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Wow! I really don't know how it's been 14 days already. Body inventory: no pain in lungs when breathing taste and smell things in HD - really enjoying the scent of woodlands in the rain ear and throat irritation - allergies, covid-19, healing - may never know for certain tired - not sleeping too well lately, and hey, who is? a bit more than a bit concerned that I am not doing the things that support a sturdy quit.... pre posting a current SOS for myself, refreshing my knowledge and understanding of addiction, etc not really acknowledging my quit... unless I'm off the hook about something and craving.... lack of appreciation and maintenance ... danger... warning Feeling great today. Haven't intentionally watched news in over 24 hours, pretty sure that has something to do with my spirits. did not get to have my island picnic last night.... I was too grumpy and tired by the time we returned to the house. My guy is on edge ... every cough, throat itch, etc is magnified for him right now. Deeply grateful we seem to be on opposite freak out/sadness schedules. Makes it easier, I think, to hold space for each other. Neither of us has had much contact with other people at all in the last 3 weeks. however people do come on site for work and servicing equipment. Our state, Minnesota, is not on "safer at home" strategy now, yet. oops, typed too soon...breaking radio news we will practice "safer at home" 3/27 - 4/11. does that change what I am already doing? no. carry on. grateful for .... quit train and the people and resources here being ambulatory and balanced (mostly...) relationships that nourish my heart, mind and soul 14 days of freedom from smoking...and the rest of my life walking in the woods in the spring rain nourishing thoughts, words, choices, intentions, actions, environments laughter, silliness learning to dance with my marvelous man...pretty sure we're not doing the box step correctly, and really don't care because I get to dance with the love of my life lifelong friends/family who know me well - and still love me! my senses because I experience some marvelous things with each of them....really appreciating birdsong right now just a random dancing bird image....not yet seen with my own peepers purposely chose a font size that shouted my gratitudes....apologies, if I hurt your eyes. ha ha

Hello Irene, Glad you're planning on getting on the train. I left 6ish years ago and only just made it back 14 days ago. REALLY hope to see you. Pretty sure it is safe to acknowledge all the emotions here... many are rolling around and you are not alone in them. Please don't shy away from the feelings you're having about smoking. .. once I relapsed, it was like Oh-well, I made my choices. I only posted here once after the relapse and it was very painful to read what folks had written me and I chose to walk away from....until I found my back. Remembering reading something that MQ shared ... statistically about the likelihood of people trying quit again once they had relapsed. it's not good. Grateful I'm on the train now. Can almost hear the nicotine junkie in your head ... have enough smokes to get to Friday, I'll quit then. The nicotine junkie is a liar. Irene...come sit by us on the train. holding us all in love and light in these weird scary times. it is the only way I can hold people right now, so I will.

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Hello helmethermit, Glad you are having a fairly easy beginning. May it continue! Being in the beginning stages of my own quit, I am grateful that my days have been mostly easy as well. I am wondering what my commitment to freedom may look like once I am out working, doing errands, and living life in a more familiar manner. I am not romancing the smokes. there may have been a time when I actually enjoyed smoking, but that ship sailed over a decade ago...kept doing it out of addiction and habit and coping and whatever else my junkie thinking wanted to use as an excuse. Smoking stinks and makes all your things stink, too. .... your desire to be closer to nature and the hope /belief that being smoke free will facilitate that connection....NURTURE that idea, play around with it while on lock down ... kind of in that vein...somewhere in week one, I had the delightful experience of being really connected to the sense of taste inherent in my body. Probably not the bigger nature connection you are referring to, still ...maybe a nudge toward the connection for purity and harmony?.... Glad you're here. Glad you're staying.

day 4: 20 sec palnk 15 squat - no rest, lol yesterday walked with the cat briefly.

N O P E ...

and this because...after being stir crazy ... it wears well

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Day 3 of challenge complete (barely): plank 20 sec squat 16 yay for 2 extra. how far and where do you walk? Also, glad you got to celebrate your bday, even if it was close to home. I am blessed to live on several acres of woodland on a lake. I've been doing about a mile a day with the cat. Working our way up to walking to the dock area.

just staying connected. I have been grumpy and whiny....in my own head and to myself. Yesterday was great. Did some exercise. NOPEd when I craved. Spoke with many people I care about. Today I am on an eating binge. second breakfast anyone? with a side of snacks. Already prepping and planning dinner. Didn't sleep well last night. Up planning my outing outfit. Not planning on going off property for the foreseeable future, but still getting some pleasure and laughs from planning my germ free outing wear. Kind of steampunk version ... may as well have some fun and really commit to the germ free experience. Grateful for so much: FREEDOM from smoking safe place to live hearing the voices of those I love.... laughter health - it keeps me thriving nourishing relationships, choices, environments seeds, soil and spring wealth and abundance flowing freely in all domains (physical, cognitive, spiritual, material, financial, emotional, and al the others) my marvelous man ... and our life together. thank you, thank you, thank you hope to be dancing in the streets soon.... I will seize the chance when it comes...

Be safe, BAT. I am preparing red beans and rice, Caribbean flavors pork dish and roasted butternut squash for dinner. Going to find some steel drum music and a view of the beach with waves rolling in to put on the TV and have a dinner living room - island picnic. Friggin celebrating my 13 day (?) smoke free life!!!

Welcome to the Quit Train! Find ways to keep outsmarting the whisper voice...it is addiction. Choose Freedom. Stay seated on the train and enjoy the happy byproduct of quitting by default. I concur, I believe you subconsciously wanted to quit. Not a chance in hell I would've seen a lock down coming and not stocked up. I actually did the opposite with intention. Saw it coming and said I'll quit. I too have had a relatively easy ride. Though the last few days more and more cravings as my mood saddens.... keep NOPEing my way along the track and keeping busy with new routines.

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Day 2 - of the challenge complete: plank: 15 sec squat: 16, so what if I'm off from the schedule yoga 30 minutes. will walk with cat later... thanks Jordan for riding the train car with me.... anyone else free to jump on... Yay Tinkerbell on your new regimen.

Today begins with ease and grace.

I have a wake up ritual in Freedom enjoy and languish in the slow wake up grab a coffee and NOPE reread RED Flags -- Sazerac, thanks you for all you do. Your writing is direct, often funny and filled with useful things.

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Congratulations Forestgreen! Flying Free!

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