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boys do not watch these girlie videos, period. must have been a senior girl who declared this law. so what do the boys do. we get together one night, make sure no one is around and set up a security parameter tighter than what Potus has today and watch the video. imagine the embarrassment of getting caught watching it. luckily the mission was successful. one of the cutest videos you will ever see other than her 'time after time' (that is a heartbreaking one really)

we never found out how it all began but i think i was waiting to join as a cadet when i was warned by a friend one day. do not you dare to ever listen to this song. it is said that anyone who listens to this song commits suicide. it is banned all over the world and will get banned here too. simple world, simple times - we believed everyone and anything back then. it took me a lot of guts to press play the audio (no guts to watch the video, lol) and after the first listen and i was jumpy for more than a week later, maybe. lol

can you walk like an egyptian? - god forbid if you said no. that was a sin as a teenager. we watched the video just to learn the walk and hit replay like maniacs (vhs tapes - remember??) the things we did to look and feel cool. but we did learn the walk thanks to the endless pause - check the angle dom, lol. wow nostalgia - was so easy to be happy back then.

we skipped school - jumped the school wall behind the basketball court and then ran all the way to a freind's house which was a good 2 -3 miles out of breath and panting deeper than a dog he stammered in between the death like panting. this is unreal guys. even today i hear his voice. it is so unreal. believe me - at that time it was way too advanced. bunty bailey looks so adorable. the four of us watched the video in stunned silence that lasted minutes after the video. we could not believe our eyes - the video was unreal, even today it feels the same.

my first ever music video. cant help smile and hum the tune even today. beats any pop song even today at least in my eyes. what is so beautiful is that there was nothing vaguely vulgar that is so prevalent today esp in rap and pop videos (luckily heavy/doom/gothic metal still remains pure). simple, so full of innocence and i still cannot help falling all over in love with her again and feel shy and conscious each time she stares at the camera directly. a touchy soft soul bleeder.

hi all, we all have that feeling. a song suddenly starts on the radio and it takes you on a time trip. the song has a certain memory of your life that embedded in it forever. some memories are too scared to share but others can be a good way to spread a smile at a jungle trek campfire maybe so feel free to post or just enjoy lurking. remember - NOPE and smile, be happy.

sure boo, ill check out on this. interesting because it will be something new and that should be fun. the only question is how exactly - ill try and pull up a few videos to learn how - just to check on the intricacies of the walk. how my life has changed !!!. . in a week. now i have close to half a dozen folks i look forward to interacting with and this place feels like home and so full of love and positive energy. that is magic to me, that to me is a miracle.

hello darcy. to be honest i am not sure if i even can do one set of the planned exercises. that is the reason i will use these two days to check and test myself. if i stand still the quit waters will flood me. just got to keep climbing up the ladder, lol. create a bigger problem - diversion, remember - lol. hey - you folks inspire me honestly. what type of exercises are you into if you do not mind me asking you?.

hi all, from the little that have i read and from quite a few videos i noticed that the problem of weight gain is what follows a quit. i am in the baby stage of my quit but i think it is good to keep the workshop guys busy. after all - an idle mind is the devils workshop, lol. so here is the plan (this is complimentary to the 'diet quit for the psycho quit keeper' and both must run parallel for effective results) the idea is to get the body and mind so busy into exercising and diet control that craves becomes a non issue to them. yes, we play dirty. ab exercises: 1. leg raise 2. m/climb 3. plank 4. b/crunch 5.v/crunch 6. scissor abs now i am making up an excel sheet. the only pending issue is the number of sets that i can do without straining myself. so i will use the next few days to check out the same. once that is done i will start the 100 day work-out. the idea is to keep the mind and body so tired that they remain grateful for the needs and so they discard the wants - 'esp the 'want to smoke' feeling. feel free to add, share, suggest any other better ideas. i used to love doing 1,4 and 6 exercises but it has been quite a while now that i have worked out seriously. this is a good time to start again. unable to attach word doc, need help in doing so. not urgent so you can take time in advising me on how to do it.

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lol, now you know a third. on a serious note - i hope i do not relapse ever. thank you for the strength.

hello captain, in the chronicles of my quit - you are the boss, always will be. please do not take anything i write seriously - i just lie to my mind and body to keep them fooled. problem is after a while the lie begins to feel like the truth. true, if nicotine was not at all physical most quits would succeed. i did something stupid, reckless and dangerous a little while back - today. a shout out to my neighbor who was washing his bike. no clouds in the skies i yelled at him and in a minute or two he was at the fence with some 5 cigarettes. i turned james bond when offered a stick and told him i quit, i quit smoking. he was like - stunned initially. then confused. he lit three of them while i gave him tips on the soft tail luggage bags he is looking for. he walked away later perplexed. so the lock-down is in my favor for sure but i am firmly in control. if i could stand in front of this good friend who would lend me ten packets in a ziffy when needed then i am sure i have no urgent reason to yell for help or stand by beside the panic button. i will not shy away but visit every place, every friend who can in the remotest way possibly make me relapse after the lockdown. act contra i feel is the most dangerous but most effective way to send shivers down the enemy's spine. once you do that the body will surrender along-with your mind. we each have our attack and defense mechanism. if i am nicotine free - you are the biggest trigger, the biggest reason, the biggest strength and the biggest inspiration. i will now go through the links one by one. thank you for all the things i will never even realize that you did for a faceless me. (like digging up old threads and debating if they would help me and then posting a reply and so much else that i will never know). it is touching because even now you are so touchy about my quit. so concerned and so i do not know - to me - you are like i confessed before - a greek goddess of energy. thank you again.

hi gaurdian angel, you know - if this were a physical office i would be your office boy, office limo driver for free, lol. i listen to a lot of extreme metal that will cause folks to relapse, lol. so i will not post any of that. but i will post numbers in the correct section for sure. help someone - lol. how does a blind guy lead anyone?. next year maybe - too soon to bet on a freak like me. my life has always been extreme, never the slow and steady type. so that reflects in the quit too.

hi boo, first things first. you write akin to a magician using words that amaze and stun the reader. sazerac was the one who put up the link. thank you for all the inspiration. i intend to hang around here for a long, long time and make sure the quit remains buried. there is a wealth of information and inspiration here. i must be honest. the sea-life that got me into this thing in the first place helped me quit too. limited knowledge and simple to the point instruction (whatever happens - it is NOPE) and we sailors follow each little order to the hilt. i mentally was tired maybe and that helped. i do not know what triggered this violent quit wrapped in horrifying aggression. whatever, as long as it ended well - it was justified. maybe my brain is scared of registering craves now or my body has simply given up yearning for i do not remember any feeble crave too all day. i am a non-smoker not because i did not smoke for the last 8 days now maybe but because i believed it when i decided to quit. the rest was put in place by sazerac, doreensfree and the gang. i just followed their instructions. to be honest . a minute into my quit i was a non smoker there on because i had quit mentally which i guess is the key to a quit. too early for such big words i know but it is what it is.

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true, quite true - maybe, lol. i may seem like i am being over optimistic or jumping the gun. or underestimating the power of addiction. and this quit was born and raised in a controlled and so far away from real life conditions. well, i am not misplaced or overstating anything. and there is no ego, no excitement, no newbie desperation behind the simple truthful outburst - i am a non-smoker now. this is a fact that i i know - done, dusted,buried and even the epitaph is up and running - its over now. for forever.....and a day. to be honest - rather than living in fear of a re-lapse i would prefer to live in regret with the stick in my hand. i want to remain fearless and that is how i will raise my quit to be. the quit must never dominate me or else i will be ruthless in my discipline as i have been in command at sea and with sailors you have to be tough as hell believe me. the sea dogs do not dish out any respect unless they fear you and trust in your abilities as a commander. each time i would step on board a new vessel i would within 24 hours of my joining have the emergency drills. one drill and i knew how far i had to work on the crew or major areas of correction etc. sometimes it was a brand new ship and at times the girl would be a 20 year old or more. end of the day it is the competence and training of the crew that makes a ship safe or unsafe. i never had to wait for a month to realize that. Hey, one month down today - i think they are good enough now. no, that is not how it works. after a year of my quit do i grow horns?. no. i will be me, just the same old me that i am today. after a year i will still be as vulnerable as i am today or just as stronger or maybe a bit stronger than i am today. i feel it has nothing to do with withdrawal symptoms. that is a myth. there is nothing like physical dependence in the world of smoking. it is just mental dependence. i could be wrong but that is the way i see it now. yes, like you stated so rightly - i will have armed myself with knowledge far beyond what i possess today. a year from now but from my time at sea i realized long back that successful folks are those who follow orders and rules well. ntk works well. you are always given information on a ntk basis (need to know). less is more many a times. at least to us sailors as we are by default dumber than landlubbers. the old sea dog in me is trained thus - give me an order, period. i need to know what to do - not why it needs to be done. that is the commanding officer's concern. what did the captain say - NOPE, right captain sazerac . thy will be done, period. will i re-lapse : no, i will not. that is impossible. why will you not re-lapse : because when i quit i meant it to be forever its hard holding onto a quit : i am not holding onto a quit, i just let go a habit the urge to re-lapse is strong : i will bribe myself and win my heart and soul over. (lol, i will do anything to retain this glorious freedom) what do you mean : that 650 twin chrome retro? she has spoke wheels? twin exhaust? stay smoke free for 3 months and we will pick it up. really, really!! you mean that ?? to hell with the smokey doodle - ill bury that dumbo twice in the grave. parallel twin, wow, really : yes, so behave and stay in line. that is awesome : stay smoke free and ill take you on that 6000 mile ride, our dream road-trip too. ill guard his grave with a shotgun, you relax : good, no worries but watch out. cappie says these idiots have a way of sneaking back and cappie seemed really worried when she stated that. aye-aye mate, ill carry some extra rounds too, just in case : roger charlie. have a safe watch, i am knocking off now. over and out mate, sleep tight and do not worry - king neptune watches over us : hell sailor boy - i bet this time even davy jones is also on our side, lol. when i began replying to this post all i wanted to say was sazerac - sure thing, i will watch out. how did i end up with what i have?. anyway - like always , do not take anything that does not make sense in my post seriously. this must be the funniest quit out here. most delusional and the weirdest one. but i made it and in these cases - it is the end that matters. the how is irrelevant. hey keyboard - if i type more than six words next post onwards auto delete the stuff please. i am tired of coming across as a emotional and out of control sentimental sailor. cannot proof read this, so bear with the typos. if i proof read it i will delete the entire post i know for sure, lol.

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thank you everybody. thank you johhny5. i read the post by boo and it is a soul slicer - shot through my heart. some folks here are writers i suspect, lol. gifted folks and wizards with words, inspiration and endless positive energy. i guess the journey comes to an end here - never thought it would be this soon. but it has and this thread has done its job. i have quit for good. i shall remain on the forum and maybe start some threads on some other topics or scream - help, help in other walks of life. as far as smoking is concerned - that chapter of my life is closed and buried. the epitaph is simple - NOPE, NOPE and NOPE. so, thank you all - this is a thread that changed my life in just a week.