darcy
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went to sleep last night feeling like I would get up today and go get cigarettes. woke with the same feeling. still on the train. almost late afternoon. playing the mind games outsmarting myself.... you know you smoke... yeah, but it's mom's birthday and she is so happy you quit. you can smoke tomorrow.... nope nope nope think again, get right with yourself, call an ally. post an sos Do it!!! sister's life derailing amidst the now normal pandemonium and I am not there to support her. though being in the smoker's zone would be suicide for me and my quit right now. still wish I could hold her and hug her and walk with her while her heart breaks and begins to heal. arrghhh... grateful for ... BEing FREE from nicotine slavery - extra heaping portion of gratitude for Quit Train & the conductors, riders and engineers relationships that are there ... through all the trials, abuses, healing, growth...loving in the ways we know, where we are learning and choices in/of love and light time spent with those dear to my heart ... and the memories of those times humor and lightness of heart healthcare professionals and their willingness to show up and do what needs doing....holding hands, pallitive care, BEing WITH people, and thinking outside the boxes to create something from nothing geese returning, sand hill cranes, too and the spring song of the cardinals ... found my copy of A Sand County Almanac by Aldo Leopold and renewed my joy of this treasure belief that things , people, and beliefs are changeable cognitive, physical and spiritual functioning ... at least I think they're functioning, I could be off on this my marvelous man... steady and true...all I could ever desire...thank you I hope I dance
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Wow hh, you just jump right in...vroom! Inspiration for me to do at least 3 reps of the exercises I am doing. lol
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grateful to be walking in the rain in the woods. no other human souls in a 100 acre radius. Be BOLD in keeping distance, more than suggested even. Stay safe.
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Hey Darcy, The things that change when you pick up and smoke are your commitment to dying a slow painful death and how you show up for all the important aspects of your life. Be clear. You likely do not have another quit. If you need to damage something…go break dishes. Your being/body/spirit is not for damaging. If you need comfort … go find Mani and lay down with him. Your being/body/spirit is for comforting. If you are scared … find Eric and hug him. Your being/body/spirit is for comforting If you are in between tasks … sit outside and breathe for 7 minutes. You are for thriving. If you are hurt or frustrated by cyclical patterns … call Annie, Marshall or Kristin. You are for being seen and heard. Recognize and CELEBRATE (know this is a challenge for you) that you are FREE… as long as you do not smoke. This is one of the ultimate achievements of your life. You have chosen to love you. It is okay. Please keep that choice. Whatever is happening that you are here reading this… will pass and nothing will get better by smoking. It will certainly get worse mentally and physically if you do smoke. If you are in a place of driving things to get worse…. just stop, please. Go play games on QT. Read. Eat. Sleep. Cry. find something to laugh about... The feelings will change, too. for my QT friends(?) both this pre response and the one I re-posted on march 15 are ... from my heart . Thanks in advance for helping me if I need it.
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ditto i have been squeezing the toothpaste from the middle... crazy, right?
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usually thoroughly helpful
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surrender now all intrusive laments grasp
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Scootin' down the track. Grateful for the freedom and taking each day as a gift. I really am concerned (yet, do not seem motivated to DO anything about it) that my quit is only as good as my best day and the choice to remain at home (vs. risking virus laden gas station). I am not having deep overwhelming cravings, I am not roller-coastering on emotion, for these gifts I am grateful. The junkie thinking is here. think again, get right with myself, call an ally, post an sos As the covid -19 virus ramps up in my community (and so many others) ... I hope that I am solid in my quit if someone close to me becomes gravely ill. think again, get right with myself, call an ally, post an sos The way the virus kills is terrifying to me. you'd think I'd keep the same thoughts close about smoking. because that is true, too. Happy to spend time with my marvelous man. happy to walk with my cat. happy to plant seeds. noticing how my breathing is rarely painful. noticing that I am able to increase my heart rate and feel less winded. noticing I am less aware of how my breath smells (not sure that's a good thing). need to take more breaks outside, haven't just sat outside since i quit. big emotions swirling around, Mom's bday is tomorrow. glad she has friend to celebrate with. the surrealness of so many being on lockdown, the horror the health care folks and those that are seriously ill are experiencing, my complete amazement(?) at national leadership....just want to cry. tired, tired, tired...taking otc sleep/pain stuff for last few days....s l o w. NOPE.
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A Sand County Almanac by Aldo Leopold seems like a similar book. It is a series of seasonal and species specific essays about nature as observed on his family property in Wisconsin. Think I'll go dig it out, since I am now living near there and could be experiencing the spring things myself. As for quarantine reviews - Life is a light weight cop drama series set in L.A.. The twist being the lead detective has spent over a decade in prison for a crime he didn't commit. Once exonerated he gets his job back as part of a settlement. It's about what you'd expect for a cop drama series, though I do enjoy the character development more than in most series.
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glad you are feeling confident in your quit and reveling in freedom.
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this one just popped into my head
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Freedom! Well done.
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Spent most of yesterday reading aloud to my marvelous man. We were tending to burn piles on the property. Lovely spring day for it. Saw a white squirrel. First time I have ever seen one. I seem to be grumpy and dumpy... declaring aloud often , " I do not smoke." Have stuck with exercise challenge (2 specific exercises) for 6 days. Limiting news intake. Eating more than my share. Have had chronic pain in my neck for several months. It feels as if steel bands have been installed and I have a very limited range of motion with my head. Some evenings I take PM ibuprofen and am very groggy the next morning into the day. Am feeling very' meh' in all things today. Am reticent in getting myself either out the door to walk with the cat or into the shower. grateful for... my digits - fingers that caress, pinch, grasp, hold, speak ASL, type, bathe, chop, paint, massage and toes that balance, stretch, wiggle, walk, dance healthy skeleton - teeth, jaw, spine, pelvis, clavical, cranium, ankles and wrists and all other skeletal pieces because a sturdy frame affords me strength of movement muscles - because they hold me together and allow me to lift, move, bend, carry, speak, eat, push and pull with ease healthy organs - because my digestion/elimination flows easily, my blood flows freely, oxygen circulates smoothly, my senses inform me of the physical environment the health of those I hold dear - because they are easily thriving my cats, Mani and Poof, - because they bring deep comfort, joy and a fair amount of silliness to life My marvelous man - because my needs to love and be loved are met, and he is really punny.... which leads to much laughter and groaning a beautiful nourishing home - because it feeds & frees my soul to live in the woods and have a sturdy house with many amenities that make life easy (w/d, dw, air/heat, plumbing, fridge, 2 bathrooms, garages) ... we've come a long way baby! lol knowing that things change - because this grumpy dumpy feeling and lethargy will not last forever; nor will the rapid spread of this virus or the stay at home directive (which when I think about it is ironic, as I have sometimes wished I could just hang out at home ... be specific when putting out there what you want... hang out at home (doing/creating art, playing with the pets, creating gardens, fishing, enjoying the company of family and friends), with full income and no one being ill due to a pandemic or other contagion or catastrophic event Freedom from smoking - because I am not a slave to an active nicotine addiction.... 16 plus days without any nicotine entering my body.... quit train - because "we all need a hand to hold onto" I am tired and ..... smoke free. Wow! head/habit aspects of addiction lurking and popping up ... nope, nope, nope. find ways to thrive people!
