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Woo Hoo! thanks Jordan. I just completed day 1: Squats - 15 (forgot how many I was supposed to do, so yay for more!) Plank 15 seconds (wobbly , but still plankish) Seriously do not think I could've done the plank at all two weeks ago. Yay for FREEDOM!!!

Faking my way through the NOPE pledge this morning. Not even 5:30 a.m. and I am just winding down from tilt mode.....CRAVING firmly attached to tilt mode. staring at screen feeling heart race and listening to head race looking for good excuse, ha ha ha ANY excuse is the good one when you choose to pick up. NOPE NOPE NOPE going to eat.. then ... Most of the day later.... Glad things calmed down in my head. Glad I have plenty of things to do. Still getting bigger cravings than I had the first week. Likely because I was not doing the things I normally do the first week and now I am more back to a routine (of sorts). Really doesn't matter why the craves come. Only thing that matters is that I utilize all I have to NOPE on through. Many continued thanks to Quit Train and the fabulous people on the train. Was loading things in the car and glimpsed a pack of cigarettes I had lost about a month ago under the seat. Grateful my guy was there for support - he whisked them away. Got a seriously great laugh from my junkie thinking. When I saw the pack my first gut responses were to grab the pack and slip it into my pocket , while I was already mentally lighting up after finishing loading the vehicle. I mean really.... was my addict self trying to hide the cigarettes from myself? from my guy? just what was the idea there? anyway, a non issue because I just asked, " would you please get rid of the pack under the seat....I am having trouble looking at them". And away they went. Hoping I build a much sturdier quit, won't have helpful people around at every opportunity. Just NOPE. nope. nope. It has been suggested to utilize rewards for making through each crave. I snowballed the craves since I quit, looked at my ticker to see what I would've spent killing myself one breath at time, and mentally readjusted my recent extra delightful sheet purchase to be my reward. Not sure rewards will work well for me....but hey, try it and see!

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walked a leisurely mile with cat and my marvelous man Unlike Boo, I do better with a buddy, even if we don't talk! Anyone want to do a 14 or 21 day plank or squat challenge with me? I need to do the beginner versions....

Grateful for the choice to quit smoking and the ease (99% of the time) of the transition. In the past (many attempts over many years) this has not been my experience. Only one wildly out of control craving and I am still here....free. I am having trouble sleeping and the last few days more cravings than I have had. Circumstances of the world likely influencing my sleep. Hadn't been off property in over a week until today. Went out to just ride around and see what the pulse of the nearest towns felt like. strange times.... I worry deeply about older (any age really) folks who aren't tech savvy (or who don't have the tech) and how they can remain connected vs. watching TV and listening to radio Really concerned about my own mom. She's a high risk person and just indicated to me that she wants to accept a position at her local grocery store working the phones. I understand wanting to give back. I understand doing something feels good mentally, ethically and physically. I want my mom to follow her heart. I want my mom, when her time comes, to pass peacefully. The current statistics for that don't look good. I do not smoke.. NOPE I do not smoke. Grateful for staying in close touch with many people I normally speak to infrequently. Grateful for humour and kindness and having a safe secure place to live. Feel a pressing need and desire for information with no way to find it where I'd trust the source.... what are all the tanks doing in CA and near TX? is there and , if so, what is the large fire near Wu Han? why does it seem the U.S. is slow on the uptake here,... intentional? Why? what happens to the folks currently using their retirement funds to live when they are " sinking like the Titanic"? I do not smoke. NOPE NOPE NOPE I do not smoke. Delighted to have my most marvelous man to share life with. My two cats. Starting my garden. All needs met and many wants, too. And I am FREE.

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Hello Mokajava, Welcome to the Quit Train. Freedom is wonderful. Glad you're here. Withdrawal is withdrawal is withdrawal.... it ends when the nicotine leaves your body. Then it's head and habit reteaching. Laugh at yourself as the junkie thinking tries to take you back AND do not smoke. You can do this. I believe in you. Read and reread the things on this site. Make sure you read some of the funny things too. Learn about addiction and recovery. Stay close and USE this board. I'm in my second week of freedom from nicotine. I smoked for over 35 years.

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Thanks to all for the reality doses. hope your day has brought many belly laughs and unexpected opportunities to shine.

Attempting something new...starting a journal type blog...or something ...lol Hello Everyone, Made it through yesterday with my seat on the train intact. Wasn't sure that was going to be the case for awhile. Was in an emotional upheaval and down on myself for not showing up for people how I would hope to if being a kind thoughtful person. I have a tendency toward self recrimination that is probably diagnosable somehow. I lean toward hurting myself harder, if I perceive (or know) I have hurt others. Awareness of the pattern is only helpful sometimes. Yesterday it was not. Solution - intentional, aware acts of love and kindness Still have the lingering 'I have already relapsed" in my head. I have not put anything in my mouth and lit it on fire.....and..... Klaxon bells sounding....faintly Oddly, I have something tangible to be grateful for around this covid-19 situation. Should I choose to buy cigarettes, I will be putting vulnerable people in my home in harms way. See above cycle of guilt and remorse and solution. This drama played out just before and during lunch. I reluctantly (junkie brain screaming and wheedling....still jumping up and down waving hands or giving my the sly sideways look of ' you already did it in your head - just run to the gas station before day break....very few people out right now......etc. me: typing and la la laing in my head) chose to go to work with my guy and read to him while he worked for the remainder of the day. When it started it wasn't even a craving. Just the guilt for how I had treated someone I love in this time of bizarre horror and fear. It morphed into a HUGE craving [as stressful situations were PREVIOUSLY (take that junkie) always navigated with killing myself one breath at time] and verbal emotional turmoil way beyond the reasonable response to the situation at hand. it was still hanging with me by the end of the day and I was wiped out. Still feeling wiped out. I am certain some of this has to do with circumstances of the world and am grateful I made it through (am I? - shut the f up junkie) with my seat. I did not post here because I am not savvy enough to utilize my phone to do it and chose to go with my guy. Yesterday Doreeen and Sazerac were encouraging me to protect my quit. Not sure how to do that when I choose to lose it like that. Any excuse will do... Wobbly, drained and smoke free...... Appreciation and relief for all those who posted a response to my original post of this in a thread....

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Hello Everyone, Made it through yesterday with my seat on the train intact. Wasn't sure that was going to be the case for awhile. Was in an emotional upheaval and down on myself for not showing up for people how I would hope to if being a kind thoughtful person. I have a tendency toward self recrimination that is probably diagnosable somehow. I lean toward hurting myself harder, if I perceive (or know) I have hurt others. Awareness of the pattern is only helpful sometimes. Yesterday it was not. Solution - intentional, aware acts of love and kindness Still have the lingering 'I have already relapsed" in my head. I have not put anything in my mouth and lit it on fire.....and..... Klaxon bells sounding....faintly Oddly, I have something tangible to be grateful for around this covid-19 situation. Should I choose to buy cigarettes, I will be putting vulnerable people in my home in harms way. See above cycle of guilt and remorse and solution. This drama played out just before and during lunch. I reluctantly (junkie brain screaming and wheedling....still jumping up and down waving hands or giving my the sly sideways look of ' you already did it in your head - just run to the gas station before day break....very few people out right now......etc. me: typing and la la laing in my head) chose to go to work with my guy and read to him while he worked for the remainder of the day. When it started it wasn't even a craving. Just the guilt for how I had treated someone I love in this time of bizarre horror and fear. It morphed into a HUGE craving [as stressful situations were PREVIOUSLY (take that junkie) always navigated with killing myself one breath at time] and verbal emotional turmoil way beyond the reasonable response to the situation at hand. it was still hanging with me by the end of the day and I was wiped out. Still feeling wiped out. I am certain some of this has to do with circumstances of the world and am grateful I made it through (am I? - shut the f up junkie) with my seat. I did not post here because I am not savvy enough to utilize my phone to do it and chose to go with my guy. Yesterday Doreeen and Sazerac were encouraging me to protect my quit. Not sure how to do that when I choose to lose it like that. Any excuse will do... Wobbly, drained and smoke free......

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Glad you are clacking along on the Freedom track. Are you noticing things like tastes & smells? Hoping you are feeling like the person in this image.

Thanks for asking Sazerac. Oddly the last few days have had more and stronger craves than the first week. Easily NOPEing through. Truly, I am concerned about my commitment. as in the past I have found an excuse to light up. And for now I am solid. Grateful. Protecting my quit.

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