Stewbum

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DB. Visceral tug... perfect term for those bewildering moments of confusion throughout the day. The term fits in other aspects of my life, visceral relating to the viscera a term my cardiologist uses directing to the internal organs, of which my 50 years of abuse has sadly damaged. Luckily my body still has the ability to mend. Thank you for your comments they are taken to HEART! But on the lighter side as each day passes and we can (as my father said) sit up and sip soup, hopefully realizing that we are here, we have started this journey to better ourselves and how lucky we are that we still can. Cheers. Stew.

Yoose guys are making me dizzy, back and forth, baaack and foorth, baaack and fooorth. Lucky # 13

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Yoda 9 Linda 8 Me back to 9 Oh no what did I do, sorry sticks we have more competition. Linda play's like Doreen.... : )

Mouthfuls of sugar free gum! Open the door and give a "happy" Halloween scream at the neighbors. Call someone a chat up a storm. Read everything you can on here, search through posts and read the stories, really works for me. Start playing a game on here just stay away from the chick's or sticks game, those chicks can be really mean...

ATE a salad for lunch but wanted pizza.

Happy to have you here Linda. Iam a newbie with the same scenario of a lost quit. Mine was in 2017 and it was close to 8 months clean. I do believe after you give up a quit, that has some serious time attached to it, starting fresh is a little harder. I believe this is because a person knows what the complications are going to be in the beginning. This for me took 6 years but was like snapping my fingers as time just continued and the new quit date just kept moving forward. From what I see at this point (3 months in) is that the previous quit had taught me some real genuine lessons that carried into my wonderful new quit. You know the beginning strife's because they were imprinted on you before. You know the drill and some questions about how you feel are already answered, but you will most likely still need to be reminded and talk your way through it with fellow quitters. Immediately here you have a wonderful group of brothers and sisters that care about your welfare and will help as much as they can to keep us on track. Remember to try for happiness every chance you get, that nicoman loves to get us frustrated, angry and stressed, don't let it get the upper hand. Addictions are hard but you know we weren't meant to naturally be smokers so keep the grip and get back to who you know you were meant to be.... Cheers. Stew.

SEX

Fee Fi Fo Fum.

Doreen. How about a #3 instead.

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NOPE!! NO WAY. NOT TODAY.

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HOPE TO NOPE

Wait....Wait I will continue just can't type because Iam laughing too hard!! Denali....... Little did we know that the terrestrials were very fearful of FLYING POO, they know if they made contact with any POO it may....

I have been doing so well, the thoughts and cravings have become surprisingly easy and a fairly rare occurrence on a day to day basis. I knew that something was going to disturb my "seemingly" easy pace and put pressure on my humble thoughts. I own an Aluminum boat building, specialized equipment design and fabrication business of 45 years. Well today it started in early morning when I decided to go out on the floor and help out with some welding. I put on my common garb that consists of a sweatshirt and a Carhart heavy vest, picked up a welder, it only took me about an hour of very easy " what we call gravy welding"! From the start i was having cravings and blaming the process of the work, the smoke from the welder, crap they were brutal. I would pick up my helmet and just say man I want a cigarette!!! Well after this I got a call and went to a project in the field. I grabbed the shop truck and took off.... all the way for 3 hours there and back fairly constant cravings putting on the pressure. I ate a whole bag of sugar free Jolly Ranchers! What the hell is wrong.... Well I figured out how to solve the problem.... no not pick up a nasty stick and smoke it! For months in my office, I have been involved in drafting a new hull design and the equipment to go with it. Fairly complicated all electric vessel 70' long by 24' wide. This has been since before my quit, I haven't worn my welding gear for probably 6-8 months,,.. (yea your getting it aren't ya). Yep even though the gear didn't smell horrible it did have a faint odor of cigarettes, didn't really even notice. This is not a regular jacket it just hangs with the welding gear that maybe gets washed 3 time's a year. So then I jumped in the shop truck (that I used to smoke in), again not horrible with cig smell but it is there, old habits and surroundings, just didn't put 2 and 2 together!! Got seriously pissed off that that nicodemon was so frickin hard on me and wtf was this brutal day. There were lots of little, almost subconscious reminders that I would like a smoke.!!! Well when my son said at the end of the day how could I handle driving the shop truck because it still smells like cigs......... Me be a dummy!!!!! Yep I had the constant smell picking at my mind and the nicoman addiction talking crap. Funny because if I am around someone that's smoking it has no effect, but this constant little unexpected faint odor, that was mine from the past really put a powerful almost overwhelming charge in my addiction... Wow. Tough day but >>>-------------------------> I win. Cheer's and Be Happy.

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Roll up my pants and run for high ground. Then when I tripped....

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the less you cry......................(Lany) If I could sing like that I would...

I see the battle is brewing... 8

NOPE!!

Congratulations Sazerac wonderful accomplishment. And the best handle ever. Cognac or Rye? I hail from just north of New Orleans, I think my baby bottle was spiked with de Forge Cognac..