Hello everyone,
As the title indicated, I want to make this time the last time I quit.
I was a smoker for many years, started way back in my late teen years, so almost 40 years now, it horrified me just now when I figured out the # of years I got hooked.
I tried to quit hundreds of times as well, the last time I quit was about 4-5 years ago, it was the longest quit for about 2 years.
But then after 2 years, I was naive and thought that because I could do it that time, if I had the occasional smoke I could do it again, and I got pulled back in.
When I realized I got hooked again, I started reading up about quitting again, but this time I switched over to vaping, with the hope to phase it out slowly and because I was reading that it has much less poisons and chemicals than burning leaves.
Make a long story short, I decide to quit for good a week ago. On May 19 I had my last drag from the vape.
The quit this time was very different from previous quits, it was much less difficult. Surprisingly I didn't have any withdrawal issue, no anxiety, no cravings, no depression, not any kind of physical sign from nicotine withdrawal like previous quits.
But now that a week has gone by, even though I haven't felt any nicotine craving, occasionally I suddenly wanted to pick up a vape again and I've been struggling between 2 thoughts, 1 thought is "just a few drags, then quit again", the other thought is "don't be stupid, there's never just a few drags, drop it!"
So far, my level-headed side had won the argument, I just don't understand why I have these urges when I can't feel any nicotine withdrawal symptom, but I'm very worry that if these urges keep coming back I may fail again like all previous quit. I REALLY want to kick this addiction for good so help me God.
Thanks for reading