helmethermit

as much as i love hanging out here i just need some time off as the way my mind works is weird. i need to go offgrid in a sense and heal. i will be completely off every gadget - net, phone, mobile etc for quite a while. just lie in mommy nature's lap and bask in her glow. i will be back when i am stronger and enjoyed endless huggies from mama teddy. but for now the bull (im taurus - lol) needs to head down the tall grass to hide away and spent some alone time. take care everybody and thank god that the forum is free from the strange bull for a while at least.

-3 hi GAD !! good morning crew ! (god ! why the hell are we still underwater - where is that bottle of rum ????) landlubbers !! they can be so nasty - come on sea dogs - unfurl every sail out there and you - quartermaster - wheel amidship - steady as she goes...lol

-3 Hi tammy - thank you for taking the time the reply. i tried, lol. now it is back to war - lol. have great day !!

what ?? - 12 weeks ????????? WOW !!! keep inspiring us - so happy for you !!!!

-1 a very good morning GAD

ONE MONTH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Congrats and keep inspiring us !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

random log book update: observation 1: just a slight cough after i wake up and this clears up soon in less than an hour. observation 2 : the thirsty feeling of a dry throat,mouth etc is back to normal. lasted some 2 weeks. observation 3: overeating and hunger pangs. a foodie by default - i like to keep chewing all day - so not an quit aftermath observation 4: just no craves that register and so that means things - SUC (situation under control) - lol. observation 5: SMELL !!! - at this rate i could replace those sniffer dogs soon, lol. observation 6: self - worth. i have a new found respect for the fighter i am. that is so precious observation 7: FOUR (fear of unconscious re-lapse). during lockdown - no fear. post lockdown - may have to watch out for this moderate probability scenario for a few days. since this is more of ingrained habit and spontaneous reflex action. correction will be clean out the jeep and car of all nicotine ammunition. observation 8: the mind has begun to give me ideas to protect my quit like i prepared a list of friends and work related folks i usually interact with in person. they are classified as follows - green (non smokers), yellow (occasional smokers or someone who will be happy i quit or those who do not force me to smoke) red (any smoker who smokes more than ten sticks a day / anyone who i feel will force me to smoke / anyone i feel who emits negative vibes) observation 9: shunning negativity has helped (since 4th day of quit i implemented a lock-down with negative outlook, negative vibes or folks that undermine my self esteem - that lock-down for now is still in progress indefinitely. i have fed this list onto my mobile and disconnected my landline) - red and yellow as above earlier cannot call or reach me on the phone until further notice. observation 10: embracing positiveness has helped. similar to shunning the red and yellow list i scroll through the green list to call at least one person a day who had asked me to quit at any point of time in my life and disclose my quit to them. there are very few but the joy in their - ' really, say that again my man - you quit , i am so happy' . do it once and you will realize how much strength it fills you up with. summary of first leg of voyage: seas - has been smooth sailing currents: have been in favor final analysis: 1. i admitted i was an addict and needed help by googling and landing up here. 2. i ''needed'' to quit. it was so much more than a want 3. i yelled for help and swallowed my ego 4. i followed the instructions of folks who had navigated safely out of these reefs to the oceans and were so eager to help me out 5. i just broke out the rear view mirrors and cast them to davy jones - i did not want a glimpse or glance of the bygones, lol 6. the quit was like a child that the forum family raised for me. i was like the mom who just had to recuperate well for a while. final remarks: 1. you need to ''need'' to quit 2. join and sign up to quittrain.com 3. yell for help - father, mother save son, lol !!! 4. pick a godmother for your quit from so many wondrous choices out her 5. sit back and enjoy the magic as you are healed. three weeks later you would post something that renders this post obsolete. would that not be something , lol a grateful sweet puppy doggy (with that power to smell - i cannot feel anything but - lol !!) end of log entry. signed - hh

-4 hi tammy, just read your signature. stunningly beautiful !!!. are you a full time or a part time magician?. i mean i presumed rightly if i may admit so in all my humility that - you are a gifted writer. soulful stuff really and i am mesmerized. BUT!!!!!!!!! that still gives you no right to gang up with these bad girls and beat the boys!!!!! lol !!! come over to our side - its more fun, these girls are boring, lol !!!!!.

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-2 GAD- you are sleepy sleepy, go to sleepy sleepy kingdom, you are going, you are gone, lol

-3 lol, HI GAD - u girls are ruthless. keeping us underwater - lol.

“Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It's a very mean and nasty place and I don't care how tough you are it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't about how hard ya hit. It's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done!” ― Sylvester Stallone, Rocky Balboa

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lol, no worries - i presumed something and it turned out wrong .i've been there a million times before but i an not presuming wrong this time i know - when i presume that i found a good soul in you - a friend in the making for now perhaps. that i am sure of. have a wondrous day, a magical weekend and press repeat on monday. put life on that autopilot setting - take care

yes, hooray !! for i finally figured out why i always had that cozy and feeling of warmth in your soothing presence. i was playing a song by one my worship bands and i realized . holly molly ! - mama mia - angeleek ! one of the bands on my endless list of worship bleeders is angellore (do not google them please, lol- deep dark angels - there, i warned you !) you reminded me of them when i first met you on the forum - now they remind me of you. thank you for everything angeleek - even saying your name feels like a cute and cheerful magical spell !. Je suis un grand fan - angellore and angeleek. lol.

hello Jordan7, we were big on exporting sulpher from al aquaba,. i just assumed you are from that part courtesy your username. true - either i flipped or either i blew up my fuse. whatever - i am happy. if i was asked to write down the last confirmed crave it is turning distant a distant memory . i felt the last 'real' crave some 4 months before i quit smoking, lol. i was helping out wifey in the kitchen (she is the CEO of our home center inc - president of the board of directors, in fact she is the only director and the only dictator on the board, lol). i accidentally cut my finger bad whilst chopping onions . i will never forget that gloriously shameful torture i endured willingly and how the pathetic crave was so cruel in its depravity. that day i saw how a crave could humiliate somebody who was in love despite the obvious shortcomings of his lover. lol. did i feel a true crave after the quit - no which was the toughest day of my quit? - day 1 and 2 i think. - as my mind needed to be convinced i could quit. i am reminded on an old advertisement for an suv - it helped my quit. if you look back on your life, what would you remember?. ......what would you remember ?? .., re-claim your life !!!!... (stunning New Zealand landscapes) - pure SOUL BLEEDER !!

hello darcy, first let me admit that i love how gently and so beautifully you post. it gladdens the reader and that is something very few of us can lay claim to. so thank you for the posts - no - not just this one. i think a quit is more mental than physical. i just used my strongest flaws to quit. turned them into my strengths i am stubborn as hell - extreme as hell - just bribed these two to get on my side, lol i need to quit - not want to quit : that sums it all up. i am so happy that you liked the pic, that is so awesome to hear . i am not hulk - lol, wish i were - lol. take care and thank you so much for all that inspiration and joy you spread. you are so sacred to all of us out here .

oh my god - it is my GAD !! the cough is not regular or persistent. like today i woke up and felt a slight cough. once the poison was coughed out i felt normal and the coughing disappeared. lasted about an hour on the higher side - a bit less than an hour actually. yes - what you say is true .hats off lady - for the way you fought back -and for being my superhero take good care of yourself

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Chevrolet - Named for Frenchman Louis Chevrolet, a race car driver who raced in the first Indy 500 for W.C. Durant, founder of General Motors. Durant founded the Chevrolet Motor Car Company to build Chevrolet's dream car. Durant eventually merged the company back with GM where it became its biggest brand. BMW - Acronym for the German name "Bayersiche Motoren Werke" (Bavarian Motor Works). Generic industrial name. Alfa Romeo - An Acronym for Anonima Lombarda Fabbrica Automobili. When the company went into bankruptcy it was bought by Nicola Romeo in 1915, the source of the second name. Jeep - Not really known, but it's widely believed to be a mispronunciation of GP, which is an acronym for General Purpose [vehicle] Maybach - Former car line by Mercedes-Benz. Named after chief engineer Wilhelm Maybach in the 1890's. Maybach became CEO when Daimler died SsangYong - Ssangyong means "twin dragons" - hence the double "s" at the start of the name. It refers to a legend in which two dragons waited 1000 years to fly to dragon heaven. Finally, a single cintamani (In Hindu and Buddhist mythology, it is a magical jewel that is believed to possess the power to grant every wish, hence an epithet of God - or in the case of Buddhism, an attribute of the Buddhas and bodhisattvas, hence a symbol of a mind that has attained its proper desire), which was necessary for the journey was released. Each dragon encouraged the other to take it and make the trip until both missed the opportunity. The king of heaven was so touched that he released a second cintamani and thus the two dragons entered heaven together. Mercedes-Benz - Mercedes was a pseudonym (named after his daughter) under which Emil Jellinek used to race Damlier cars. Jellinek became so successful in racing his "Mercedes" cars and in selling them to European aristocrats, that eventually he convinced the company to change the company name to Daimler-Mercedes. During the economic recession that followed WWI, Damlier and their competitor Benz & Cie formed a syndicate in order to jointly streamline their backroom, design and production operations. 2 years later the companies merged. The resulting company used the compound name Damlier-Benz, and their products were renamed Mercedes-Benz. "Mitsubishi" is a Japanese term meaning "three diamonds" Volkswagen cars are named after different kinds of winds. For example: > Golf: Gulf stream > Bora: Bora wind > Polo: Polar wind > Jetta: Jet stream > Passat: German word for trade wind ======= Toyota Toyota (Called 'Toyoda' in Japanese, it's named after the founder's surname: Kiichiro Toyoda). Their initial trend was to keep 'Crown' as the name of luxury car models. Example: > Toyota 'Crown' > Toyota 'Corona' (A latin word for crown) > Toyota 'Corolla' (Means small crown in latin) > Toyota 'Camry' (Phonetic translation for 'Kanmuri' in Japanese) Lamborghini Renowned sportscar maker, Lamborghini model's names are associated to famous fighting bulls and bull fighting terms: > Lamborghini 'Diablo' (Name of a famous bull) > Lamborghini 'Reventón' (Name of a famous bull) > Lamborghini 'Murciélago' (Name of a famous bull) > Lamborghini 'Miura' (Name of a fighting bull breed) > Lamborghini 'Gallardo' (Name of a fighting bull breed) > Lamborghini 'Estoque' (Name of a bull fighting sword) > Lamborghini 'Islero' (Named after a bull from 'Miura' breed) > Lamborghini 'Espada' (Spanish name of a bull fighting sword) > Lamborghini 'Jarama' (Name of an area famous for bull fighting) Though Lamborghini 'Countach' is exception. It's a word for astonishment in Piedmontese language. Mercedes Benz The ‘Benz’ in Mercedes Benz is a surname of company’s founder, Karl. While ‘Mercedes’ is a sub-brand of their holding company, Daimler. Naming trend of their car series is as mentioned below: > ‘SL’ Class (Sport Leicht – Means Sport Light) > ‘E’ Class (Einspritzung – Means fuel injection) > ‘CL’ Class (Comforf Leicht – Means Comfort Light) > ‘SLK’ Class: (Sporlich, Leicht und Kurz – Means Sporty, Light & Short) The digits added as a suffix to the classes denotes engine cubic capacity. Eg: SLK 350 has 3,500CC Engine. =================== Suzuki Motor Co (Parent of Maruti Suzuki) was founded by Michio Suzuki in 1909. In 1954 the name was changed from Suzuki Loom Works to Suzuki Motor Co., Ltd. By the way Maruti is is a Sanskrit word referring to Hanuman, son of Marut, the Hindu Wind God Vayu. Hence the name was chosen for an automobile co. ================ Yamaha means "mountain leaf". Honda — from the family name of its founder, Soichiro Honda (Honda is a common name, with “Hon” meaning root or base, and “da is rice field). Nissan — the company was earlier known by the name Nippon Sangyo which means “Japanese industry”. __________________ ha ha.... if u read so far... u r a networm... get out, ride or drive, whatever keeps u alive..

thank you reciprocity, that is true, each second we remain poison free we grow stronger.

thank you bat your profile pic is the cutest micro-mini superhero. made me smile.

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hello and a big thumbs up - you have now officially jumped over the fence into the non-smoker village - welcome !! think positive - reward yourself do not replace anything. you fell out of love with smoking for a reason - simple and rightly so. you do not replace evil - you just walk away from it. find a healthy habit - keep every conscious and sub conscious thought positive. i will eat healthy and have loads of fun. you are lucky that you are slim (i am almost lucky too i am not fat. i just chubby you know - so do not isuspect or assume that i am fat i mean i am not TTTTHHHHHATTTT fat, some say i am borderline, my mirrror is old you know god - make me thin again i am not crying crying - sob sob sob) lol you cannot replace an addiction. you can only start a new one. But you have the power to stop an addiction. i am proud of you for having done that. hello - i had ordered 2 burgers with extra fries and large cokes , 2 extra large pizzas with extra cheese and blah blah blah , 2 ice creams with blah blah bah, 2 milk shakes with blah blah blah, 2 jumbo cakes , blah blah blah - lol. no my dear - i just won a lottery last week playing Russian roulette. yeah my man - yes - i won my life back !!! thanks - yes - throw in some tacos too my man and some noodles and blah blah blah. lol - enjoy - never heard anyone die from over eating. GEEEEE - but then i would not know. i mean the world would know from my tragedy if that happened - NOOOOOO!!!!!! just me being silly - cheer up. remember - the more you laugh - the easier your quit. keep us posted. keep yourself proud and standing tall.