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Hello Folks, It's been awhile since I stopped by. I am feeling wacky and grateful these days. I had a serious lapse of reason last month sometime. Bought a pack of cigarettes and smoked one. One of those wildly effed up moments when it makes sense to just make things worse. Turns out I don't smoke. It was awful and I smoked less than half the cigarette. Gratefully, my husband had already tossed the pack. Have not thought much about it since. Wondering if I will hold on to my freedom in the future. Building a solid quit takes commitment to nope. Maybe I am not always committed. Haven't changed my ticker.... maybe I will. At any rate... pretty sure I discovered I don't smoke. Have no desire to at the moment. Hoping you all are finding your way in freedom and having much laughter and love in your lives.

You are amazing.

Glad you have 6 years free! Here's to a lifetime of Freedom Thanks for all you give Johnny 5. Your contributions help many QT riders! Bravo!

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Hello Shezi! Welcome aboard. Ever so glad you have six plus weeks off cigarettes! That is an amazing accomplishment. You spent 30 YEARS in active addiction. Referring to the above statement.... I am a bit over 6 months smoke free after 37 years of slavery and hardly ever think about it anymore. You are making a massive change. It may feel like you miss it, yet I am certain the benefits of remaining smoke free FAR exceed whatever you perceive you are missing. You got this, even when it feels wobbly. The train is a wonderful place for support, laughter and community. So glad you found your seat. Use the boards.

Hello Quit Train Riders, Just a momentary pause to say I am still on the train. Over 6 months, $2K dollars and 3k cigarettes away from slavery. Sailing through the highs and lows with very few thoughts of smoking at all. Had a momentary major desire for a smoke earlier today and just looked at it and wondered, what the heck is this? Oral surgery went....safely. Am deeply grateful for: acres and acres to roam in glorious autumn opportunities to work the gift of health - for myself and so many I hold dear, and you dear reader! relationships that nourish my heart, soul, mind and body skills and habits that co create harmony and laughter filled beings and environments the beautiful wedding to my marvelous man my delightful cats and their happy days and nights fit, flexible fully functioning body because I do and contribute easily in comfort and grace knowing things change....and I will smile and be light of heart again hope your day is easy and laughter filled.

Beautiful accomplishment Sunshine.

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thanks Mona. that is funny .... Will need to ponder the possibilities.

Glad to read your entry. ...your energy and manner of showing up sing to my heart, thanks for sharing.

Hello jpassmore. Welcome to Quit Train. I look forward to sharing your success. I, too, tried cutting down. I went from a pack a day to half a pack and NRT for too long to recall. I DO NOT recommend this. I am now 5 months plus into my FREEDOM from nicotine and really have to laugh because all that rigamaroll in my head (smoking and patches, too hard to just quit, I have failed before, yada yada yada) was just more junkie lies and thinking form the addict brain. Seriously, I am wildly glad that you have found this site and are beginning your journey to FREEDOM. Grab a seat. The ride can be great!

Hello Fabulous QT Riders, Just bopping by to say how awesome smoke free life is. I rarely think about smoking. Would not have imagined that was possible 5 months and 23 days ago. AMAZED at how quickly life rolls on without what I once considered REQUIRED. I can barely recall what it was like to arrange my day around the cigarettes. I now sleep later and wake up with zero sense of urgency to feed the addiction. WOOO HOOO! I have been increasing my activity levels ... walking daily with my cat, practicing yoga/qi gong, biking uphill! May have added some weight. I do not have a scale , so not sure. Getting a handle on using food to manage emotion...yay! Placing awareness and intention on healthy habits.....and being deeply grateful for all the blessings, gifts, wonders and delights life offers! If you are reading this....thanks for being here adding to the collective healing....reading, writing, lurking.....it all works to getting us FREE! Anyone have suggestions for wedding bride entry music? absolutely non traditional.....maybe instrumental....funny would good. Can not be mnamna because one of my best friends already did that! featured photo is a baby muskrat

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hoping to stick to the boards for the next few days. having oral surgery mid day tomorrow. losing chewing surfaces on one side and do not know how/when I will be able to replace ...or even if possible. deeply regretful about some of my life choices and having a hard time being in acceptance around the consequences of my choices. getting married in a monthish. never thought I would and it's kind of weirding me out. RoLlERcOaStErInG....VERY high or VERY low.....very much going for even keeled. lol. breathe ... and again. HUGE old behavioral push to go get cigarettes and caffine filled soda to work through some items that need doing. What a maroon! grateful that..... I get to and have been spending time with people I care deeply about lake is there for humidity break....instant attitude adjustment (if only I go do it....) my marvelous man loves me and wants to be with me even at my worst I learn I am able and wiling to do things differently I have the gift of helth people I hold dear have the gift of health my survival needs are fully met my thrivival needs are manily met I am FREE from nicotine slavery

Well,... seat still warm on the train, yet I seem headed toward the exit sign at this station. Lonely amidst a group that love me ~ a familiar feeling. A lifetime ...well 37 years, of poor or rudimentary skills at dealing with discord and BIG feelings have left me adrift over the last few days. Not surprised...no one waves a magic wand , or puts out the smoke, and magically fills the 'space' with graceful replacements....or maybe they do and it is just me. anyway not much of light and hope to say.... still here...hurray!.

Yes...keeping the quit is what I want want. Sometimes I get so angry, hurt or sad I choose...I choose to hurt myself instead of hurling hurtfulness toward people I care about. Smoking was that choice for so long, I do not know how to navigate this space with out them. I am stuck on stupid right now.. Tired and hoping sleep comes quickly and a reset of perspective is there in the morning. thanks to Sazerac and jillar...grateful to know you are walking with me through this.

Hello Fabulous QT People, I am having a really rough go. Plan to go read the pre respond thread after posting this , then maybe update my blog. I realize nothing gets better when I pick up....don't seem to care. Already went to the store to get smokes and did not get them. Planning to get them tomorrow on grocery run. Do not want my house guests to feel responsible in anyway for my choices. They are smokers and addicts (speaking of myself here) are addicts no assistance required. lol...sigh and cry. Planning to hide them from the folks here for awhile. ha ha ah...stink much? Can already feel the headache that will happen once I pick up. I am so angry and sad and tooo hot. things may be better in the morning....and I need to get to the morning.

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Just stopped by to learn, connect and share a bit. Best of everything to Boo. May your adventures bring many belly laughs and your love overflow and change the world! Quick acknowledgment of the gratitude for my non smoking life..... LOVING every minute of not arranging life around smoking grandkids coming to stay for a month...won't even have to THINK about what I am role modeling by smoking because I DON'T SMOKE!!! much laughter aloud at that truism....YAY my marvelous man is deeply grateful I am Free! I do not give a single thought to how I might smell when in public (although I am not often in public) I am wheeze free in breathing I choose where to sit and what to do not caring if people an see me or I am polluting their space...because I do not smoke I am more active and sometimes have more energy conscious and aware of cultivating true health and healing....step are taken...2 forward, 1 back and loop around the floor Quit Train and the dedicated people here .... THANK YOU for your giving and continuity....makes a world of change possible my life is truly being lived beyond my wildest dreams in many arenas... thank you, thank you, thank you... I have people coming to stay that are smokers. I've got this. I AM FREE!!

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Wow, Jillar... hats off to your accomplishment. Freedom for you no matter the situation. Wise bunny woman and incredible support and advocate for Freedom.. four bunnies, one for each year.

Wonderful you, 4 YEARS of fabulous FREEDOM.