Vivianne

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I need to read this topic as many times as needed. I am guilty of romancing the cigarette.. and on day 3 hanging on for dear life. My addiction is acting like a rebelious teen and giving me a hundered ways on how to sneak in a cig... or where to buy it, how to hide it from everyone here (I can't and won't , I am a lousy liar.. 1 lie will keep me up for nights... ). My addiction is lying to me - telling me it won't happen to me, I won't get sick... I am invincible, I am not a heavy smoker... so... So many thoughts running through my mind... can't keep up with them

-8! Congratz on another clean win!

Goooooodmorning!!!!

Nope!

-12 Edit: jinx!

Drunk but no need for cigs!! Yay me

Alright time to go! Long car ride.. *danger danger* -nah I am okay Aware of the risk.. and I have my phone so if push comes to shove I will post an sos right in front of the gas station before going in... See you all again later!

-4 I have to go now.. so hope someone takes my spot

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-4 @bakon honest mistake I won't do it again! Pinky swear!

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Chi-Chi Gotèn And there is a Sem (red, 16 years old, mixed breed) , but he somehow avoids my camera..

Introducing my dog Cailean - Swiss white shepherd (and daughter)

Wow what a beautiful cat @mightyboosh I'll post a pic of my 'sweeties' later..

You are welcome!

Ah yeah I was already in doubt about that one.. oh well -2 it is!

Approaching 24 hours! Mood: Mostly positive and highly energetic with little swings towards the negative side and the " &#$^$ FYA!" thoughts But I am still standing! *yeah yeah yeah* Anyway, my mind is racing as is my body (I might need to up my adhd meds.. ) I tried naptime, but that didn't agree lol So here I am just rambling on and on and on.. I have nothing to tell, but time to kill I am pledging my NOPE again here for today - I have told my dad today about my pledge and my plan, and he was very proud. He suffered a stroke and had a double bypass this year... but he did quit immediately - he is one of my heroes. Gonna see the boyfriend unit this afternoon, he doesn't smoke, he never did. But he did a lot of research on the addiction topic and he is very understanding and supporting. Yeah this works! Deep Breaths, sip of water, music, singing, dancing... this moment will pass too!

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Hi Axyz! Well we all know how those relapses are... and good for you that you are not going back to smoking! - but- make a plan, you don't want to fall into that same pit over and over again.. (which will guarantee a relapse) Stay closer to the forum and commit!

Viv- No no no no no no no no no no no nope nope nope.... there is no need... it doesn't calm you down, it doesn't add anything to your life, the best things in life need work so this is good for you! " I didn't come this far just to come this far"

My to do list is shrinking rapidly Renewed drivers licence ѵ Got groceries ѵ Got new car tires ѵ Paid the bills ѵ Clean the kitchen...... And that JAC thing works like a charm! I felt really silly in the car, but it works.. so HA!

Haha no... just got my drivers license renewed

Waiting in line at cityhall... bluhhhhh

lol @Boo - of course I meant start again, not buy another pack, not take another puff ever Thank you all again for the warm welcomes!