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sugar is an addiction .. yesterday i ate 300 gr. of chocolate .. i basically eat any amount i have at home .. therefore how unnerving it is that if you want to buy just a little piece of your favourite stuff, you cant because they are selling only big boxes .. sigh... keep up good work Kel !
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Hey Yoda I think there is something in your hypothesis regarding connection between for example sugar addition and nicotine .. i have experienced more cravings for smoking when I was eating gluten .. sugar doesn't seem to effect me so much in that sense, but bread pasta etc... yes - how strange - probably similar mechanism to drinking alcohol and increased craving to smoke. Congrats on your quit! I am on my 10th day of quit .. can't sleep and so feeling like a zombie ..
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ok.. today is my third day quit .. with a little bit of help from nicotine replacement tablets .. first day wasn't too bad .. but yesterday i was feeling nostalgic, sad, like a depression creeping in... as if i had lost some a dear friend .. (terrible feeling) and so deceitful! .. Actually, today is my brother's birthday - but he died - lost to another addiction ..
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Thanks you are right ... indeed there are things that are laying around and could do with my attention... qi gong sounds good too ... oh dancing! Yeah I love that ...
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Ok .. step one - i will take a shower .. i still dont know if today is going to be the day ... of quitting .. but does it make sense to start in the midday..?? then i need to confirm exactly what time i have a my dentist app... today ... i sometimes forget things .. i mix them up .. but than in the eve I probably meet a friend in a park - this is something to look forward to .. ! if that happens .. because she works a lot and hopefully she will still have the energy.. life is not fair (who said it was supposed to be, right?! ) some have too much work .. some none!
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thank you all for your support! I am here .. today 8 am ... and thinking of all the reasons not to quit.. that is my brain telling me, it is a internal fight .. when shall i start : now?? there still 3 left in the pack but how will i mange ... here is what reasons I have.. ( i really hope my identity is not recognised .. ) Please do rationalyse it - please do tell me it is wrong .. -my brain is mess - apparently i have cPTSD - dysregulation .. etc .. - i probably can not manage myself - and my therapist .. yeah .. the therapists hiere (I live in Switzerland _ i hope that is OK that join this forum - it is not country restricted?) they do not support quitting smoking !! i was told that before .. because they believe it is too much to handle for a patient .. so not much support there ... - I have nothing to do - no day structure - out of work - no family - how do i keep myself busy - it already drives me mad!! I already struggle to go out of the flat even for a walk .. how will i keep myself busy .. although i suspect my current heavy smoking is actually a result of frustration of this situation and avoiding something ... avoidance of what .. ? will i find out when i quit ? and probably will have to face it...??! OMG... that is terrifying.. ... and on the other hand .. i feel my "lungs are talking to me" .. they struggle .. and are begging me please stop that .. and that horrible taste in my mouth ..
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... and last time when I was quitting with support of this forum - it was sooo easy .. suspiciously easy.. and when got back to smoking it hit me like never before, from having one cigarette i bought a pack straight away and was smoking more than ever per day ..
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.. how did it happen again .. why am i in the starting point again .. i dont know - i can not figure it out, and i was postponing the quiting till i know what happened, till i am "smart enough" .. but i dont think i will ever know it .. and I can not smoke anymore - i feel like it is killing me - not even my body - but my mind!! does it make sense??
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Good morning/evening to all, it is a day 4! .. and I am actually doing good ...i am not struggling as much i did in the past.. which is strange.. it makes me feel: - embarrassed: why was i postponing it for so long .. and was panicking about the quit exactly!! - embarrassed also because.. i am wondering why am i so privileged to have it easier than others .. feeling sorry for others .. - anxious that the addiction is not manifesting right now as expected and normal.. but it will hit me later when i am less cautious.. - as it is being a relatively easy quit .. i may just think .. oh.. i have no problem .. i can do it any time .. .. and will relapse again .. today was actually somehow the hardest day so far .. more cravings and i felt like crying ... not sure if it is due to quitting or life itself ..
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Thank you , thank you all! .. the day one has began for me .. I am just trying to make myself busy... and concrete on something different that’s why I didn’t respond so far .. I will try to survive till the evening and then I will reflect... that’s the plan...
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tomorrow ... thank you both.. i am already totally stressed and irritated .. and feel that cribbeling .. therefor i think it is regardless smoking .. and smoking may make it actually worse ..
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Hello all, Please I need your help, support. I want to quit again ... I’m struggling with making this decision, scared of making decision ... shall i do it now or tomorrow..? I’ve done it several times before: each time was different. Sometimes it was a huge struggle sometimes easier .. Once i even thought: OK i am quitting the last time: if it works great, if it doesn’t ... let it be.. I was so tired of going through it, that I was ready to accept it if I had failed .. but here I am and I don’t want to accept it ... it is so self- destructive .. so against the human nature .. I feel horrible.. i feel guilty, frustrated, and angry at myself .. Just a thought of quitting makes me panic and make grab another one . ... just as if I wanted to store as much as possible in me .. haha ... how absurd.. I had some good excuses why I started again .. but I know I didn’t have to - it was self pity or self distraction.. Please help me with starting ... and I will keep going ... the words: "you can do it" can do miracles.. all the best to all of you - keep on ..