant relapser on the forum and then managed to hit my one year. Not long after that I threw away my quit and went back to smoking. I know why I relapsed. It's because I genuinely believe I love smoking. I know in my heart that's not true but it's the one part of nicotine addiction I can't seem to overcome. That is why for the whole year I never really celebrated because deep down I knew it was only a matter of time. There are so many benefits to being a non smoker and I regret lighting that first cigarette. I know it's REALLY hard to find the stamina to keep encouraging someone like me. It's draining to keep saying "you got this" only to find days/weeks/months down the line they let you down ......again. I'm feeling regretful that I threw my quit away but instead of using that feeling to quit I'm using it to keep smoking. I don't even know what I'm asking from you. Maybe to stroke my brow and tell me it's all going to be ok, or maybe I need to hear some real home truths and tough love. People in my life tell me how wonderful I am for going a year. They don't see my failure they just see that achievement and so I'm not getting the encouragement I need to quit. Sorry for the long ramble but just needed to come here and get that all out

Thank you @greenlight

Jeff really sorry to read this. There is really only one reason why you're failing and that's because you want to smoke more than you want to quit. Look around at all the success stories on this thread and you'll find the one thing they all have in common is their passion about being non smokers. We all know how to quit - we just stop buying and smoking cigarettes. You will do it

This is sad news but completely understandable. I've always found you such a kind and wise influence around the forum. You treat everyone equally, listen without judgement and encourage everyone to keep trying. You have all the qualities to make a wonderful father to your little girl You will be missed ❤

Cheering you on from the sidelines @Nana20

Thank you @Jenny I will be sure to shout for help when I need it. Just trying to get off the start line at the moment

Congratulations @JohnQ on 5 wonderful days. Will be following your trail very soon

How are you @HeatherDianne I hope the day got better for you

Thank you @Mac#23 @d2e8b8 and @Sazerac

I do get why you say that @MarylandQuitter and I know you're the boss, but as with anything in life sometimes to move forward you have to stop looking back. I'm the type that would read all those posts and sit wallowing in my failure. I need to stay positive and just move forward. I hope you will agree to that.

Thank you @Mona

Hi @JohnQ There are a few of us who have quit or are about to quit. @BKP has even given us a team name - Team HLNJ. Looking forward to embarking on this journey with you all

Hi @Mona I quit 13 March last year so I had passed my one year.

@BKP I love Team HLNJ. Sounds like a bunch of winners to me

Hi @Doreensfree and thank you for letting me use this account. In honesty I think the Coronavirus outbreak is what triggered my relapse. Not seeing my family was very hard, the lockdown itself and the constant fear we have of catching it. It has changed our lives completely and my commitment to my quit clearly wasnt what I thought it was.

Thank you @jillar

@Nana20 sounds as though everything is working as it should be for you. @HeatherDianne I have just posted on your thread. Looking forward to celebrating the end of your Day 1. I haven't set a quit date yet but it will be sooner rather than later. I would love to be quit buddies with you @Nana20

HeatherDianne we seem to both be in the same boat. You have received so much great advice already but I just wanted to say well done on getting your quit back today

I haven't been here for a long time and I'm sorry to say I've been smoking since March. If it's ok with you all I'm going to hang out here a bit more and get my mindset back. @MarylandQuitter if it's ok with you can you close my old account. Hopefully a fresh account will go hand in hand with a fresh quit.