Vivianne

Yeah.. I am! Just having a hard time waking up lol How have is your day so far Doreen?

Goodmorning all!

Oh yay!! Thank you! (Yeah yeah I am putting my phone down and am going to sleep... *promise*)

Off to bed! Goodnight all! (Note to self: find the random shout out topic)

Hahaha this is awesome

YES!! What a great team effort! Well done.. it was a pleasure

Thank you @jillar. I feel like I am bouncing of the walls, but in a positive way! And I know this will change... but right now I am really happy!

-19 Come on ladies!!!

It's still the 7th here, but I will already pledge my NOPE now!

Thank you Jillar! Your air cigarette is quite famous by now.. I've seen it on the forum a couple of times, so I will give it a go!

Figuring out where to put what on the forum And sipping water every time my junkie mind wants to seduce me to "come over to the dark side" AND getting really annoyed by one of my cats who only finds me very interesting when sitting behind the computer and decides it's great to stroll in front of my monitor and back again over my keyboard.. Oh the joys of being a cat own...slave

-17 Here we go chicks!!

-12 Naaaaaaah... let's not! No rest for the wicked!

-13 @mightyboosh waiting for dinner to arrive, so not really

Thank you for your welcome! I am so excited that I joined! Yes! Found the games! Now let's slap some sticks!

-13 And now with ticker!

-11 Hell yeah! I have a craving to defeat so bring it on!

Death in the west - The Marlboro Story youtube link is down. The documentary can be found on dailymotion here

-9 *high five* @Doreensfree

-7 And I am a stubborn one...just a heads up

-7

So in my preparation to make this attempt a permanent and thus successful one I found this site. I like to blog, have been doing that from the moment my parents decided to listen to my pleads to get (sloowwww) internet. My initial quit date would be the 10th, but well, you know how stuff works... you read, you post and you get highly motivated to quit sooner rather than later. And why not! There is nothing stopping me.. So I need to redo my preparation time table and get this stuff out of my system before I forget or before it gets me. Triggers - I've got so many of 'em Being alone: I am alone a lot. My daughter is 18 and has a boyfriend and a job, so she is really leaving the nest organically so to speak. I also have a new relationship and we see each other 3 times a week. He lives in a different city, has kids and a job too so we need to fiddle our schedules to meet up (but it works, and I am happy! So yay!). Conclusion: I have a lot of time on my hands - well no wait.. I have a lot of time that could trigger a relapse. Friends that smoke: Somehow I seem to have a lot of people around me who still smoke. And that is a trigger. I still wonder why it's so easy for a smoker to give a person who has quit (in my case it was over 9 months) a cigarette because it will calm someone down. I have done it, and in the past year I actually gave people a few minutes to actively decide to steal a cigarette from me - but I did still give someone that relapse cigarette (shame on me...) Long car rides: I don't smoke inside nor do I smoke in the car (okay that's a lie... I have the tendency to smoke in the car on long car rides when I alone... ). To " relax" and take the needed breaks during the trip I smoke a cigarette. And of course when the trip is over, as soon as I get out of the car.. The after-workout- cigarette: My neighbour and I are training partners, and he smokes.. when I started in 2017 I was still a non-smoker (or an inbetween-er) and his reward after a hard workout (which is every workout) is a cigarette. He has told me about growth hormones and that is is somehow a good thing and blablabla *insert many weak pro smoking arguments* and when I relapsed I joined in. Creating a new trigger. Phone calls: Ever since the phone got wireless and, after that, boundaryless (mobile) I take my calls outside with a cigarette Sex: No need to get into this. Food related triggers: Hunger, after a full meal, etc Concentration span is gone.. so I am gonna leave it for now and will get back to it when I feel like writing more about my triggers.

Thank you for your energetic reply! I know I can do it too, I really need to separate myself from the junkie/addiction voice inside my head and accept that I am an addict. Yeah I have been through that whole process, so it was already on my to do list. Went to the grocery store just now and got the necessary survival kit (including puzzle books... I need to reroute my mind when it gets too tough... or post an sos ;)) I know my dog is gonna enjoy the extra long walks lol I am really lucky that I don't have any health problems, but - I wanna keep it that way. So I am not gonna wait any longer and quit now (well now is already an hour ago - so yay me!) Thank you for your welcome! Thank you! I will do just that and make this my second home as long as it takes! Thanks! And indeed it is.. time to make me proud! I already read some of the posts there, and I recognise so much of the last time. It doesn't really scare me (at the moment) - I can see the humour of it all..* *Remind me when I don't anymore Again thank you all for the great welcome! You are such a big help!

I'll be honest Sazerac, being here, reading posts and watching videos, are actually giving me the same feeling. I wanna quit now and not wait 3 more days.. So ... I am gonna throw everything out! I am gonna start cleaning, get rid of all smoke related objects - and start on a high Thank you (all) for posting here! It is the best motivator there is!

Thank you Sazerac for your links and welcome! I think I saw Joel's videos in 2017 as well. It helped me a lot, but I will rewatch them!