Well.
Just got back from a heart procedure after 2 major attacks, (again). In my heart looking around and nothing accomplished.... came home after days of bull-shit.
Wife picked me up in the smokey car with her cigs in her purse, got home to have 2 thought's of smoking last night!!! Being pissed off at the system and exposed in the vehicle caused these thoughts that really haven't been present or powerful in a very long time.. Dam addiction and that fricking demon...
Being a heart patient that is always close to attacks and the certainty of death from smoking is and has been a great deterrent for the cravings. But the smoking bitch was even now trying to work on me.
This is about a month of being attacked from all sides with physical and sickness issues, then that demon bastard decides to raise its lowly head and test my resolve.. WTF
Guaranteed I will win the battle but even testing me has me pissed off.
Always remember depression, and anger can open the door to thoughts of defeat and allow that Demon bastard a foothold.
So be truthful to yourself, alert and always find some happiness.
Even during extremes there is a thought process or activity that can lead you to a smile. Find it!!!!
Don't worry.......Be Happy..
Ok done with the rant, going to my cabin to sit by the river and watch Cooper, my golden, take a swim.
Everyone KTQ
Cheers Stew.
