Nana20

Thank you everyone for the warm welcome. I made it through yesterday fairly quietly. I stayed in my room and just kinda watched TV and dozed. I also stocked my mini fridge (I have teens and if I want anything I have to keep it in my room.) with waters fruit cups and some not so healthy snacks. I also kept my computer on this site so when I was have a bad crave I could just pick up my computer and read. Haven't really been in the mood to talk feel kind of snappish, but its all good. I had one crave that was a really hard crave, I mean I went psycho. (in a hilarious funny way that felt all to emotional and teary, but was laughing afterwards.) I had a trigger first thing in the morning, I was cooking breakfast for everyone, and I was almost done cooking when I asked my daughter to set the table. She then proceeded to get an attitude with me. Her getting an attitude is a huge trigger for me. It is a big button pusher. so I got upset, a crave hit. Man I was walking around crying, upset because I was having this bigger than life crave and I am storming out my house tears streaming down my face telling everyone to basically go f**** themselves, storming down the road. I stop look down at myself. I am in my pj's housecoat. no shoes. hair standing on end. big tears flowing down my face and I am crying screaming I am done, they can keep the house, I was out. I make it to the corner and I am like WTH am I doing. So I walk back home walk back inside and they are trying not to laugh because it was a very hilarious thing to see (please feel free to laugh as I did after it all passed). but through all that craziness. Through all the drama of that crave. I not once asked for a cigarette. I not once thought of a cigarette. The truly ironic thing was is I didn't even notice that. I was to wrapped up being mad and crying, but later my husband was like I expected you to scream for someone to give you a cigarette, but you didn't once mention it. He said you could tell that it wasn't even an option. So after that happen I said I think I am going in my room. everyone adhere to the note on the door. which I will post a picture of, but it said " If you answer yes to any of the following questions skip knocking and come straight in. Are you bleeding out? Is someone dying? Is this an emergency? Now if the answer to this questions is yes. Do you want something? Then go ask someone else I am out of the office. and I just sat here and took it easy. So I made it through day 1 now onto day 2. lets see what today has to bring for me.

I plan on sticking really close to the board today. I'm not think about tomorrow. I am only taking it an hour at a time a day at the most I am only going to worry about the NOW!!!!

Hey guys just wanted to drop a line and say at 11:10pm last night I had my last cigarette I couldn't handle the nausea anymore. The nausea only hit when I was smoking a cigarette. So, I went hours without smoking and didn't have the first sign of nausea. Then as soon as I would smoke a cigarette the nausea would overtake me. I also noticed that when I don't drink a full bottle of water I will also get nauseous. But I am getting my nausea from the Chantix under control and I am doing great so far today with cravings. I am still having them but I am able to manage my way through it. I am using my own mantra designed around NOPE. And when a craving hits I use HALT. Am I hungry, am I thirsty am I bored, what am I feeling I need. When I haven't been able to figure it out. I grab me a snack, a glass of water( seems to be the only thing I can drink ) and my laptop and come here and read. Oh and I have been up since like 5 so I've had some craves this morning. First day we are making it through.

Thank you everyone with the warm welcome. I am looking forward to the journey ahead. I might not always feel happy about the path I decided to take, but I know I will always be proud that I did. @Doreensfree I am so thankful that he won't remember that I was a smoker. I am also glad to have the support of people who know what it feels like to be quitting smoking. @jillar Yes I know what you are saying as I remember from the last quit that last 6 months how I kept saying man this is easier than breathing, but I also remember that there were times when I went through it as well. That time I used message boards as well and it made the world of difference. So when I went out in search of one I browsed several including past ones and I found this one and I just felt more right with this one. So here I am. @Mona Oh I am a 100% committed as I have the best motivation in the world. Because whenever I imagined myself as a grandparent, which I have done several times throughout my life. I always imagined grand-babies, lots and lots of grand-babies around me. So I am dedicated to making sure I am around for that. I also agree that knowledge is power and that you have to know your enemy in order to beat it. @Mac#23 Congrats on being 2 months smoke free. I can understand what prompted your decision to quit. That is why I choose this group is because I really liked the educational post and I really could use the support. So thank you welcoming me with your story. It meant a lot. @Sazerac Thank you for the link. There is definitely a lot of information in there that I will have to check out in full length after I finish this post. Also I agree the power to quit is in my hands. I tell people you can't force your decision on to other people. My DIL is constantly trying to force my son to quit smoking. It never works unless they want it. You have to want it for yourself. I hope your right that it will help health issues. @reciprocity Thank you for your kind words and your sound advice. @beazel Oh you can definitely count on my posting often.

Hello everyone, my name is Nana. I have been smoking since I was 15 years I am now 41 years old so for 26 years I have smoked. At times I have been a heavy smoker and at times a moderate smoker. So there are many times that I have attempted to quit and not succeeded and there are a handful of successful quits, then relapse would happen. I use to tell myself that I can't quit. That I've never really succeeded to quit, so why even try. Then I started to think on it and realized that because the only way to succeed is to never give up. So I talked to my doctor and we decided on Chantix and Burpropion. I started the Chantix last Friday and once I get that in my system and if I need the Burpropion then I will start that. As to my reasons for quitting, Well they are many. For starters on March 24, 2020 my first Grandson was born. He is such a gem and a true inspiration to me and a very good reason as to why I want to quit. I also want to do it for myself. I want to live a healthier life. I want to be a non-smoker. Maybe not always, but more times than not. I think the only time I want to be a smoker is when I finally get the nerve and the strength up to try and quit. My inner demons are strong. My addiction to nicotine is strong. This will not be a easy fight, it will not go quietly. But I am stronger than my addiction I have raised 3 kids and lost both my parents. I have been through triumph. I have been diagnosed with Crohn's and Graves disease. I am still standing. I am the one everyone comes to to get advice. I know that I can be stronger than my addiction, I just have to remember that when I am in the throws of withdrawal. so for now I am going to go make some dinner take my evening Chantix pill and settle in for the night.

First and foremost welcome. I am new here also. I am quitting smoking using Chantix, and Burpropion. I have set my quit date for 6/12/20, but the Chantix makes me sick every time I smoke a cigarette so I might go ahead and move my quit date up just because I can't tolerate the smoking. I'm on Day 6 of the Chantix. Almost through week one and up to the full dose. So maybe we can be quit buddies. Anyhoo welcome and I will see you around the board. Nana