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.day 010 update: no cough today. no more sore throat too. thanks sazerac the salt water gargle did help very much. also i had some honey mixed to some warm water twice in the day. kind of replaced my coffee with the same. was supposed to start the exercise routine today but put if off until tomorrow. reason - lazy by nature, lol. takes a kick to get me moving most of the time.

hey darcy - that is awesome !! . you are hereby given the title - fitness princess. the unfit staff on board the quit train will be all under your wing. Mr boo can be your partner in crime. your mission will be to turn the beer bellied scary monsters into possible human looking creatures. impossible i know - but you deserve these impossible targets as you are the best out here. so take good care. over and out, lol. a fit catty too, lol. junior: hey boss - what does she mean eagle? boss : dumbo - she meant eagles do not go for walks. junior: i know boss - eagles do not have legs. they have wings boss: see junior. since you work for me did you notice my smartness rubbing off on you !!!!!. junior: blushes red, pink, dark red, dark pink, etc etc etc

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hmmm , jillar - lair, lair, your pants are on fire, lol. ha ha he he hoo hoo. why do i call you a liar - that is because you said this - 'We only did/do what was done for us when we were newbies'. how do i know that this is a lie. ill whisper to you - so listen real carefully. even if you were wronged or had nobody helped you out too - initially when you were a newbie - you would still do all that you did for me. that is where you lie to me - that you helped me because someone helped you. you would help me no matter what - you know why?. because you like me and you know why you like me - it is because you are a likable person yourself you never turn good because or after good is/was done to you. you are good because that is all you are - a bundle of bunny goodness - like hmmmm this girl jillar - on this forum is, lol. you cannot hide your goodness behind these lies, sweet little lies. (what is fleetwood mac doing here?, lol). so folks - a big shout out to our supergirl jillar. clap, clap and clap. thank you so much

hi cbdave, no, you are not just the nope guy - to me you are the lighouse kid. why? - because you are standing taller than your quit and shining the light to drive away the darkness around others too. that is strength !. (background music in my head - this is sparta !, lol) only thing on which i disagree is the luck part. i will always need truckloads of it. i do not make my own luck. i was gifted luck. there is this gang of real touch cookie girls called the supergirl club. i approached them and they took over. you need luck - hey sazerac - pass on 4 truckloads of luck to this newbie. hey doreensfree - dump some 300 litres of non relapse lotion on this weakling. jillar - would you stick some quit strength sheets on the newbie.? angeleek - here, drink this potion and you will not feel the pangs . darcy - let me strap his night vision helmet so he can see the craves from afar and pull away etc. they were others behind the scenes too. what is attributed as luck is the sweat, endless effort, supernatural work put by non-supernatural hero's etc. i just had the right contacts, lol. i dont know why but the line of an old bon jovi number is ringing in my head now - ' they say a promise is forever if you sign it on the dotted line..' hmmm - yes, luck is not needed if you are lucky to have a group of superhero's around you . me and my endless time trips back to 80's. anyway. free forever and free without fear - that is true freedom. and freedom is wondrous and magical.

hey there - just imagining the stage at which you quit is scary. but what is heartwarming is that you stood up and despite the odds you never gave up, never gave in. but then - that is the reason you are my- GAD (for the few who do not know it means Guardian Angel Doreensfreee, now everybody knows). you are the best godmother my quit could have ever asked the maker for, so thank you my lady - for your mercy and your magic. boo is truly like sazerac - both are so full of radiating positive energy. you know i wish we could blast bangles - walk like an Egyptian and while you girls did the Egyptian walk boo and us old boys could do the farmer walk, lol. that would be awesome. i cant stop help giggling. all this - did i mention - at a picnic , by the lake. truly gorgeous.

lol, thank you johnny5, each time i see your profile picture it kind of makes me feel like a battery on charge. lol. the grit , determination and focus on the face is so infectious. yes, 30 years of slavery is scary. yes - i must stop making fun of the smoky doodle. the enemy is strong, cunning and ruthless i realize. NOPE is carved so strongly on my soul though that i would have to be soul-less to re-lapse now. but a human cannot live without a soul. equation 1 + equation 2 = equation 3 etc etc. summary of the thesis is this - 1. if you are a smoker - you can become a non-smoker 2. if you are a non-smoker - you can remain a non-smoker 3. if you are a non smoker - why the hell would you want to change that - dumbo. i just swore no stupid posts and 10 seconds later i type this. this is crazy, lol

i am really sorry sazerac. i sometimes forget that i am not the only chicken here. you have so many of us here that you take such good care of.. you know i picture the beautiful you taking care of so many ugly us - es. and that is the truth. we only came to you because we were tainted and hoped you would cleanse the grime and dirt off and from within us. i do realize now - there is a method to cure the diseased and that must be followed. i stand corrected. you are the reason i am - intact and standing tall. as long as your halo reflects onto me - there can never be any fear. and that only means that i have nothing to fear ever . for forever and a day. my quit was nurtured and nourished by some of the best super-girls and they bought him up so well that i call him - the hulk now. and hulk is the strongest man in the world, no - in the universe. god, i must stop being a clown and learn to post like a normal sane man does !!!!! that seems impossible !!!

well and truly said. thanks to you i have the stage 2 plan of action (stage 1 was - just to quit) ready for implementation too. in a day or two it shall get underway accordingly. i loved your concept of heal by de-fault and heal by intent. really beautiful. your idea - quit and exercise. you have me all pumped up with your great liberation concept really. hats off to a great guy. it is an honor - sir, to have made your acquaintance i swear that truly in all my humility. thank you so much for everything.

thank you - the quit is long dead and buried and no - resurrection is a lie. so it is an impossible scenario now. not realistically possible. it would have been possible prior 24 hrs into my quit - once that passed - it became impossible. your quit is done,dusted and buried too - so hello, non-smoker. glad to have you on the quit-train. if you do not believe me - stare into the mirror - a non-smoker will stare back at you. magic, right. funny what a little dose of self-belief and truck loads of stubbornness can do.

true - NOPE is NOPE. ever = forever and a day. i do not detest the old me who 'enjoyed' the addiction but i have no intention of walking down that road - ever. ok, i must stop mentioning the fact that i do not feel the craves - i am coming across as cocky as i infer now. so hereon there will not be any mention of craves. another quit - no, never. if i cannot do it now i will not ever, never. this is my only chance and if i fail i am done forever. i am very extreme in my life, always have been. i know myself well and my weakness is extreme too - if i do fail this quit and if i ever walk the other way i will never look back on the idea of a second quit - ever. that is just me - i give it my all and if that is not enough i just never try that again - ever. there are no second chances at sea - nor in my mind. but i also know that i will never sail down the river again. i am nearly at the mouth of the river where the river merges with the mighty and majestic ocean. i may be wrong but freedom from addiction is a bigger addiction as compared to slavery to the smokey doodle. as a feel good factor to my smoke free self i am posting a smallbut wondrous memory - this is how beautiful a sunrise looks like somewhere in the lap of the south atlantic ocean.

thanks jillar, no - it is not that bad really. just a light-ish cough that has nearly subsided now. (lasted for a few hours) the throat does still feel a bit sore but not too bad. i feel kind of scratchy-scratchy in the throat on the inside, lol. like it makes me want to cough but want to giggle too. weird feeling really. a light and soft hint of throat pain but no real discomfort as such. some warm water and honey should take care of that.- will sip on the same after i type this post. if anyone told me that could quit an hour before i actually did i would be like - impossible. must stay away from this psycho. he or she is mad and has lost his/her mind. talking pure nonsense, lol. i was the chimney, chain smoker, steam engine - whatever - i was the lowest form of smoker there normally is. you know the type who falls off a bike and the leg is bleeding but i reach out for a stick. lol, gloriously pathetic in my servitude to my addiction. in fact the last day before i accidentally quit i had some 25 sticks at least i suspect. i had no intention of quitting ever. then - out of the blue i just decided at 1745 hrs to quit and boom - at 1800 hrs i turned into a non-smoker. haphazard i know but i have no complains, lol

wow, so near 10 days up. i just came back here to post a quick update. today i experienced light bouts of cough and this lasted for quite a while. (few hours i reckon) my throat feels kind of really sorey sorey today. craves - none that i can recall (am i a freak? i am supposed to feel the craves - right?) just thought i should log this down. - - .

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what i love is your positive attitude overflowing in your persona and your posts. i could not help notice that you mention reward etc which is very healthy and so powerful in tuning your brain. you have beaten smoky doodle to a pulp mercilessly, lol. for the wondrous strength you dish out with every post - thank you like always.

hi irene, i am on some 1 week of quit now and so not too qualified to offer you any tried and tested advice but i used the lock-down to quit for good.and i am glad you quit too. i can only share some emotional things that helped me. 1. you have been smoke free for 48 hrs and more. an old jungle saying goes thus - if you can survive and be alive 24 hrs after you had the last dose of poison - then you are free. i could never go beyond 24 hrs and the first time i did, viola - the magic happened. the illusionist in you is on the stage now. you have begun unfolding the magical act already. enjoy the quit - think contra and turn every inch of discomfort into a funny game. eg - this quit is giving me splitting headaches. smile and say aloud - well smokey doodle- this headache is nothing as compared to the ones i have been through with my bf, lol. the smoky doodle will be stunned and shocked and find no reply. act 1 - you confronted the hyena. act 2 - you stood up for yourself. act 3 - ongoing but soon coming to an end (the hyena is running scared and packing - be patient and let him pack up before he disappears - which he soon will) so 66% is already done. you are just waiting for the last 33% and its over. easy - was it not, lol. all three acts put together = magic complete and the quit is for forever. 2. if bitten by a snake do we go back the next day and whisper - snaky snaky baby - when are you going to bite me today - again?. see, that is so funny and it is laughable. but reflect on our behavior and how many times we did it with the snaky smoke viper?. we put the snake in our mouth and that makes it dangerously foolish along-with downright crazy. so now it is - snaky baby, mommy is going to knock you out cold if you as much as dare stick out your tongue ever again. scare that smoky snaky cartoon. 3. change the 'want' to quit to a 'need' to quit. that is the key - you do not 'want' to quit. you 'need' to quit. once you wire that instruction to your brain - the game is over. the quit is done and dusted. (a want is a desire and a need is a necessity. - our brains tend to focus on needs and put the list of wants on the back-burner). 4. who is a non-smoker?. somebody who does not smoke anymore. you are a non-smoker - period. it does not matter if you are a minute old or a decade old. you can print that calling card and flaunt it. if you are a non smoker then you cannot smoke. how sad - you have no option when the craves beg you to. i would surely smoke - my baby, but i am an ex-smoker now - lol. say this loud when bored or chased by the hyena - i quit, i an a non-smoker (use the tone of - i am bond, james bond). lol. let loose - go crazy. make every inch of pain a game and enjoy that. craving - look forward to beating them. call out to them - cravy cravy baby - mommy is calling you - (tune to be akin to modern taking's cheri cheri lady - google if not born before 1980, lol) when it shows up - slap it in the face. do that twice and the crave will never re-appear,lol. 5. the happier you are in a quit - the easier and painless it will be. when you feel a crave - eat an ice cream. the crave will drown in the cold snow avalanche. picture the smoky doodle getting buried beneath the boulders of ice cream and have a hearty laugh. the little naughty beast understands just one thing. who is the alpha?. what he does not know is that there is a new alpha in the jungle now. so confront the old alpha and show him who is boss. scare just one crave and you will see that you do not need to bother about the rest. they will succumb on their own. you have one bigger strength over me - you are a woman. women are always mentally stronger than men so there - it is an unfair fight. you are in the ring with a weakling. my bet - a first round knockout. before the week is out you will be posting that you will never relapse - my fat purse is on that. and i am going to keep an eye on you. so laugh and make us all laugh. let us have fun in your quit like we did in mine i am sure. serious quits are boring anyways. go on girl - ready, steady and go.....

true GAD, btw my beardy is a yeardy now (year long beard) - lol

that is not just effective but smart too boo. one - you stop or limit the damage on one end and begin the healing on the other. do you know why you turned superman in my eyes - you knocked the smokey doodle silly and cold with a dumbell, lol. nothing can beat that. and i hope you will continue to inspire - newbie's like me

wow boo - you are an inspiration.

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11 hi GAD (guardian Angel Dorleensfree, lol - take care)

wow, thank you for sharing. sometimes i feel like an alien in the present times. life was so soulful back then. lol, i hope this must be in a collectors box now although knowing how naughty siblings can be i suspect i know where it ended up in all probability.

wow, i am on fire. i had a very bad day and a good handsome day of loss after quite a while (i am a day trader / stock trader - i thought i had mentioned that but i am not sure) . that is when i noticed a light, almost something that did not feel physical but more of a mental kind of zephyr. soft, very soft, very gentle - the kind that makes you wonder if it did really happen. i do not know but it is always best to consider the worst case scenario. so i pulled up my dark attire and unsheathed my sword. body and mind: hello master dark prince (that me folks,lol) : why do i smell signs of a rebellion down here? body and mind : not me, maybe this guy (both point at each other) lol. (akin to crooks that turn rats in a ziffy, lol) dark prince : listen good - both you kiddos. i had a bad day and i am not thinking straight right now. you know what that means - that means you must be on your best behavior and make yourselves invisible to me. go on and play inside and i repeat, do not even get any ideas. i will kick each one of you in front of the other. alright - is that clear. soul to dark prince: hey prince, let them go. they have not been up to anything i swear. dark prince: ok, you two rats. stop shivering now. and disappear now. and the two scoot away as the prince walks back out of the dungeon. soul to dark prince: i swear - you jumped the gun, they did nothing. dark prince : its ok, i just acted out of instinct then maybe. better safe than sorry. i have nightmares of the plague and i do not want the darkness to ever come close ever again. soul to dark prince: come on - its over. stop being so hard on them. i know them well. they are truly on our side now. dark prince: must work on my strategy for tomorrow now. take care. soul to dark prince: i will. thank you for saving me, for saving and healing us all. i have been meaning to tell you this for sometime now. i do not track how many days it has been. i just have to knock off every potential trigger situation one by one. by these standards - today i have managed to slay a big big dragon. i stare in the mirror and see traces of a short beardy zzt top (https://www.zztop.com/). (some would know of this band - signature long beards, lol). some 2 years back one day i just decide to stop shaving and i am still letting it grow wild. managed to sleep like a baby and just woke up. nothing and nobody has the power to hurt me, make me sad and put me down anymore but myself. and i am getting used to falling in love with myself. just the way that mommy nature meant her children to be - full of love