Loamie

Hi folks, I stumbled upon this group tonight and thought I would give it a go. I am so sick and tired of smoking. It brings me to tears. I have been smoking for about 15 years (36 now). A while back I started vaping for about a year, then quit all nicotine for 5 months using Champix. Then one night, glass of wine, the rest is history. I am back on around 40 a day. I know it all. All the health scares. I have read Allen Carr's book, twice, makes soooooo much sense. I feel deflated. I cannot BELIEVE cigarettes are legal (that's just my angry brain talking, blameshifting I suppose.... But hey, imagine cigarettes just didn't exist). I know everyone uses a different method, so suggestions are welcome, but in the end I know that, ultimately, it's about never smoking again. I suppose the only "method" I have NOT tried is having a support group around. I am even willing to go to rehab, but guess what? They allow cigarettes, because they are not a mind altering substance. I know, I know that if I can beat this, I am capable of anything. I am so tired. Tired of smoking, tired of coughing, tired of tirelessly trying to find ways to stop. Tired of breaking 15 remaining cigarettes in half only to chase down to the nearest gas station for more. Tired of being a slave. I am puffing away as I am typing this. Planning on quitting tomorrow. What ever you feel like saying that you think might help.... Please do Xx L